dont know where else to say this

[aminal]

I need to vent. im so scared of everything, and failing at this. i dont deserve to belong here. i feel so awful. im ruining my relationship, i cant find work, i desperately need money.. interviews from hell.. i just cant stop crying.. even with taking xanax which i shouldnt because i abuse it. im so lost. i need someone. i think everyone has given up on me. i cant do this. im such an awful destructive person. im sorry. i cant go through mothers day. i cant...

[Bamboozle]

Hey, aminal. Call up a good friend. Surround yourself with people. Stick around SR for a while and read a lot and post a lot. Do you have a therapist or a psychiatrist? If you do, you can call him/her.

[hippyhippy]

I just kinda want you to know someone is listening. I know how awful it is to feel like everything is falling apart. There are so many 'can'ts' in your post and while I am sure that is how it feels, I bet the truth is far for from that. The difficulty with depression is it is so hard to see out of that black hole. It is hard to remember that we ever felt good or that we can feel good again.
When you say you don't deserve to belong here, do you mean here...sober recovery? Why would you think that? You are like the rest of us, we all deserve the support and care that SR gives.
When is mothers day for you? It is obviously a different time in UK as we have already had ours. Tell me what is so difficult about it? What can be done to make it easier?
You are not failing. You are finding things extremely tough just now and need to cut yourself a bit of slack. It seems to me you are giving yourself such a hard time.
Take care and keep talking.
Hippy
x

[chill]

I wish I had something great to say, but I'm in the same situation. Sometimes it helps just to know that somone else is going through the same situation. Hopefully we'll both get through this.