miserable in my head

[crzylilmndfreak]

these so very extreme racing, obsessive thoughts are driving me absolutely batty, i dont know what to do about it, i suppose it is part of having BPD? i dont know, i am on ocd med, mabe need to up the dose, i am also on Zyprexa, because i am constantly hearing things that havent been said, like i will be having a conversation with a friend, and swear up and down that they said a certain thing, that they say they didnt say, my mind plays tricks on me all the time, and i jsut wish i could take a "vacation" from my head once in a while, well all in a while i am so feaked out about leaving the house,
not really sure what im asking, i just want to know that im not the only one, i guess , I jsut feel like no one understand what its like in my head,

[Sweets79]

Originally Posted by crzylilmndfreak

these so very extreme racing, obsessive thoughts are driving me absolutely batty, i dont know what to do about it, i suppose it is part of having BPD? i dont know, i am on ocd med, mabe need to up the dose, i am also on Zyprexa, because i am constantly hearing things that havent been said, like i will be having a conversation with a friend, and swear up and down that they said a certain thing, that they say they didnt say, my mind plays tricks on me all the time, and i jsut wish i could take a "vacation" from my head once in a while, well all in a while i am so feaked out about leaving the house,
not really sure what im asking, i just want to know that im not the only one, i guess , I jsut feel like no one understand what its like in my head,

Hi...I can relate to the obsessive thinking...and extreme thoughts...It happens to me alot before I go to bed at night..but alot of times I notice my brain gets stuck on one thing and I can't let it go... That was one of the reasons I would drink...was to calm my thoughts, try to escape "my head" and get some freakin peace for a few hours...Sometimes though, when I drank too much it would race even more, so I had to find that medium where I could just think straight and relax my mind for awhile...I'm sorry I have no real good advice for you...People have told me to get out for awhile, walk, talk to a friend, plant a freakin flower lol , I don't know.... none of that seemed to help...I would think the D.R. could prescribe some meds for you to help ease the racing thoughts.

[crzylilmndfreak]

i hope so, but what might be the best medicine for something like that??

[Sweets79]

Originally Posted by crzylilmndfreak

i hope so, but what might be the best medicine for something like that??

I'm not really sure...you can try researching it online...find out what medications are used for ocd and anxiety...As far as I know racing thoughts are mostly connected to ocd and anxiety, at least that's what I experience and I have alot of anxiety...I can't stop thinking sometimes.. even if I try, especially if something is bothering me...Or sometimes I just have unpleasant thoughts and the more I try to get rid of them, the more I think of them... I would just do some research on here and talk to your doctor...I haven't had the best luck with doctors...I don't like many of them, or maybe I just haven't found a good one...but a good D.R. should understand your symptoms and be able to prescribe something that can help...There's so much medicine out there, I'm sure there is something for you..I'm not a big fan of meds, but when you need it, you need it.

[crzylilmndfreak]

Originally Posted by Sweets79

I'm not really sure...you can try researching it online...find out what medications are used for ocd and anxiety...As far as I know racing thoughts are mostly connected to ocd and anxiety, at least that's what I experience and I have alot of anxiety...I can't stop thinking sometimes.. even if I try, especially if something is bothering me...Or sometimes I just have unpleasant thoughts and the more I try to get rid of them, the more I think of them... I would just do some research on here and talk to your doctor...I haven't had the best luck with doctors...I don't like many of them, or maybe I just haven't found a good one...but a good D.R. should understand your symptoms and be able to prescribe something that can help...There's so much medicine out there, I'm sure there is something for you..I'm not a big fan of meds, but when you need it, you need it.

I hate the fact that i need to be on meds, i wish like hell that i didnt have so much "noise" in my head all the time...i have been on so many different things, i feel just like giving up at this point

[Sweets79]

Originally Posted by crzylilmndfreak

I hate the fact that i need to be on meds, i wish like hell that i didnt have so much "noise" in my head all the time...i have been on so many different things, i feel just like giving up at this point

Don't give up right now...I felt like I wanted too many times..I'm having a rough day today, only day 5 of no alcohol..but I am trying to hang in there...and you can't give up...once of your replies in another thread made me laugh...you just said "really"? I started crackin up lol

[Isaiah]

I have BPD too. I haven't had much of a problem with racing thoughts, but I do have thoughts that get stuck in my head and are hard to erase--especially bad ones. And sometimes I do have a tendency to mishear people. I think it has a lot to do with obsessively wanting to predict everyone's reaction all the time and getting carried away in it.

I get all kinds of problems with my thoughts. BPD screws up your stress tolerance, your ability to concentrate, how you react to the world. That can add on all sorts of problems not even necessarily associated with the DSM-V criteria.

Like lately I've been under a lot of emotional and mental stress and I'm finding that my short term memory is shot, and I'm confused often and find it hard to explain to people what emotion I'm feeling.

I feel for you. It's tough; hang in there.