What, flirting??

[jazzz]

My girlfriend is very angry with me at the moment. She insists I flirted with a girl visiting us with some other friends of mine. The problem is, I don't know what she's talking about. I find myself very very misunderstood. I've got social anxiety. I've got IT cause it feels like a disease. It's taking so much of my mental energy, and I feel empy inside. "Vacant" is the word, perhaps..

I didn't drink alcohol (quit 2 months ago, was a binge drinker) but I smoked pot, and when I do that I become very socially anxious (yet I do it, why?) and so I put on this facade. It's like what's inside doesn't fit the outside at all.

I have no respect for myself whatsoever.

Why can't I relax and connect??

What is this? I feel so spaced sometimes. Scared. Alone. Determined to not drink (coz I think it will save me).

[kj3880]

To be honest, this is a confusing post. What are you asking?

KJ

[nandm]

Sorry you are struggling. Stopping drinking is a good start on dealing with your social anxiety. As you stated pot will increase anxiety in many individuals. Stopping it might be of great benefit to you. Do you have a counselor, therapist, or psych doc? Are you on any medications for the anxiety disorder? If not consider finding a doctor to treat the disorder. There is a solution.