Vent session, nothing more

[LaDita]

It's only been a little under 24 hours since I last visited the board but it feels like a loooong time.
I had a pretty good day today, until sometime this evening I started to feel odd. A very strong guilt feeling of sorts, like there's someone out there whose really mad at me right now, I just don't know who it is or why. There are plenty of people out there who have plenty reason to be mad at me, and I'm not sure it will ever go away. :

I don't know if it's "old" that I feel, but my body and my mind just feel blah lately. I feel like I have been inside my body and my mind too long and I want to get out of them, if that makes sense.

I saw my new counselor yesterday and I'll be honest, I am a little skeptical. She's not what I expected. She's very pragmatic and it's probably too soon to tell, but I'm not sure she's able to help in the area's I really need help in. I'm going to give her a shot, but also keep looking.

Well that's all I have to say, just had to get it out there and didn't know where else to put it so I put it here.

Thanks for reading,

LD

[historyteach]

Sometimes, a counselor an client just don't "click." When that happens, it's best to end it and move on. I once waited far too long with a counselor that was a real control freak. I worked really hard, in my codie fashion, to try and make it work. It didn't. Oh, and the drama at the end. LOL! It just isn't worth it.

I'm glad you're going to give it a shot. We can jump to conclusions too fast too, before knowing. But, if after a few sessions, things aren't working out, you'll know.

I've learned my lesson. And now, I'm loosing my counselor of years, as she's moving on. I've got to decide whether to move on to another or quit. It's the "dark season" when I have my difficult time, so, I think i know what I'm going to do -- try another. But, I'm not looking forward to the change...

Is it the winter blahs that you have? Cuz, I go through that too. When I just have no energy at all. I really have to force myself. I *know* I have to exercise, and that helps me have more energy. Unfortunately, I've been a slug lately; not doing what I know I'm supposed to be doing; what I know works. I'm paying the price now. But, it *may* be Seasonal Affective Disorder, (SAD), that you're experiencing. I go through it every winter. And this is gearing up to be a bear of a winter!

As far as those feelings of guilt, well, you know, we cannot control any feelings or thoughts that come into our heads. But, we don't have to feed them either. If there is not substance to those feelings, just feel it and let it go. Actively try to replace it with something else. By *doing* something else, we change our thoughts and feelings. If we sit and brood on it, it will only make us feel worse. But, by changing our *behavior,* what we are actually doing, it is by necessity that our thoughts and feelings change too. This practice is based on Wm. Glasser's Control Theory, Reality Therapy. I've found it to be very successful for myself many times.

Try it and see if it helps.
Let me know, ok?

Shalom!