I'm desperate

[NoLongerAJunkie]

I have tried everything, I'm currently in recovery for drugs as well. I have 35 days clean today, but now that I'm starting to get rid of 1 addiction, another surfaces. I used to cut when I was 12 until I was like 14, then I quit. and i'd have a few slip up's once in a great while. but nothing serious, and now everynight i've been coming home and just sitting there for like an hour or more, just cutting my wrists... just letting the blood drip all over my notebook, my face, anything! I just want to see blood, that's all I want. And I know if I keep doing this, i'm going to lose my boyfriend... buut I can't quite find the drive to quit... HELP!

[historyteach]

Hi, No Longer,
I moved your post to it's own thread so it could be seen, and it wouldn't get lost.

I do hope you got some good information from the sticky on self injury above. Here's the link, if you'd like to reference it again:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...lf-injury.html (Self Injury)

Please note that Isaiah has a thread started too. Here's the link to it.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...anonymous.html (Cutters Anonymous)
The two of you may want to talk, as you both seem to have the same issues. When we share our Experience, Strength and Hope, that's when we know we are not alone, and the journey to health becomes possible.

You may also want to try Emotions Anonymous if there is a meeting in your area.
Emotions Anonymous World Meeting List

I look forward to getting to know you as we both grow in our recovery.

Shalom!

[mxchaos]

Have you looked into therapy? I found DBT therapy very helpfull in fighting my self destructive ways. You don't have to cut you can be healthy and deal with emotions in a good way please seek help, it works