day 24

[rjw1482]

day 24 , i suffered servre depression from some a run of problems i had at the start of this year which really lead me into my heavy binging n constant drinking. I was taking medicationd for about 4months n was improving but with the improvement came the want to go n out socialise which being a mid 20's male in australia always ends up with beer in hand. the more "fun" i had the more i wanted which meant more drinking. then i found a new job n moved away to start this job and then i started drinking even more and more then the weekend binges were lasting 3-4 days n the depresssion and lack of self confidence has worked its way back into my life. Now that im sober im still struggling with the depression n seein were my confidence has basiclly become non existant from lettin myself become this kind of person. Ill admit i havent thought of suicide or anything but i cant see much of a future 2day....

[historyteach]

Hi, rjw, and welcome to SR and the MH forum!

I'm sorry to see you struggling so. Drinking counters the effects of your medication. Alcohol is a depressant. So, taking an anti-depressant while drinking is just about worthless. They counter each other. Do you have a drinking problem? I ask because only you can answer that question. At any rate, I hope you can stop drinking and allow your medication to take hold so you can deal effectively with your depression.

Others will be here to share their own experience too. I hope to get to know you better as we both grow in our recovery.

Shalom!

[rjw1482]

thanx , yeah i had a massive problem with alcohol but im 24 days sober. At first it was more the want and cravin for alcohol that was gettin me down but as the urge to drink decipates my depression has risen its ugly head. Ive started back on my meds but i guess its a lil waiting game now.

thank u for your help

[shutterbug]

How long ago do you think the drinking started leading into problem drinking?
Have you ever had issues with serious depression BEFORE the drinking became a problem?

I ask because, often it has been discovered that addictions rise out of an attempt to self-medicate a deeper issue. And with your age in your 20's, it also makes me wonder if there might be some underlying issue?

Do you know of any other family members, on either mom or dad's side, having ANY issues with addiction or depression or other mental illness issues?

Finally, are you in AA?

((hugs))
Jenna