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Wolf_22 · 10-09-2008, 01:57 PM

I'm so sad and depressed.

Sometimes, I get so down that I just sit and stare into blankness. While I know I'm not fixing things by doing this, sometimes, it's the only solace I get when I'm attacked on so many fronts.

Take for instance, my degree. I graduated back in May of 2007. My major was Information Technology (IT), so you would think that I would have all sorts of opportunities for employment. My first career job ended miserably after a year. They terminated me due to performance. I had no idea what I was doing as I was a programmer programming in a very old and archaic programming technology.

During that horrible year, I was trying to get through severe depression as my girlfriend left me. Later on that year, I painfully discovered that she had moved on from seeing images of her being kissed by the new guy through the internet.

Fast forward to today, and I'm still unemployed. I've moved back to the town I graduated college from, and have been turned down for a job already. I'm going back to school, though, through the help of my wonderful grandmother this January to begin English Composition. As soon as I get registered for classes, I plan on getting some counseling from the counseling center. While I wish I could solve my problems on my own (which I think I can through time and constant application submission), I feel like it would be a healthy thing to do to talk to someone who is a licensed professional, ya know? I find it very difficult to do anything anymore. I mean, things that I enjoy, like making websites and stuff, I find little interest in because it somehow "emotionally reminds me" of my dreaded past experiences of missing my ex, going through hell with my past employer, etc.

Could someone please give me an internet hug!

12platoon · 10-09-2008, 02:07 PM

I,m thinking of you....Lots and lots of big hugs for you.

12platoon

***nandm*** · 10-09-2008, 02:12 PM

Welcome to our mental health forum!

TTOSBT · 10-09-2008, 02:29 PM

Wolf

I am so sorry that you are so down.
I am hurting myself today but we are not alone

mike13 · 10-09-2008, 02:32 PM

thats for you! hang in there.

***Freedom1990*** · 10-09-2008, 06:36 PM

Consider yourself hugged, my friend! :ghug2

I've been going to counseling on a regular basis since December of last year when I hit a period of depression that was so severe I was having suicidal thoughts.

I think it's great you have a goal of going back to school again!

I went to tech school many years ago, landed a good job as a programmer/analyst, and then got pink-slipped after 17 months as they laid off half the company.

I went through Manpower, had a professional headhunter, and sadly the only openings in my area were for senior programmers, which I was not yet.

Lots of hard years after that, working what jobs that I could and now I am finally in college full-time to complete my degree.

Wishing you nothing but the best, and vent anytime you need to!

Wolfstarr · 10-09-2008, 07:39 PM

From one Wolf to another....

you'll get through this! Prayers, healing and light to you Wolf...

10-09-2008, 01:57 PM	#1 (permalink)
Wolf_22 Want to form an alliance? :.) Join Date: Jul 2005 Posts: 145	Major Vent: Life changes, impacts, etc. I'm so sad and depressed. Sometimes, I get so down that I just sit and stare into blankness. While I know I'm not fixing things by doing this, sometimes, it's the only solace I get when I'm attacked on so many fronts. Take for instance, my degree. I graduated back in May of 2007. My major was Information Technology (IT), so you would think that I would have all sorts of opportunities for employment. My first career job ended miserably after a year. They terminated me due to performance. I had no idea what I was doing as I was a programmer programming in a very old and archaic programming technology. During that horrible year, I was trying to get through severe depression as my girlfriend left me. Later on that year, I painfully discovered that she had moved on from seeing images of her being kissed by the new guy through the internet. Fast forward to today, and I'm still unemployed. I've moved back to the town I graduated college from, and have been turned down for a job already. I'm going back to school, though, through the help of my wonderful grandmother this January to begin English Composition. As soon as I get registered for classes, I plan on getting some counseling from the counseling center. While I wish I could solve my problems on my own (which I think I can through time and constant application submission), I feel like it would be a healthy thing to do to talk to someone who is a licensed professional, ya know? I find it very difficult to do anything anymore. I mean, things that I enjoy, like making websites and stuff, I find little interest in because it somehow "emotionally reminds me" of my dreaded past experiences of missing my ex, going through hell with my past employer, etc. Could someone please give me an internet hug! __________________

10-09-2008, 02:12 PM	#3 (permalink)
*nandm* Life the gift of recovery! Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Home is where the heart is Posts: 6,579	Welcome to our mental health forum! __________________ NOTE: All BB quotes are from the 1st Edition of the Big Book Depression is not a sign of weakness. It is a sign of being too strong for too long.

10-09-2008, 02:32 PM	#5 (permalink)
mike13 Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: dirty south, TX Posts: 53	thats for you! hang in there. __________________

10-09-2008, 06:36 PM	#6 (permalink)
*Freedom1990* Wesley Employee Extraordinaire Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: Kansas Posts: 9,340	Consider yourself hugged, my friend! :ghug2 I've been going to counseling on a regular basis since December of last year when I hit a period of depression that was so severe I was having suicidal thoughts. I think it's great you have a goal of going back to school again! I went to tech school many years ago, landed a good job as a programmer/analyst, and then got pink-slipped after 17 months as they laid off half the company. I went through Manpower, had a professional headhunter, and sadly the only openings in my area were for senior programmers, which I was not yet. Lots of hard years after that, working what jobs that I could and now I am finally in college full-time to complete my degree. Wishing you nothing but the best, and vent anytime you need to! __________________ DeVon & the Zoo Crew ‎Worry is a thin stream of fear trickling through the mind. If encouraged, it cuts a channel into which all other thoughts are drained. ~Arthur Somers Roche

10-09-2008, 07:39 PM	#7 (permalink)
Wolfstarr Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Deeeep South Posts: 767	From one Wolf to another.... you'll get through this! Prayers, healing and light to you Wolf... __________________

10-09-2008, 02:07 PM	#2 (permalink)
12platoon Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: sunderland england Posts: 11	I,m thinking of you....Lots and lots of big hugs for you. 12platoon

10-09-2008, 02:29 PM	#4 (permalink)
TTOSBT To Thine Own Self Be True Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: So Cal Posts: 1,948	Wolf I am so sorry that you are so down. I am hurting myself today but we are not alone

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