BP Town -- Open to anyone who rides the rollar coaster Pt II

[mxchaos]

yes I have a DR see him on FRiday next week if it gets worse I'll call

[liveweyerd]

Good plan!

It's early, there will be others here soon....who can probably be more help than I.

I am tired and grumpy. Sorry about that.

[liveweyerd]

I went grocery shopping yesterday and did it differently.....stocked up on fresh fruits, nuts, some healthy premade salads: a broccoli salad and waldorf salad, and a big container of vanilla yogurt. And some healthy choice frozen dinners. Etc
I ate the lemon pepper fish with rice, broccoli, and a deserts of cherries, apple and oats.
Ate a good size helping of the broccoli salad.
And became totally ravenous,...it was all just an appetizer and I had overlooked that I am primarily a carnivore, with some homefried german potatoes eater etc.
Got right back in the car, went to Arby's with their 5 for 5.95 special and picked up ham and cheese melts, roastbeef and cheddar (asking for enough horseradish to give me a fever and make me cry) and potato cakes. split it with hubs...I saved the ham and cheese for today....but I am telling you that roastbeef disappeared so quickly my sinuses did not even know there was horseradish! Laid down a bit, then got back up and mixed some yogurt with peach glaze and pecans for dessert.
Now woke up HUNGRY again!
This from someone who often forgets to eat!
Gratefully I have a fast metabolism.

I miss every one of you....come back! come back!

[historyteach]

Live and all...
I've been spending a lot of time at the hospital with my mom.
I'm sorry I cannot be here as much right now.
Her time is near; I want to be with her.
I know you will understand...

Please say a prayer or send your vibes to the universe, whatever it is you do, for the end of my mom's pain... She is at peace with what is.

Shalom!

[IO Storm]

HT..

I am bipolar....haven't been in the forum lately and just saw this. I live with

my ailing 83 year old mother. You certainly have my prayers, dear.



Blessings

[liveweyerd]

Oh, Teach, I know where you and your heart are! Sending all the lovingkindness I can your way.

[nandm]

Welcome to BP Town, Storm. Always good to see a new face. Feel free to discuss anything here as this thread is kind of like going into a coffee shop and visiting with friends. There is no main topic. Hope you enjoy our little slice of the pie.

Teach, you have been and still are in my thoughts and prayers.

[liveweyerd]

Resume
by Dorothy Parker 1926


Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.


My sick sense of humor for today.

[IO Storm]

Well..guess I'll bump thjis one up. Do any of you guys ever get weird thoughts

when you are when you are trying to read a novel? Like Turret's Syndrome

of the mind?

[IO Storm]

It's frustrating...but I just keep refocusing...reading a 1168 page King novel

right now. Repetitive thoughts pop up..sheeeesh.

Oh! BP...500mg Depakote 100mg Topomax

Just increased thyroid meds...

[liveweyerd]

I am a dedicated bookworm, but there are times when I simply cannot focus, I don't comprehend.........in my case this is an unfortunate side effects of the medication I am on. At other times, close to pms, I may read 8 or more books in row, back to back.....so it comes and goes.
When I find reading difficult, I just set it aside rather than frustrate myself.

Even when I cannot read books, I can come here.

I am, however, a person who needs alot of space, so then I do not even come here.

I try not to frustrate myself! Sometimes when one book loses me, I find that another grabs my interest.

I am not familiar with your meds, but the dosage change could have something to do with it, it always takes time to re-stabilize on new drugs or changed dosages.



Teacher, Danny and I had a long talk today about you and your mother (and our beliefs about such issues) we are hoping for the blessing of her peaceful passing, as you both are suffering needlessly by this going on and continuing. May she pass and rest in peace.
Your asking for that also shows your great love and compassion and respect for her.
Don't forget to take care of yourself!

[IO Storm]

Originally Posted by liveweyerd

Resume
by Dorothy Parker 1926


Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.


My sick sense of humor for today.

Live...

I missed this before....I like it.

[liveweyerd]

Shocks some people, but those of you who have struggled with the idea of suicide, several of us like to make morbid jokes, that no one gets unless they have been there.

Shutterbug and I were on the phone, as her computer access is limited and we got a good hearty laugh out of it....and laughter is GOOD medicine!

Take care and come back and keep us updated.

WE have such a great group here....just several people are very busy right now.

[hippyhippy]

Teach, my thoughts are with you and your mom. I wish you strength and send you my love.

Live,

Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren't lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.

I like this hun. As you say, you need to be have been there to get it.

My love to all of you. Nadm, cinders, IO storm (nice to see you here) mx chaos (nice to see you too)
xxx

I am writing this from hospital social club. I am in patient again ! However, I am ok (ish!) and repairing myself again. My allergic reaction to my med set me back a bit. They have put me on it again as they are hoping that it is a transient reaction. They might be right as the rash seems to be fading. I still need the anti histamine for the rash though. If it doesn't go away soon though, they are taking me off it and back to the drawing board.

My love to all, especially anyone I haven't mentioned by name.
Hippy
xxx

[IO Storm]

Thanks for the response Live and hippy!

Yeppies. Been there. Twice.

Lately it's just that "worthless" feeling crap, you know what I mean?

No danger..

But that poem made me laugh.

I get it..I get it.

[IO Storm]

hippy..

Take care!

[nandm]

Sorry I haven't been around much. Good to see all of you still keeping the dust out of BP town.

My back has been giving me h*ll lately. Unfortunately the options for me right now are already being or have been tried. They won't do surgery until the nerve is actually impinged by the disc rather than pressure being put on the nerve because of the disc. To me it sounds like more of a play on words but I do understand the concept. Oh well, hopefully the good days will come back shortly and I will not wake up in pain constantly anymore.

Looks like I am going to take the dogs to the beach today to escape the heat around here. It is supposed to get up well above 100* F. Thank God the new windows were put in this past week, it will save me some money on cooling bills. Took some medicine to try and get the back calmed down and have the TENS unit on it right now so hopefully I can have fun at the beach.

Take care everyone.

[liveweyerd]

I am so sorry for the back pain, Judith.

Similar to hubs situation. He also has a bone spur and we are pushing for surgery.
They put him on a fenytal patch Wednesday, go back next Wed to titrate up...since nothing up to now has helped worth mentioning.


Hippy, great to hear from you. I miss my favorite Hippy when she is gone!

IOStorm, good to have you with us! And thanks for helping keep the thread going.
Others will be back or new friends will join us.

I have been busy cleaning and re-organizing everything in the living room and making sure hubs is an equal partner, something he is not used to. LMAO
Had to play hardball and give the distinct impression, that nobody gets dinner until today's chores are COMPLETED.

Hugs,
Live

[nandm]

Got some good news today. I have been concerned about my financial aid for school as it was cancelled due to disqualification because I missed too many classes due to my PTSD. I filed an appeal and had my psyc doc write a letter as well. Today I found out that for Fall 2008 through summer 2008 I will recieve nearly 14,000 in financial aid. What a blessing. Even though a portion of that is in a loan it is a relatively small amount. That means I can actually finish with school and afford to continue my therapy for the PTSD and hopefully wind up able to work. I wish I could return to nursing as it pays so well but even the thought of it brings up extreme anxiety. I feel rather guilty for not being able to handle going back as I know I was a good nurse and gave my patients exceptional care. But that is part of the problem, the overachiever, the feeling of having to give 120% but yet not feeling like I was doing enough. That contributed to my PTSD as much as anything else I suppose. Oh well, right now I have a path that is open for me to follow so here I go. I have signed up for only online classes so getting to class despite the anxiety will not be a problem so I should have no problem with making the grades.

The beach was perfect today. The dogs loved it. It was a perfect day to be there. I am looking forward to taking a 3 day weekend trip before school starts. Hopefully it will be stormy as I love to watch the ocean when a storm is coming in, it is beautiful.

Take care everyone.

Live, sent out two postcards today. Got one from you a day or so ago. Thanks, it brought a smile to my face. I needed it. Your timing is wonderful.

[liveweyerd]

Great news with the financial aid, Judith! And online to help with anxiety...never doubt that you are an overcomer!
It troubles me too that I will not be able to return to my former career which paid extremely well, but I really know in my heart that I just can't do it anymore.

I have some heavy hearted news. I just learned last night that my 7 year old grandson, who is my pride and joy, will have to undergo open heart surgery. I sat last night in shock, dumbfounded, numb, grieved and mortally afraid. However, I took my anxiety meds both the regular and emergency one and my sleep med and went to bed.
I slept well and feel better able to cope today.

Any suggestions on how to tell grandson? They are going to try to wait until the school year is finished and do it in the summer.

[liveweyerd]

I needed to put the tens unit on my back this morning as it is sore enough to limit my activities. While there is a permanent injury in my neck and chronic misalignments in 3 other places, thankfully these can be put into place by a chiropractor. Will be able to go after the first. This will help with headaches and migraines also.

The curve in my upper spine is from carrying briefcase, mapcase and purse on my shoulders while I was working. This is an early warning...because I always thought I was strong! I will no longer carry anything on my shoulders. I carry them in my hands and balance the weight between the left and right sides.

Evenso, I almost can't vacuum at all...I would rather use a shop/vac and get down on my hands and knees and go over the whole floor with the short hose with the little round opening. With a shop vac, I can also wash the carpet with jasmine water....because the carpet doesn't get attention very often.

If, when, ever, I have my own home....there will be NO CARPET! And I won't use a mop then either, I will get down on my hands and knees and wash the floor.

I have the tens set on a tingle setting, it is helping and if there is enough charge left I will run a second pain cycle.

I SEE you Hippy!

PS, there are photos of my eldest grandson, the one with the heart defect, in my photo album on my profile page. They are about 2 years old as they were taken at daughter's wedding.