really down but don't think it is a 'swing' - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

hippyhippy · 03-13-2008, 01:06 PM

I am feeling incredibly sorry for myself. I can see where it is coming from and I don't think I am experiencing a moodswing as such, just plain blues but I am a bit scared that it is a swing and shrink thinks maybe so too as he wants to see me in a week when I thought he would be putting me onto monthly appts after todays visit.
I am going back to work tomorrow after a 5 month absence. I have only worked 3 months in the past 16 months. To say I am anxious is an understatement. The last time I was due to return to work I ended up in hospital ,suicidal, as I could not contemplate working life. So I am a bit further on than I was then, but it is still way too scary.
Today, I have had group therapy, pdoc and a psychology appointment. That is just too many people inside my head today. On top of that my mental health nurse has been trying to contact me (I think shrink has been in touch with her) and I have been avoiding her as I didn't want anyone else in that head of mine!
I want to retire to my duvet with sleeping pills (not my usual ones, the benzo's that are for emergencies when I want obliteration) but I can't have them as I am on my own with kids. Good thing really I suppose.
Oh well, I will have to do with normal sleeping pills (antipsychotics...they double up as sleeping pills) and a relaxation mp3.
Just wanted to vent I think.
Hippy

historyteach · 03-13-2008, 02:10 PM

I am hearing you about having too many people in your head! LOL!
I hope things calm down for you.
Keep posting; we care.

Shalom!

TiredMama · 03-13-2008, 03:16 PM

That is exactly what I was thinking *no pun intended* about the many people in your head. I can totally understand that feeling dear. Hope you are better a bit today.

hippyhippy · 03-14-2008, 04:07 AM

Thanks. I am still counting down the hours til return. I don't start until 2pm.

I hadn't thought anything about the 'people in my head' thing til it was pointed out. No pun intended indeed.

Mental health nurse got me (I forgot to not pick up the phone!), she just wanted to re arrange an appointment and I was kinda short with her as it is the second re arrangement. But now I feel bad cos she at least phoned when many of them don't and just turn up late.

Mama, I just love your signature piccie!

Got to go pick up little un from nursery.

Hippy

TiredMama · 03-14-2008, 08:40 AM

How did it go??

I am glad you like the siggy. I love the LOL cats (when I don't really like real life cats) and I thought they would make people laugh.

hippyhippy · 03-14-2008, 04:41 PM

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How did it go??

really really really badly. It was just so C**p and the management are so C**p and I realised I just can't cope with it any more.
Hippy

frstnm · 03-14-2008, 05:51 PM

I think it is in the global water supply or something
so many people have been having really up periods and really low points lately - especially the newcomers which is what I am
It does pass and there are some good days
Try to take little steps toward making your situation better as I do - its not always easy !

historyteach · 03-14-2008, 07:48 PM

The Ides of March is what my counselor calls it.
Beware the Ides of March! :rof

L'Chaim!
(To Life!)

TiredMama · 03-14-2008, 08:55 PM

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Originally Posted by hippyhippy

really really really badly. It was just so C**p and the management are so C**p and I realised I just can't cope with it any more.
Hippy

I am sorry. :ghug

I will find you more LOL cats if need be??

3

hippyhippy · 03-15-2008, 10:44 AM

Thanks, and thanks for the smiles tiredmama! Keep em coming!
Hippy
xx

TiredMama · 03-15-2008, 06:08 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by hippyhippy

Thanks, and thanks for the smiles tiredmama! Keep em coming!
Hippy
xx

03-13-2008, 01:06 PM	#1 (permalink)
hippyhippy hippy Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: UK Posts: 492	really down but don't think it is a 'swing' I am feeling incredibly sorry for myself. I can see where it is coming from and I don't think I am experiencing a moodswing as such, just plain blues but I am a bit scared that it is a swing and shrink thinks maybe so too as he wants to see me in a week when I thought he would be putting me onto monthly appts after todays visit. I am going back to work tomorrow after a 5 month absence. I have only worked 3 months in the past 16 months. To say I am anxious is an understatement. The last time I was due to return to work I ended up in hospital ,suicidal, as I could not contemplate working life. So I am a bit further on than I was then, but it is still way too scary. Today, I have had group therapy, pdoc and a psychology appointment. That is just too many people inside my head today. On top of that my mental health nurse has been trying to contact me (I think shrink has been in touch with her) and I have been avoiding her as I didn't want anyone else in that head of mine! I want to retire to my duvet with sleeping pills (not my usual ones, the benzo's that are for emergencies when I want obliteration) but I can't have them as I am on my own with kids. Good thing really I suppose. Oh well, I will have to do with normal sleeping pills (antipsychotics...they double up as sleeping pills) and a relaxation mp3. Just wanted to vent I think. Hippy __________________ I'm not sure what normal is: healthful and fulfilling is what I want my norm to be. Patty Duke

03-13-2008, 02:10 PM	#2 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	I am hearing you about having too many people in your head! LOL! I hope things calm down for you. Keep posting; we care. Shalom! __________________ IMAGINE

03-13-2008, 03:16 PM	#3 (permalink)
TiredMama Member Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: Birmingham, AL Posts: 536	That is exactly what I was thinking no pun intended about the many people in your head. I can totally understand that feeling dear. Hope you are better a bit today. __________________

03-14-2008, 04:07 AM	#4 (permalink)
hippyhippy hippy Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: UK Posts: 492	Thanks. I am still counting down the hours til return. I don't start until 2pm. I hadn't thought anything about the 'people in my head' thing til it was pointed out. No pun intended indeed. Mental health nurse got me (I forgot to not pick up the phone!), she just wanted to re arrange an appointment and I was kinda short with her as it is the second re arrangement. But now I feel bad cos she at least phoned when many of them don't and just turn up late. Mama, I just love your signature piccie! Got to go pick up little un from nursery. Hippy __________________ I'm not sure what normal is: healthful and fulfilling is what I want my norm to be. Patty Duke

03-14-2008, 08:40 AM	#5 (permalink)
TiredMama Member Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: Birmingham, AL Posts: 536	How did it go?? I am glad you like the siggy. I love the LOL cats (when I don't really like real life cats) and I thought they would make people laugh. __________________

03-14-2008, 05:51 PM	#7 (permalink)
frstnm Im not crazy and neither am I Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: My place in (M)Assachusetts Posts: 2,075	I think it is in the global water supply or something so many people have been having really up periods and really low points lately - especially the newcomers which is what I am It does pass and there are some good days Try to take little steps toward making your situation better as I do - its not always easy !

03-14-2008, 07:48 PM	#8 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	The Ides of March is what my counselor calls it. Beware the Ides of March! :rof L'Chaim! (To Life!) __________________ IMAGINE

03-15-2008, 10:44 AM	#10 (permalink)
hippyhippy hippy Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: UK Posts: 492	Thanks, and thanks for the smiles tiredmama! Keep em coming! Hippy xx __________________ I'm not sure what normal is: healthful and fulfilling is what I want my norm to be. Patty Duke

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