BP Town----Open to anyone who rides the roller coaster

[nandm]

WELCOME TO BP TOWN
population: 1 and growing

In another thread the topic of pulling together as a group of people with BP rather than fighting with the feelings of being alone in all this was brought up. So since we can't do that in the real world, I thought I would open up a town for us here. Anyone can live here, just have to be willing to have patience, love, and tolerance for all who are here.

Please feel free to discuss your concerns, day, ups, downs, and all arounds.

I look forward to hearing from each of you...................

[StayinAlive]

morgage insentives and low rental rates, close to all amenities and free health care. Are you the Mayor NANDM?

[nandm]

LOL-----We can share the job for now.....but my platform is NO TAXES!!!!

[historyteach]

Anyone can live here, just have to be willing to have patience, love, and tolerance for all who are here.

Well, I'm not diagnosed bipolar - yet - :rof . But, if that's the criteria, I'd love to be a resident of this town!
Especially if there's no taxes!!!

Shalom!

[cinderellawkids]

Id like to move in, you guys are the first ones who describe and relate to how I feel on a regular basis

[Live]

I've not that diagnosis, but 3 other more, so will you accept tri-of a different sort? LMAO

[hippyhippy]

seems like a good town to be in....well in the times I am accepting my diagnoses that is and at this point I am accepting it.
Nice to be in this tax free, no cost healthcare town!
Hippy
xx

[grateful2b]

no taxes...Ye-ah!!....BP ll here.......and doing okay at the moment.......

[Live]

I woke quite well, with a good attitude
And in one small move
my nose is diving

hubs is crippled in his back (and has major depressive disorder and a few more)
when he announced he was back to bed,
my great optimism went a bit dead.
Tears hid behind my eyes,
Jenna, I know loneliness, that's no lie.
This pattern I have seen before,
it will go on a week or more.
I'll observe quiet, no cleaning machines,
laundry, vacuum, any startle will disturb
I'll stay out of that room, tho' that was my plan,
to regain the order, that just two weeks ago I had.
the tales we told of a normal life,
wound, sometimes, like a knife.
I had to make a room of my own
where it's normal for me to be alone.
It suffered the maelstrom when we split,
I'll go to make order and embellishment.
Thrift, of that, I can make a game
to shop for dinner, wife is my name.
But I told him I was a flower
And he was my stem
Thus I wither about the edges
And know the weakness of my pledges.
If my complaint does seem lame,
remember tomorrow it will be the same


tena

[Live]

My excuses tale

Friends! I cannot get dressed,
my clothes are in the room with hubs blessed.
I cannot set last night's bean pot out
We've neighbors who'd talk, of that I've no doubt.
The dishes, whose number add to less than dice
Would ruin my nail's lovely artifice.
That room I said I love so dear,
In truth, I can't even get near
From the doorway I pounce like a limber dame
to make it from opening to bedframe.
The vacuum, well, it is broke
It belches out dirty smoke.
Hubs calls out that he is hot
But damn, I'm sure not the kind I want!

[nandm]

Welcome everyone.

We are sure growing quickly.

Yes, Live we accept tri's....lol


BP TOWN
Population: 7 and Growing

[nandm]

My thought for the day.

Things must be looking up; I've found my sense of humor again. It's nice to be on the way back from the low of the coaster ride.

[grateful2b]

Originally Posted by nandm

My thought for the day.

Things must be looking up; I've found my sense of humor again. It's nice to be on the way back from the low of the coaster ride.

yes!!!...........

[WLDKATZ]

I swear BP comes with SAD Nan I love this...........I have been BP since I was 13 and just figured out WTH was going on last year go figure........ and Live I can totally associate with you, my garage is still full of the things that should be in my house from when I moved last Aug.....I am trying but it hurts some days so badly and I know you guys KNOW what I mean and when your doing it on your own it just takes time...........lol

[nandm]

UPDATE

BP TOWN

Population 8 wonderful people and growing

welcome aboard Katz

[barb dwyer]

*pulls in with pickup truck and airstream trailer in tow*

(leans out window)

hey can ya just be plain NUTS????

do ya gotta have some fangles 'diag- KNOW- SEAS' any more?????

I just wanna be ... whatever this is. can I just park over there by the creek? inthe shade? and make stuff from the driftwood?

would that be okay?

[nandm]

BP TOWN

Population 9 and growing

Welcome Barb........There's even fish in that little river but watch out for the racoons as they will steal your food when you turn you back. Hope you don't mind hearing a couple of beagles howling every now and then as they like trying to catch the racoons since they stole a bag of their kibble.

The sunsets are beautiful. I bet our resident photographer, shutterbug, is going to get some beautiful relaxing pictures from there.

Feel free to join in and voice you thoughts, concerns, joys, sorrows, laughter, etc.....

[nandm]

Ok, fresh baked chocolate chip cookies with heath bar bits in them at my house. Come and get them. But be warned they are made with whole wheat flour and backing splenda. But I like them...lol

Got the front door open, sun is shining, weather is nice, although somewhat cloudy and probably will rain.

[nandm]

Today's weather is fair and sunny with a few high floating fluffy clouds on the horizon. That one over there looks kind of like an elephant with wings.
High temp 75 degrees
Low temp 70 degrees
Light breeze flowing from the west, right across that field of flowers, bringing with it a wonderful fresh smell.

The birds are out and singing. A couple of cats chasing blue jays, who are pestering the cats for getting too close to their nests.

A couple of dogs chasing their tales. A couple more playing ball with those kids over there.

Looks like a wonderful day here.

Hope everyone enjoys it.

[grateful2b]

ooooh, Judith, thank you for all those wonderful visuals!!! Today is the first day out of my funk...Yay! I have been in transition..Have to leave the beautifuol place I have been for four years by the end of april.. Its been a love-hate relationship here, very noisy, serious fossil fuels but my apt is beautiful...but its time to go...trying to pace myself so my PTSD dosen't get trigged...not concerned about my bp going wonky as long as I dn't over do it...biggest challenge is staying positive and bringing to me that quiet sunny(sads) place.....

[nandm]

BP Town theme song

What do you think? It describes the roller coaster well IMHO.

I did do some editing replaced partner's with life's in the 4th line, found it more appropriate to BP Town

STEVIE NICKS lyrics - Sometimes It's A Bitch

(J. Bon Jovi, B. Falcon)

Well I've run through rainbows and castles of candy
I cried a river of tears from the pain
I try to dance with what life has to hand me
My life's been pleasure... my life's been pain

There are days when I swear I could fly like an eagle
And dark desperate hours that nobody sees
My arms stretched triumphant on top of the mountain
My head in my hands... down on my knees

Sometimes it's a bitch... sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes love's blind... and sometimes it sees
Sometimes it's roses... and, sometimes it's weeds
Sometimes it's a bitch... sometimes it's a breeze

I've reached in darkness and come out with treasure
I've laid down with love and I woke up with lies
What's it all worth only the heart can measure
It's not what's in the mirror... but what's left inside

Sometimes it's a bitch... sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes love's blind... and sometimes it sees
Sometimes it's roses... and, sometimes it's weeds
Sometimes it's a bitch... sometimes it's a breeze

You gotta take it as it comes
Sometimes it don't come easy

I've run through rainbows and castles of candy
And I've cried a river of tears from the pain
I tried to dance with what life had to hand me
And if I could... I'd do it all over again

Sometimes it's a bitch... sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes love's blind... and sometimes it sees
Sometimes it's roses... and, sometimes it's weeds
Sometimes it's a bitch... sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes the picture just ain't what it seems
You get what you want... but it's not what you need
Sometimes it's a bitch... sometimes... it's a breeze
Well it's a breeze... it's a breeze... it's a breeze...

[cinderellawkids]

Love the theme song and yes had to come to BP town for the sunshine today and get away from the cloudy grey. Been emotional since last night, nothing triggered just keep crying. Im thinking the nightly nyquil with my cold, or lack of quality sleep may ahve something to do with it, but strangely even sickly I feel hypo manic, cant sit or lie still, but dont wanna move.
Hopefully the thoughts of sunshine and white fluffy clouds will warm the blues

[nandm]

It is amazing what a slight breeze, blue sky, a few puffy clouds, a few rays of sunshine warming the face, the feel of blades green grass on the soles of the feet, a group of shady trees to sit under, a songbird singing for no other reason than to celebrate life, a group of horses running around playfully, a cow lazily chewing her cud, and a dog chasing a butterfly can do for the soul. Although it can't take away my depression completely it does make my soul feel warmer. It takes some of the coldness inside away.

[nandm]

In a lot of stress and pain today. I probably need to read my last post and get outside and enjoy the weather here at BP town.

Had a calculus final today. Have my oceanography final due tomorrow. Have a paper to write for sociology due by Friday. Have a research paper to finish for oceanograpy due ASAP already late.

Have to drive to a friends house and check on her cat and make sure it has food as she and her family are on a Carribian cruise for the week.

My back is really hurting today. Having the lovely shooting down the legs pain going on due to the pressure on the nerves from the disc.

Having a lot of anxiety today. Missed my therapist appointment. Couldn't leave the house due to too much anxiety to get to the appointment. Did take a Klonopin and was able to make it to my calculus final. Feel like I did poorly on that.

So what is the solution. Certainly not sitting here on the computer. But how to get moving? Where to start when overwhelmed? Here's my plan of attack

1. put the TENS unit on my back to help with the pain
2. if that doesn't give me relief take my pain medication
3. go feed the friends cat as that is an obligation I have to get done tonight
4. get off the computer and start my oceanography work
5. do the oceanography final
6. ............

The rest of the stuff will just have to wait until I get these priorities done first. Then I can prioritize the next batch. Hopefully breaking it down will right size it and help ease the anxiety and overwhelming feelings.

Life can suck somedays.

[nandm]

Well got some of the list checked off
Doneput the TENS unit on my back to help with the pain
Doneif that doesn't give me relief take my pain medication
Domego feed the friends cat as that is an obligation I have to get done tonight
Done, on a break right nowget off the computer and start my oceanography work
Done, on a break right now; it is an open book final. I think I hate those more than just regular tests as open book are much more work.do the oceanography final
............

Still fighting with the anxiety and over emotional feelings going on in me right now. I really hate I missed my appt with my therapist today, I don't think that it helped me any. The nightmares are worse than usual right now. Lots of PTSD stuff going on. Can't even read the threads in the grief section as it makes my anxiety go through the roof, it brings back the things I saw while working as a paramedic. The nightmares set off the PTSD because they are centered around both the childhood stuff and the paramedic stuff. Somedays, life just sucks.

I hate having my feelings on my sleeve. I am afraid my anxiety has reflected in my posts today. I have got to start getting better at recognizing when my anxiety levels have risen so I am more careful when dealing with others. I do not want to be short or cold with people. That is not the person I choose to be. Somedays I truly want to just run away for a while. Just long enough to get my peace back (starting to wonder if I have ever really had peace as I am starting to see that I constantly have an underlying current of anxiety due to the PTSD inside of me). It really leaves me quite tired somedays. Today is one of those days.

Tomorrow is a new day (actually since it is after midnight tomorrow is today). Hopefully once I go to sleep and wake up again I will be able to see the world with more color.