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Paulos · 02-26-2008, 10:27 AM

Hi all, I'm an alcoholic, was a binger for 2.8 years, 22 year old autistic male here... everything has been bothering me lately... fearful I ain't smart enough for life, bad memory, fat... dumb... stupid... and out of sync. The only thing I've been doing good is I'm on day 14 without booze because I know booze is just making my life possibly tenfold worse. Well anyway... hi and life sux. -.-.

historyteach · 02-26-2008, 02:20 PM

Congratulations on 14 days!!!

Please believe me; you *are* smart enough for life, providing you take it one day at a time.

Are you going to meetings? Do you have a sponsor to help you with the steps? They will help you improve your life, day by day.

Remember to do something each day physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually for yourself. That's how we take care of ourselves. And if things continue to look negative, perhaps you will want to see your doctor and tell him/her how your feeling. SOmetimes, it takes medication to help us over the hump.

I wish you the best, and hope you continue on your wonderful path. It will lead to happiness.

Shalom!

historyteach · 02-26-2008, 05:56 PM

Paulos,

Do you belong to an autism support group? We don't have one here, but, I do know there's one on Revolution Health - Revolution Health

Of course, I'm not telling you to leave SR!!! LOL! I just thought you might get some support from people who share the same problem of autism as you do there. And share the problem of alcoholism here.

And can you tell us a bit about your illness? I'd like to know more.

Shalom!

***Anna*** · 02-26-2008, 05:58 PM

Paulos,

I don't know too much about autism, but it seems to me that you're doing really well. I really wish you would be kind to yourself.

Also, being sober for 14 days is terrific! Be proud of yourself. And, I agree completely, that alcohol makes anything and everything worse.

barb dwyer · 02-27-2008, 01:48 AM

Paulos! hiya!

Paulos · 02-27-2008, 10:15 AM

Hi barb, thanks for the kind words all and it's day 15 now, and sadly where I live there are no autism groups in my area of Pennsylvania, not even any doctors who specialize in it... but yeah I'm trying to do things for myself daily but it's hard also due to me being a fool going off my 125mg Lamictal for a month while binging on booze to get down to 50mg only to stop boozing and then have major anxiety from stopping my medication so suddenly and then my anxiety from boozing combined with these things it was tough, I think I'm getting a little better though, but I'm a BIG OCDer/fearer about things.

PaperDolls · 02-27-2008, 10:18 AM

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Originally Posted by Paulos

...... it's hard also due to me being a fool going off my 125mg Lamictal for a month while binging on booze to get down to 50mg only to stop boozing and then have major anxiety from stopping my medication so suddenly and then my anxiety from boozing combined with these things it was tough......

That's all in the past. Today is day 15!

Keep moving forward and don't look back. You can do it!

Paulos · 02-28-2008, 06:41 PM

day 16

historyteach · 02-28-2008, 07:25 PM

Good for you, Paulos!!!

Keep up the good work!

L'Chaim!
(To Life!)

Kit · 02-28-2008, 07:43 PM

Paulos, I 'm curious as to why you decided to go off of the Lamictal. Were you just sick of being on meds or was the Lamictal causing side effects? I'm interested because I know a couple of people who take that drug and feel it has helped them with OCD symptoms. Also, CONGRATULATIONS on 16 days sober! Yay!

Love, Kit

Bozo · 02-29-2008, 11:37 AM

Welcome my friend, I wish you well. So young and so much to live for. Never give up on yourself my friend, the miracle sometimes awaits us just around the corner.

Paulos · 03-01-2008, 04:10 PM

yes kit I was just looking for an easy solution while in reality the solution is to stop boozing.

historyteach · 03-01-2008, 05:12 PM

And you thought you were not smart enough???? :rof
Paulos, I know people much older than you who *STILL* don't get it!!!

Keep up the god work.

Shalom!

Paulos · 03-03-2008, 07:26 AM

thanks.

barb dwyer · 03-03-2008, 10:19 PM

Hey Paulos - hope it's going well - I'm off until Wednesday - we'll catch up then! Hang in bud!

02-26-2008, 10:27 AM	#1 (permalink)
Paulos Member Bat & Mouse 2 Champion! Classic Frogger Champion! Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: USA Posts: 1,013 Blog Entries: 4	Hi all, I'm mental and from the alcoholism boards. Hi all, I'm an alcoholic, was a binger for 2.8 years, 22 year old autistic male here... everything has been bothering me lately... fearful I ain't smart enough for life, bad memory, fat... dumb... stupid... and out of sync. The only thing I've been doing good is I'm on day 14 without booze because I know booze is just making my life possibly tenfold worse. Well anyway... hi and life sux. -.-. __________________ "Make a joke and I will sigh, and you will laugh, and I will cry. Happiness I can not feel, and love to me is so unreal." Loony from Rings of Power

02-26-2008, 02:20 PM	#2 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	Congratulations on 14 days!!! Please believe me; you are smart enough for life, providing you take it one day at a time. Are you going to meetings? Do you have a sponsor to help you with the steps? They will help you improve your life, day by day. Remember to do something each day physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually for yourself. That's how we take care of ourselves. And if things continue to look negative, perhaps you will want to see your doctor and tell him/her how your feeling. SOmetimes, it takes medication to help us over the hump. I wish you the best, and hope you continue on your wonderful path. It will lead to happiness. Shalom! __________________ IMAGINE

02-26-2008, 05:56 PM	#3 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	Paulos, Do you belong to an autism support group? We don't have one here, but, I do know there's one on Revolution Health - Revolution Health Of course, I'm not telling you to leave SR!!! LOL! I just thought you might get some support from people who share the same problem of autism as you do there. And share the problem of alcoholism here. And can you tell us a bit about your illness? I'd like to know more. Shalom! __________________ IMAGINE

02-26-2008, 05:58 PM	#4 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,768	Paulos, I don't know too much about autism, but it seems to me that you're doing really well. I really wish you would be kind to yourself. Also, being sober for 14 days is terrific! Be proud of yourself. And, I agree completely, that alcohol makes anything and everything worse. __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

02-27-2008, 01:48 AM	#5 (permalink)
barb dwyer same planet...different world Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: butte mt Posts: 10,933 Blog Entries: 7	Paulos! hiya! __________________ Knowledge is knowing that tomato is a fruit. Wisdom is not putting it in fruit salad.

02-27-2008, 10:15 AM	#6 (permalink)
Paulos Member Bat & Mouse 2 Champion! Classic Frogger Champion! Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: USA Posts: 1,013 Blog Entries: 4	Hi barb, thanks for the kind words all and it's day 15 now, and sadly where I live there are no autism groups in my area of Pennsylvania, not even any doctors who specialize in it... but yeah I'm trying to do things for myself daily but it's hard also due to me being a fool going off my 125mg Lamictal for a month while binging on booze to get down to 50mg only to stop boozing and then have major anxiety from stopping my medication so suddenly and then my anxiety from boozing combined with these things it was tough, I think I'm getting a little better though, but I'm a BIG OCDer/fearer about things. __________________ "Make a joke and I will sigh, and you will laugh, and I will cry. Happiness I can not feel, and love to me is so unreal." Loony from Rings of Power

02-28-2008, 06:41 PM	#8 (permalink)
Paulos Member Bat & Mouse 2 Champion! Classic Frogger Champion! Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: USA Posts: 1,013 Blog Entries: 4	day 16 __________________ "Make a joke and I will sigh, and you will laugh, and I will cry. Happiness I can not feel, and love to me is so unreal." Loony from Rings of Power

02-28-2008, 07:25 PM	#9 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	Good for you, Paulos!!! Keep up the good work! L'Chaim! (To Life!) __________________ IMAGINE

02-28-2008, 07:43 PM	#10 (permalink)
Kit Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: north of Boston Posts: 129	Paulos, I 'm curious as to why you decided to go off of the Lamictal. Were you just sick of being on meds or was the Lamictal causing side effects? I'm interested because I know a couple of people who take that drug and feel it has helped them with OCD symptoms. Also, CONGRATULATIONS on 16 days sober! Yay! Love, Kit

02-29-2008, 11:37 AM	#11 (permalink)
Bozo On The Bus Join Date: May 2004 Location: Brattleboro, Vt. Posts: 475	Paulos Welcome my friend, I wish you well. So young and so much to live for. Never give up on yourself my friend, the miracle sometimes awaits us just around the corner. __________________ Signature made by my son Alex.

03-01-2008, 04:10 PM	#12 (permalink)
Paulos Member Bat & Mouse 2 Champion! Classic Frogger Champion! Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: USA Posts: 1,013 Blog Entries: 4	yes kit I was just looking for an easy solution while in reality the solution is to stop boozing. __________________ "Make a joke and I will sigh, and you will laugh, and I will cry. Happiness I can not feel, and love to me is so unreal." Loony from Rings of Power

03-01-2008, 05:12 PM	#13 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	And you thought you were not smart enough???? :rof Paulos, I know people much older than you who STILL don't get it!!! Keep up the god work. Shalom! __________________ IMAGINE

03-03-2008, 07:26 AM	#14 (permalink)
Paulos Member Bat & Mouse 2 Champion! Classic Frogger Champion! Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: USA Posts: 1,013 Blog Entries: 4	thanks. __________________ "Make a joke and I will sigh, and you will laugh, and I will cry. Happiness I can not feel, and love to me is so unreal." Loony from Rings of Power

03-03-2008, 10:19 PM	#15 (permalink)
barb dwyer same planet...different world Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: butte mt Posts: 10,933 Blog Entries: 7	Hey Paulos - hope it's going well - I'm off until Wednesday - we'll catch up then! Hang in bud! __________________ Knowledge is knowing that tomato is a fruit. Wisdom is not putting it in fruit salad.

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