Do I need to go back to the wacky shack?

[IceWolf]

I spent about 9 days in the mental health ward last summer then from Dec 26th-Jan 7 this year. My life is in a transitional phase, I'm trying to get back to work so I can find an apartment and undergo a trial seperation with my long-suffering wife. Basically I need to get my **** together so the marraige will work again, I'm a depressed alcoholic with anxeity/panic disorder. Currrently I'm hearing voices and music. I'm tempted to take some sleeping pills toend it or make the voices stop. About 12 days ago I fell off the wagon and also took enough sleeping pills to make me groggy and break my glasses but not enough to kill me.
Part of what the voices are telling me now is that the pills can be a gateway between worlds, but I know it's a one-way door and don't want to cross over. I am sorely tempted though. Anyway should I just try to ride this out and continue with my plans or should I go back to the wacky shack tomorrow? I'm also depressed and not eating/showering/changing clothes. Please help, thanks
IceWolf

[1963comet]

Sorry you are going through this. But think it would be wise to talk to the doctor that put you on medication. Could be a detox thing but I am not a doctor.

[IceWolf]

I'm not detoxin, the thing 12 days ago was just a slip, I'm straight again.

IceWolf

[nandm]

Ice wolf,

In reading your post several things stood out at me.

My life is in a transitional phase, I'm trying to get back to work so I can find an apartment and undergo a trial seperation with my long-suffering wife.

Transitional times are times of stress which tend to aggrevate any mental illness.

Basically I need to get my **** together so the marraige will work again,

Have you considered getting it together for you rather than trying to get it together for something that may or may not happen?

I'm a depressed alcoholic with anxeity/panic disorder.

I too am a recovering alcoholic, with a chronic anxiety disorder, depression, bipolar type II and PTSD. The combination of these illnesses can be quite trying at times.

Currrently I'm hearing voices and music. I'm tempted to take some sleeping pills toend it or make the voices stop. About 12 days ago I fell off the wagon and also took enough sleeping pills to make me groggy and break my glasses but not enough to kill me.
Part of what the voices are telling me now is that the pills can be a gateway between worlds, but I know it's a one-way door and don't want to cross over. I am sorely tempted though.

The voices you refer to here concern me. Having spent 20 years in the medical field my experience says that it would be a good idea to discuss this with your doctor as during times of stress mental illnesses can get worse or tend to show themselves. Hearing voices can be a sign of Schizophrenia. Which is a treatable illness. But it is one that is best caught early.

Anyway should I just try to ride this out and continue with my plans or should I go back to the wacky shack tomorrow? I'm also depressed and not eating/showering/changing clothes.

The not showering/eating/changing clothes concerns me. Please go see your doctor and be as honest with him/her as you were here. In fact you might print out a copy of this thread and show it to him. It might say it better than if you try to speak it.

Good luck. I do hope you find a solution. Please post soon and let us know how you are doing.

[reader]

Hello, I would call right away for a ride to the hospital. You are no good to yourself or anyone else like this.. I try to treat my trips to the hospital like "me" trips. It is all about me.... I am a princess for a day~~ they wash the sheets, cook the meals, they even deliver my meds, and listen to me like there is no tommorrow. I know I am sugar coating a bad situation but get the help that is out there, don't suffer in silence. Life is so much better when u get stabilized. Keep in touch there are people who care about u....

[GailJ]

I couldn't have said it better than nadmn. My question is when you said should you ride.... this out did that mean your ready to change and make your life better. You can speak freely here. Hospitals are a great help when your in crisis level. But sooner or later you have to come back out and face life.... again.

Do you have any plans to help you attain a goal on your own or do you think you need continuing help.

Not a doc here, just a post traumatic/panic attacking/ stressed out recovering (key word recovering) alchie asking.

[pedagogue]

If you feel like you can't handle things and/or you don't feel safe, you should let someone know and/or go to the ER. Often times during rough patches some help from the outside can be the bridge back to stability and life.

[StayinAlive]

pills make voices go away, go see your mental health specialist man

[zoolu58]

Don't self medicate.

[1963comet]

Hey Icewolf

Just checking to see if all is good with you. You said everything is strait????

[IceWolf]

I'm still hanging in there, thanksI'm trying to stay out in the real world because I have job interviews going on and I don't want to miss out.

IceWolf

[1963comet]

Thanks for the update. Good luck with a job.