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thiskidknows · 10-18-2007, 12:48 PM

PTSD/BPD/Depression/Suicide tenadanices/Self Harmer/Panic Attacks/Drug User/Alochol dependent/Dissosicates/DID

Above are just some of the labels that have been planted on me, however do those labels actually mean anything or help someone with mental health problems? - NO

The first time I was drunk was when I was 7 or 8, twice before I was 10..I started drinking at weekends when I was 12, I started using drugs when I was 12 by the time I was 15 I was using daily, and was drinking to get drunk.

I was sexually abused from the age of 3 - 15 and raped when I was 18 and 26 I am now 28 and only just starting to deal with the emotional scars that have been left.

From the age of about 17 I was drinking everynite for 11 years it continued doesn't seem long...but I started drinking to block the emotional feelings I was having, the confusion I was feeling. I was taking drugs to keep me awake and sober me up so I could drink more.

On the 30th January 2006, my world collapsed and I ended up in hospital.

In March 2006 I start psychotherapy and I still see her now. I am currently waiting to see a psychologist as well.

In the last 18 months, I have started to understand what happens to me, I'm trying to deal with past, but still remain in the present.

I do have inners that sometimes come out and am being tested for DID.

The reason for my post, is I haven't yet received confirmation that I have DID or not, and the sites I have found, the usergroups as such only allow for people who have confirmation they have DID, which I can understand completely.

Is there anyone else here who has either DID or BPD that I could speak to : I haven't said what happens to me which has lead to them testing me as I don't want people to start running from me, it scares me as much as it does the next person.

anyway enough from me

Alive · 10-18-2007, 05:45 PM

I've seen you come a long way...I am so happy that you shared... you have had a really hard life LC and you're still here..there's got to be a purpose for you...! i am confident that we can turn our scars into strengths somehow, someday and simply become all that we can be..and you will my friend...yes..!

love ya, Karim

shutterbug · 10-19-2007, 12:17 AM

DID? - Defiant Identity Disorder (or something i can't remember)

BPD - are you referring to borderline personality disorder or bipolar disorder? I'm guessing borderline? If so there are others here. Do a search for borderline or BPD in this forum and you will find other people who have shared. Same with the defiant disorder if that's what DID is.

hugs,
jenna

thiskidknows · 10-19-2007, 02:14 AM

Thank you for your replies.

DID is Dissociative Identity Disorder (previously called MPD, Mulitple Personality Disorder)

Yeah Sorry I was referring to Borderline Personality Disorder, I will do as suggested. Thank you.

Aw bless ya Karim, yes I hope the scars to do turn to strengths...I know you can do it also.

Thinking of you both

xxxxx Jody xxx

13NRcrew · 10-19-2007, 11:42 AM

Hi, Jody,
As you can probably tell by our username...I'm a multiple. Also: recovering alcoholic and recovering self-injurer (to name a few). If you want someone to talk to feel free to contact us. I'm not shy: we've been at this for a pretty long time now.

Things seem like they are pretty confusing for you right now. Hang in there.

liveweyerd · 10-19-2007, 06:17 PM

thiskidknows,

Hi, I remember you well. You are sounding so much better. Hugs to you!
I don't like being confined to my labels either.

live

10-18-2007, 12:48 PM	#1 (permalink)
thiskidknows Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: England Posts: 428	Did/bpd PTSD/BPD/Depression/Suicide tenadanices/Self Harmer/Panic Attacks/Drug User/Alochol dependent/Dissosicates/DID Above are just some of the labels that have been planted on me, however do those labels actually mean anything or help someone with mental health problems? - NO The first time I was drunk was when I was 7 or 8, twice before I was 10..I started drinking at weekends when I was 12, I started using drugs when I was 12 by the time I was 15 I was using daily, and was drinking to get drunk. I was sexually abused from the age of 3 - 15 and raped when I was 18 and 26 I am now 28 and only just starting to deal with the emotional scars that have been left. From the age of about 17 I was drinking everynite for 11 years it continued doesn't seem long...but I started drinking to block the emotional feelings I was having, the confusion I was feeling. I was taking drugs to keep me awake and sober me up so I could drink more. On the 30th January 2006, my world collapsed and I ended up in hospital. In March 2006 I start psychotherapy and I still see her now. I am currently waiting to see a psychologist as well. In the last 18 months, I have started to understand what happens to me, I'm trying to deal with past, but still remain in the present. I do have inners that sometimes come out and am being tested for DID. The reason for my post, is I haven't yet received confirmation that I have DID or not, and the sites I have found, the usergroups as such only allow for people who have confirmation they have DID, which I can understand completely. Is there anyone else here who has either DID or BPD that I could speak to : I haven't said what happens to me which has lead to them testing me as I don't want people to start running from me, it scares me as much as it does the next person. anyway enough from me

10-19-2007, 12:17 AM	#3 (permalink)
shutterbug A picture's worth a 1000 words Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: With any luck, I'm lost in a view finder Posts: 2,957	DID? - Defiant Identity Disorder (or something i can't remember) BPD - are you referring to borderline personality disorder or bipolar disorder? I'm guessing borderline? If so there are others here. Do a search for borderline or BPD in this forum and you will find other people who have shared. Same with the defiant disorder if that's what DID is. hugs, jenna __________________ I'M FINE!! Fanatically Insecure Neuratic & Emotional Bipolar/Depression support: 1-800-950-NAMI(6264).

10-19-2007, 06:17 PM	#6 (permalink)
liveweyerd Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: Oklahoma Posts: 8,275 Blog Entries: 5	thiskidknows, Hi, I remember you well. You are sounding so much better. Hugs to you! I don't like being confined to my labels either. live __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

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10-18-2007, 05:45 PM	#2 (permalink)
Alive believer Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Europe Posts: 2,401 Blog Entries: 1	I've seen you come a long way...I am so happy that you shared... you have had a really hard life LC and you're still here..there's got to be a purpose for you...! i am confident that we can turn our scars into strengths somehow, someday and simply become all that we can be..and you will my friend...yes..! love ya, Karim

10-19-2007, 02:14 AM	#4 (permalink)
thiskidknows Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: England Posts: 428	Thank you for your replies. DID is Dissociative Identity Disorder (previously called MPD, Mulitple Personality Disorder) Yeah Sorry I was referring to Borderline Personality Disorder, I will do as suggested. Thank you. Aw bless ya Karim, yes I hope the scars to do turn to strengths...I know you can do it also. Thinking of you both xxxxx Jody xxx

10-19-2007, 11:42 AM	#5 (permalink)
13NRcrew Indigo Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 22	Hi, Jody, As you can probably tell by our username...I'm a multiple. Also: recovering alcoholic and recovering self-injurer (to name a few). If you want someone to talk to feel free to contact us. I'm not shy: we've been at this for a pretty long time now. Things seem like they are pretty confusing for you right now. Hang in there.

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