I Think My Brain Just Exploded - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Max.J.Milton · 10-09-2007, 08:10 PM

i think im about a minute away from having a complete mental breakdown.

i dont know why im posting here because if i'm honest i think 90% of you are generic and insincere but i have nowhere else to put this, because my family dont care and im pushing my friends away.

wow.

this is ****.

stone · 10-09-2007, 08:17 PM

Generic and insincere eh?

Max.J.Milton · 10-09-2007, 08:20 PM

yep.

stone · 10-09-2007, 08:28 PM

I feel like I am cracking up tonight too.

Max.J.Milton · 10-09-2007, 08:33 PM

It sucks doesnt it =(
Sometimes i wonder if its worth hanging onto my marbles

tanyapmc · 10-09-2007, 08:35 PM

Maybe geriatric!!!

Yall hang in there.......I care about both of you.

Alive · 10-09-2007, 08:41 PM

Hang in there..It's ok to simply breakdown and let yourself cry if you have to...

take care

Max.J.Milton · 10-09-2007, 08:55 PM

i dont cry when i break down, i usually go nuts at everyone i know, thus driving my friends away orr i drink a lot =/

im trying NOT to do either and i really am going to explode very soon

shutterbug · 10-09-2007, 09:10 PM

hummm...is it possible you are just looking for a fight? perhaps one of us will say something in response to initial comment...thus giving you reason to direct your inner anger at one of us...and therefore outward?

i personally don't know anyone here in the mental health forum who is insincere. sometimes responses may seem generic because of the individual person not knowing what really to say or not having much experience with the specific issue at hand. really...anyone who takes the time to read a post and respond at all is doing so because they care. there's not any other big reason to do so, other than knowing what it's like to feel alone and going through a difficult time...and wanting to help others not feel so alone like they did or have.

personally...i think i know how you are feeling right now. however my emotions tend to come out more as tears and suicidal thoughts rather than anger, but i do bite people's heads off from time-to-time too.

that being said...i don't know what to say that could possibly help you right now...unless you want to write more about what your feeling so i can have a better idea of what's ruminating in your head?

Alive · 10-09-2007, 09:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Max.J.Milton

i dont cry when i break down, i usually go nuts at everyone i know, thus driving my friends away orr i drink a lot =/

im trying NOT to do either and i really am going to explode very soon

I have to be honest..i can't cry lately...i only cry when i pray with a little joy..

what i do is be destructive to myself..and maybe that's what you are afraid you'll do...what you can do is prevent that..you're intelligent, you can do it different this time..

Look..you're so young..when i was 17 i thought the world would end tomorrow and i ruined the next 5 years...I really, really hope you find an answer inside yourself...I would give anything to go back..because self love is the hardest battle of all...I am confident you'll make it..

PaperDolls · 10-10-2007, 08:15 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Max.J.Milton

i dont cry when i break down, i usually go nuts at everyone i know, thus driving my friends away orr i drink a lot =/

im trying NOT to do either and i really am going to explode very soon

Continue to try....on a day to day basis. It's not always easy..........and yes I know, sometimes it feels like it's just easier to be angry and drunk and a pain in the butt.........but it's really not. I've been there. I mean this sincerely.

Glad you're here at SR.

Max.J.Milton · 10-11-2007, 06:33 PM

thankyou guys so much, and i truly mean it, i've never been somewhere where it seems that people truly understand me, but i think that you guys do.

thankyou so much, really =)

GailJ · 10-11-2007, 07:15 PM

Keep posting Max, let us know more about you. Hugs if thats OK

Max.J.Milton · 10-11-2007, 07:18 PM

yeahi still feel like ****

and if i'm honest i ihave had quite a lot to drink in the last couple of hours, and everyone i know has made suren i hate myself for itbut i cant do much about that; but for some reason that makes it easier to drink?...i dunnoe

weirdness

10-09-2007, 08:10 PM	#1 (permalink)
Max.J.Milton Is A Girl Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Staffs, England Posts: 143	I Think My Brain Just Exploded i think im about a minute away from having a complete mental breakdown. i dont know why im posting here because if i'm honest i think 90% of you are generic and insincere but i have nowhere else to put this, because my family dont care and im pushing my friends away. wow. this is ****. __________________ "You Ride A Horse Rather Less Well Than Another Horse Would" ~ Blackadder

10-09-2007, 08:17 PM	#2 (permalink)
stone Member Moon Lander Champion! Shuffle The Penguin Champion! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,206	Generic and insincere eh? __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

10-09-2007, 08:20 PM	#3 (permalink)
Max.J.Milton Is A Girl Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Staffs, England Posts: 143	yep. __________________ "You Ride A Horse Rather Less Well Than Another Horse Would" ~ Blackadder

10-09-2007, 08:28 PM	#4 (permalink)
stone Member Moon Lander Champion! Shuffle The Penguin Champion! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,206	I feel like I am cracking up tonight too. __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

10-09-2007, 08:33 PM	#5 (permalink)
Max.J.Milton Is A Girl Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Staffs, England Posts: 143	It sucks doesnt it =( Sometimes i wonder if its worth hanging onto my marbles __________________ "You Ride A Horse Rather Less Well Than Another Horse Would" ~ Blackadder

10-09-2007, 08:35 PM	#6 (permalink)
tanyapmc Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Nunyabusinessville, Texas Posts: 4,364 Blog Entries: 2	Maybe geriatric!!! Yall hang in there.......I care about both of you.

10-09-2007, 08:41 PM	#7 (permalink)
Alive believer Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Europe Posts: 2,401 Blog Entries: 1	Hang in there..It's ok to simply breakdown and let yourself cry if you have to... take care

10-09-2007, 08:55 PM	#8 (permalink)
Max.J.Milton Is A Girl Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Staffs, England Posts: 143	i dont cry when i break down, i usually go nuts at everyone i know, thus driving my friends away orr i drink a lot =/ im trying NOT to do either and i really am going to explode very soon __________________ "You Ride A Horse Rather Less Well Than Another Horse Would" ~ Blackadder

10-09-2007, 09:10 PM	#9 (permalink)
shutterbug A picture's worth a 1000 words Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: With any luck, I'm lost in a view finder Posts: 2,957	hummm...is it possible you are just looking for a fight? perhaps one of us will say something in response to initial comment...thus giving you reason to direct your inner anger at one of us...and therefore outward? i personally don't know anyone here in the mental health forum who is insincere. sometimes responses may seem generic because of the individual person not knowing what really to say or not having much experience with the specific issue at hand. really...anyone who takes the time to read a post and respond at all is doing so because they care. there's not any other big reason to do so, other than knowing what it's like to feel alone and going through a difficult time...and wanting to help others not feel so alone like they did or have. personally...i think i know how you are feeling right now. however my emotions tend to come out more as tears and suicidal thoughts rather than anger, but i do bite people's heads off from time-to-time too. that being said...i don't know what to say that could possibly help you right now...unless you want to write more about what your feeling so i can have a better idea of what's ruminating in your head? __________________ I'M FINE!! Fanatically Insecure Neuratic & Emotional Bipolar/Depression support: 1-800-950-NAMI(6264).

10-11-2007, 06:33 PM	#12 (permalink)
Max.J.Milton Is A Girl Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Staffs, England Posts: 143	thankyou guys so much, and i truly mean it, i've never been somewhere where it seems that people truly understand me, but i think that you guys do. thankyou so much, really =) __________________ "You Ride A Horse Rather Less Well Than Another Horse Would" ~ Blackadder

10-11-2007, 07:15 PM	#13 (permalink)
GailJ Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Ontario Posts: 653	Keep posting Max, let us know more about you. Hugs if thats OK

10-11-2007, 07:18 PM	#14 (permalink)
Max.J.Milton Is A Girl Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Staffs, England Posts: 143	yeahi still feel like **** and if i'm honest i ihave had quite a lot to drink in the last couple of hours, and everyone i know has made suren i hate myself for itbut i cant do much about that; but for some reason that makes it easier to drink?...i dunnoe weirdness __________________ "You Ride A Horse Rather Less Well Than Another Horse Would" ~ Blackadder

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