Fighting Again - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Don W · 08-31-2007, 02:06 AM

It is 3:58 am in the morning. I am posting on SR. Just woke up from fighting the war again. Wife said I was kicking. The nightmares are always worse after a treatment session. Even now the mixed in emotions of child abuse and sexual abuse fogs my memory of the nightmare. It is like the rolls have been reversed in the nightmares. I did the killing but, in my nightmares it is me that is being killed. Sort of punished for my deeds. I have to give myself time to process this. Alcohol, made it easier, is no longer an option.

Live · 08-31-2007, 02:17 AM

Gosh, Don, I am so sorry that this is happening to you.
Did you know that the VA has an online program for support and info with PTSD?
It is called Pilots, I think.
But the best way to find it is to put PTSD in the search and go with the VA site.
Those night terrors are horrific.
I am very afraid of ever having another one.
Hubs is going through it so bad now.
I so wish and hope for you and hubs to get a decent night's sleep, even if it is during the day...he gets his only really rest from a nap but has given those up mostly.

historyteach · 08-31-2007, 02:28 AM

(((Don)))
I pray you can get through this dark time,
and enjoy the light.

Shalom!

Don W · 08-31-2007, 04:08 AM

Thank you for your support and suggestions. This is all part of recovery. Learning to feel the pain and not drink over the pain. Please remember, as i write these feelings I am a patient and recieve support from other Veterans. I have groups and phone numbers to call. My problem has been not having SR also in my life. That has been corrected. There is light and hope in my life today,

**Ann** · 08-31-2007, 04:38 AM

(((Don)))

Just know you are loved and that we are all walking with you through this journey of self-discovery.

Hugs

historyteach · 08-31-2007, 06:34 AM

I'm so glad you're back home with us, Don...
...where you are loved.

Shalom!

08-31-2007, 02:06 AM	#1 (permalink)
Don W Member Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Charleston S.C. Posts: 1,463	Fighting Again It is 3:58 am in the morning. I am posting on SR. Just woke up from fighting the war again. Wife said I was kicking. The nightmares are always worse after a treatment session. Even now the mixed in emotions of child abuse and sexual abuse fogs my memory of the nightmare. It is like the rolls have been reversed in the nightmares. I did the killing but, in my nightmares it is me that is being killed. Sort of punished for my deeds. I have to give myself time to process this. Alcohol, made it easier, is no longer an option. __________________ Captain America - On the side of good

08-31-2007, 02:17 AM	#2 (permalink)
Live Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: Bristol TN/VA Posts: 11,305 Blog Entries: 5	Gosh, Don, I am so sorry that this is happening to you. Did you know that the VA has an online program for support and info with PTSD? It is called Pilots, I think. But the best way to find it is to put PTSD in the search and go with the VA site. Those night terrors are horrific. I am very afraid of ever having another one. Hubs is going through it so bad now. I so wish and hope for you and hubs to get a decent night's sleep, even if it is during the day...he gets his only really rest from a nap but has given those up mostly. __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

08-31-2007, 02:28 AM	#3 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	(((Don))) I pray you can get through this dark time, and enjoy the light. Shalom! __________________ IMAGINE

08-31-2007, 04:08 AM	#4 (permalink)
Don W Member Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Charleston S.C. Posts: 1,463	Thank you for your support and suggestions. This is all part of recovery. Learning to feel the pain and not drink over the pain. Please remember, as i write these feelings I am a patient and recieve support from other Veterans. I have groups and phone numbers to call. My problem has been not having SR also in my life. That has been corrected. There is light and hope in my life today, __________________ Captain America - On the side of good

08-31-2007, 04:38 AM	#5 (permalink)
Ann Forum Leader Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: By The Lake Posts: 25,172	(((Don))) Just know you are loved and that we are all walking with you through this journey of self-discovery. Hugs __________________ “Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” ~Winnie the Pooh~

08-31-2007, 06:34 AM	#6 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 9,303	I'm so glad you're back home with us, Don... ...where you are loved. Shalom! __________________ IMAGINE

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