Relationships and being bipolar

[mistee]

Hi everyone

Just checking in its been awhile since my last post ....
Something i am facing today that i need to address is recently I have found myself into a new relationship i do care and love this person a great deal ..
when we recently found each other again after several years of not seeing one another i was manic during that time
the last several days i have found myself heading for the dark side of this illness to depression when i called my doc he said to up my meds until i level out some so i feel like a walking zombie right now and it stinks I finding my self totally taken everything the wrong way if he doesn t want to talk to me or if he does i take it the wrong way i find myself taking it all personal and fighting it all the way i know he loves me and i love him
im learning to tel him about this mental illness i have and that is all good so he is aware of the symtoms and he is very patient and loving and understanding too
right now we have 1300 miles that seperate us and it totally bothers me but when i am down i tend to think it is me he is upset with when that isnt really the caase at all he wants his son and i to be closer to him
i am also worried about his mom too she is in recovery for addiction to and the hospital has her pretty dang medicated for the pain she is talk about being powerless and totally having to let god work in there lives and mine to
i hope and pray for the depression can lift soon when i get too down the thoughts of harming me are much stronger and now i have been giving so many blessings and gifts i should be thrilled
well all i can do today is pray that hp hands will help us alot get thru it all

hugs mistee

Mistee,

It might be helpful to you to do some reading on the alanon board right now. I've felt the same things you are talking about because of my codependency issues. I expected that you would fall into a depression when he returned home. That's just natural. With your bi-polar it's even worse.

If you feel like harming yourself or cutting please come share with us first so we can offer support. We all care a lot about you and I think you've done amazing things in this past year. This is just a new lesson to learn that you will get through.

Go over and read the power posts at the top of the alanon board. I think it will help.

Love and hugs,
MG

[mistee]

Mg things for ur post i always like what u have to say cuz i know it comes from ur heart i read some of the alanon post

i think my biggest trouble with this is im just missing him a great deal and i know ur son is too he keeps looking for his daddy and saying it too
the thing is this my teen is out researching drugs and drinking which she is in totally deniel about that tough love i have been using all yr is helping me get past the loneliness of having her gone now when she sees me she doesnt seem so hateful right now to me

everyone here has been so supportive since i joined this chat messsage boards im totally grateful for all the support i need to come back more often

right now the thoughts of harm are here and i am fighthing them right now and giving it to hp to deal with them so far i have not cut or harmed me since last july and to me that is a blessing ur totally right about me missing him

but i realize he couldnt stay longer his mom is having major surgery and had it yesterday so my prayers are going to them right now

its been a few days i need to take a warm bath and relax i need to be good to me and stop the worry so much i know we will be together soon aagain cuz i am looking for a travel agency to help me and my son go see him again

the good thing is im not obsessing about this just miss him alot we had an awesome week last week together and built alot of new memories to hold on to

wow it is such a relief to come and share from my heart so much everyone has helped me get thru some hard stuff this last year
but i hate the downside of being bipolar

thanks again for the reads and ur wisdom
hhugs mistee

[BabeGirl]

Mistee,
I had some what of the same problem as you when I first got with my boyfriend. It took sometime till my meds were actually helping again and my boyfriend started to read my bipolar book and stuff that I had printed off the internet. It's taken some time but he doesn't hold the fact that I can be over sensitive to me. He just lets me go and I do the same to him. It's even harder to date another bipolar person!
Jess