feeling hopeless

[AngelMagic7]

I'm feeling so low at the moment.
Yesterday I was going to end it all but my boyfriend new and kept a very close eye on me, which is the lest he could do after us having another argument in the evening from the morning along with everything else that went wrong yesterday. Just to much in the end. I going to ask my doctor for stronger antidepressants and for them to hurry the therapy because I'm feeling out of control again.

I still feel like cutting but I'm trying so hard not to. No sorry I need to relive some tension and pain.

I don't expect any replays and I'm not sure what to say if I get any as most people think it's a way to get attention, I'm just trying to get a load of my chest that's all.

[historyteach]

AM,
You are at a state of emergency right now. Here's some resources for you to read right after you make a call.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-suicidal.html
Please call the Samaritans in your area first. Here's a phone number and more.
call us : 020 7734 2800 (branch)
call us: 08457 909090 (UK)
visit us: 46 Marshall St, W1 (9am-9pm)
email us: jo@samaritans.org

http://www.samaritans.org/~cls/

It's not the fight with your b/f that triggered this type of severe response. It's the chemical imbalance in your brain. You need therapy, yes, but, you need emergency treatment now. Please call, and let us know how you're doing.

Shalom!

[Time2Surrender]

Unload. I am not going to judge you. Im just glad your here posting.

[ccgirl]

Keep posting so we know you're OK, but most importantly, if you don't feel safe, go to the nearest emergency room NOW. I tried to commit suicide last April and it's not worth it.

[Lizrox]

Keep posting. Let us know how you are doing...

[Bozo]

Keep posting and let us know your situation, please dont take your life, give therapy and doctors a chance, please keep posting.

[Zencat]

AngelMagic7

Keep reaching out. You are touching people here.

[ccgirl]

angel, are you around? If so, please post.

[AngelMagic7]

Hi. I'm still here just hanging on. I slashed my arm to bits yesterday should of had stitches nevermind there fine .making stuff to take mined off things meant to be talking to somome to morow hope she can help cos i've had enough.

everything good in this life that you want you have to wait so long for.
well i don't have the strength to wait any more.

[sugarssweetpea]

(quote) well i don't have the strength to wait any more. (qoute)


I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. ~ Phillipians 4:13
I used to feel the same way as you are. My heart goes out to you. Please know that you are in my prayers. Please pm me if you want to talk more. Much love & much hugs to you.

[AngelMagic7]

Thanks sugarsweetpea, That's really sweet of you.
I had some good knew after finely getting to talk to someone.

There giving me ear acupuncture to help stop me with the alcohol and reassessing me so they knew what kind of therapy I need.
They said the therapy could take a while but at least I've got help with the drink and I chat with this guy once every Friday.

Can't wait for the therapy to start though.