You might be right...I may be crazy....

[liveweyerd]

hey, who does that?
And why does letting go seem like such a sin????????????!
Opppps...beat ya.... Biily Joel.
Ah....but gotta love Piano Man.
Recovery is great, but does it really have to be so sober??
I mean,,....so uptight ass-cheek squeezed together tight?
If I cain't let some o' my shyte here...then where else I goin' a be?
I dun been diagnosed um nutz. So I gotta few, I think, people to talk to here,
(don't care who approves!)...but damned howdy...can't we laugh, really gut belly uproar sometimes?
I needs it!:Wshade
I'alearnen' mite slow to be suthern. Love them belles!
Bless ya momma! Kneel amongst my jokin'..........
live....
help me bored..........Lawhd I tried to tell my friend that I spoke in tongues...yeah....when I talk Christian to her, and when I talk with the Buddhist in the other and the Darwin in the other....blow that gal o mine away.
I'sssa gettn' rite tite in heahr........ I cunnnno breathe, aw say...I cunna breathe in heahrah.

[splendra]

Originally Posted by liveweyerd

Recovery is great, but does it really have to be so sober??
I mean,,....so uptight ass-cheek squeezed together tight?

well hells bells this mama can get down on some not taking myself so seriously or the As in my life or what I have done wrong or right.

I know I ain't perfect I am not even trying to be perfect. If I could not laugh at myself I would be in serious trouble. I think sometimes people don't get my humor but, that is not my problem. I mean no harm. I know that it is possible that I offend others. Isn't that really their issuse not mine???If I get upset because someone else is upset that is my issue.

I cannot always say exactly what I think if I mind the reactions I might get from others. It's kinda like gambling and knowing when to hold them and when to fold them and when to walk away....

[liveweyerd]

Don' care no mo'wah. Spent my day doing rite and good. To folks that been treated bad and wrong. Don't care no mo'wah. I do it still. Cause I should. But here...don' care'ya no more. Ain' no laughin', even ain' no cryin', juss a tryin' to be big 'nuf an it don' reckon. It jus'n reckon no how. I say, this is the imp-otatnt thing I got to say.....it don'na reckon no how. Set aside me, you, a ussen' judge...tell me what I reckon' 'cuz I been judged, but inside, a deep I know yo' and it don' reckon no how. I done live high, I done lived low. My grammar could be just so. But I don' like a hidin' in prestige and dollar bills that just is green. My favorite color. How' I ain't got nothin' that I don' give away and beat the reaper to my grave. I dare and askin' ya now, talk to me. Jokin', or really real...I don' care how.

But is there someone else? Seems simple n true....yet likin' to play 'cassionly?
I do.
If this ain't it, it ain't true.

[pedagogue]

Ya know LW, I'm losin' my mind girl, cause I'm goin' crazy......crazy, crazy, crazy for you baby. Or something like that.

-p

[splendra]

If this ain't it, it ain't true.

yea I reckon..

[liveweyerd]

thankin' ya, yes"m I am. Done learn how to talk, um sorreeee, but from folk from prejudice. C'az u their color, 'n' I don' get it none. They be good'n'betteah to me, but my eyes won' let me in. They be light and not sweet blood, or say they say to me,...they un's think them sqeetors like 'em so...but they don' be in Florida I know....cuz I don' lied to my prejudice which say....I love folks.
And iffn' ya wan' fight, I start rite heaarah.....y'all ain't rite. And iffffun' ya gay, lesss' carry'on. Ain' nothin' to y'all, les' ya be wanta some.
But ain' nobody wann'a say theas' sick in theirya head.
'Ceptin me and here I'yam. Thankin' ya so...for lettin' me say..n'speakin' my piece. My doctor done' 'tol me so.
'Yam crazy with one to three, what diagnosis, each'en claim to be. I yum so ti'ed of bein' wrong...goes with crazy all along.
I dun prove my point...been 'ramblin' long.
Bust see...don't I careaaah? Nope. Just lauffffff along. N' tickle me.
If'n we cun lafff, we cun be freee....so tickle me, just'n tell me joke -n-so. Got no mem'ry, they be all to new to me.
My job is cipheren' and riting legal.
My o'le man, I luv him legal and he's an sickun, thanks a Gods' he's a veteran.
"Else I coulna' afford him, hahahaha and heeheeehee, cause uhy eah, he's lots like me. Sick in the head, we seen too much, we tried too hard, and we be two crutchsticks, leanin' and it's ssssoookayyyyy. Been tole so much to be lone..........it ain't um so. It ain't so.
I sing tonite. Thanks, my friends.
For lettin' me be....just what I am......................................

[liveweyerd]

Soorrrryy, folks, it'sa justa joke.
It's justa joke.
If I can't make fun-o-me? Where would I be? Where would I be?
I don' care to tell ya storiiiess of tragedy, why, where would I be?
I gets to laffffffffffff, folk'em....laffffem' with me!

[liveweyerd]

OKay, I see, I'sa talkin' to myself I see. Happened lots. Lots before. Used to worry me, but no' mo'. Just now I be 'musing me and I don' reckon, reckon none....cause if I'm havin' fun, it's a fun. And I still be 'musing me.

Truth be told...I wannna see.....just som'body laugh with me. Tell ya' ownly joke or lotsa folk, just'n come'on, life's so hard, I need to laugh, you need to laugh, we need to ha-ha off our knees.
Show me your alter ego...your comedian side...please, I dare you..
I didn't know, I was going to play my little scene upon the stage.
But, to me,....I have had such fun............I am laughing at things I remember
all across the stage...................
PLEASE share yourself, would you, with me....and I am able to get everyday............more me, (censor what you will) nutcase and quite sane!

[liveweyerd]

uuuuuhhhhhh---------------hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm


I continue to talk to myself. Fine then, ladies and gentlemen, we will now adopt another voice.

HOW do you do?
Very well, and you?
(One must have pinkie in place and show no interest)
Ah, as well(...............an aside to those like me, this is a competion of the filthy rich) and....social false dialogue goes on.
Ooops. some one please interupput me here. The thing that does not exist comes on-board and prepares the meal.
Please, friends, here, SR,shut me up, there are things I do not want to know.They make me cry.
I just wanted to have fun...I guess that is better with the redneck Foxworthy jokes.
Okay.
I warned everyone that I was crazy. I am all across the board here, suddenly because of too many associations.
I want to pretend these freaking things are not real!
DENIAL

[liveweyerd]

Pedagogue,

I see you watching me decompensate.
Ask some questions or something, will you????

[ranae1221]

well i am not sure what is going on, but if you want someone to talk to or ask you questions i am here.

hope all is well

[liveweyerd]

Please delete my last two posts.
I am wigged. It happens.

[ranae1221]

lol....'tis cool. we all do that now and then.

[liveweyerd]

thanks, no I am really meaning thanks so much....it doesn't matter if you don't quite understand my blah-de-blah-dah. Just thank you so I am not so all freaking alone!

[liveweyerd]

damn, please.....those last two posts or so, geez, the difference is clear....just um...rewind, delete.

I warned. I am crazy.
This didn't happen totally by accident.
BLEEP Bleep BLEEP

I know nothing, I know everything. People die.
In my own my mind, okay? crazy things, crazy things.


f this....can we please, I want to set aside, let's joke.
BOOO-hooo.

Decompensate. Don't blame anyone for not responding. Been here. Done that
Before.
It sucks.

LALALALALALAL

live

[liveweyerd]

okay, thank you.....you know who you are. Good God, I just wanted to be light-hearted and have fun.
And then.
I have alot of bad words to say now.

[upanddownjj]

Just passing by Live - are you OK?? or just joking around..

Janni

[liveweyerd]

Shyte.
Moodswings.
Database.
Numbers.
Just numbers.
DNA
swipe
soon
identity=barcode?????????

I am stashing cash.

[liveweyerd]

thanks, Janni....

Not sure really !!!!!!!!

[liveweyerd]

I am sorry.
Please, I am really sorry.
It is okay.
Do not worry about me.
I do have mental illness.
I am not stupid.
Sometimes, I just want to let things really, really out.
I am sorry if I worry people, please just take me as a joke.
I am just......sorry.
But if I come back to this thread,
please,
sometimes,
today, my husband had surgery,
I just want to let go
and let it fall where it may

[ranae1221]

Originally Posted by liveweyerd

I am sorry.
Please, I am really sorry.

no need to be sorry!

It is okay.
Do not worry about me.
I do have mental illness.
I am not stupid.
Sometimes, I just want to let things really, really out.
I am sorry if I worry people, please just take me as a joke.
I am just......sorry.

i know you have many people here who care about you, so not worrying about you is impossible!! I think I can speak for alot of us here that we don't take you as a joke.

But if I come back to this thread,
please,
sometimes,
today, my husband had surgery,
I just want to let go
and let it fall where it may

i hope you are able to keep coming back and "letting it out". it helps, it really helps. if you want to share more about what's going on, we'll be here. if you aren't up to that, we'll be here...listening and reading.

[liveweyerd]

I am crying....thank you for caring.
I try so hard!
I really try.
Sometimes I am a yonkers on here.....if I didn't have a sense of humor I don't know what would keep me.
Being mentally ill really sucks. I mean SUCKS. Lots of times I wish it were a substance that I could fight and beat.
Just, tonight, it is a rough night, thank you!

[liveweyerd]

Do not worry for me ARgentinaLALALALALALALA
Sorry, I could not resist.
Long story, but happy.
Thank you to each and every person, but especially one, who has set this hard night with me.
I am going to take your realness, your care, your concern, close to me and my heart and hopefully rest.
Hopefully,
life has been hard lately,
live/love/tena

[ranae1221]

hope this gives you something to laugh at!

Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are getting weak?


Why do banks charge a fee on "insufficient funds" when they know there is not enough?


Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?


Why doesn't glue stick to the bottle?


Why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection?


Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard?


Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him?

Whose idea was it to put an "S" in the word "lisp"?


If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes?


Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white?

The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four persons is suffering from some sort of mental illness. Think of your three best friends, if they are okay, then...

[ranae1221]

Interviewing crazy
A man who had been in a mental home for some years finally seemed to have improved to the point where it was thought he might be released.

The head of the institution, in a fit of commendable caution, decided, however, to interview him first.

"Tell me," said he, "if we release you, as we are considering doing, what do you intend to do with your life?'

The inmate said, "It would be wonderful to get back to real life and if I do, I will certainly refrain from making my former mistake. I was a nuclear physicist, you know, and it was the stress of my work in weapons research that helped put me here. If I am released, I shall confine myself to work in pure theory, where I trust the situation will be less difficult and stressful."

"Marvelous," said the head of the institution.

"Or else," ruminated the inmate. "I might teach. There is something to be said for spending one's life in bringing up a new generation of scientists."

"Absolutely," said the head.

"Then again, I might write. There is considerable need for books on science for the general public. Or I might even write a novel based on my experiences in this fine institution."

"An interesting possibility," said the head.

"And finally, if none of these things appeals to me, I can always continue to be a teakettle."