Just to Vent

[nucldragr]

I guess what I really need now is a place to go and yell and scream at the top of my lungs until I start coughing up blood. Ok how about a little background for those who don't know. Long story short. My wife of five years has been cheating on me with another man who consequently should be signed up on this site as much as anybody. Cocaine has control of his life. Anyway since the time that I found out about the affair my drinking has been almost uncontrollable. Today I had a doc's appt at 9:45am and when I got home she was not there. She says that she was driving around with the kids and doing some grocery shopping but I have a very hard time believing her since she has lost my trust. So I accept her answer even though I am in disbelief, but then tonight at about 7:30pm she told me she was going to take our 3 kids for a walk and that she would call me when she got home. That conversation was over 2 hours ago and my nerves are at full alert. I can't seem to reach her at home or on her cell(which makes me wonder why I even have one for her in the first place). But never before has a walk with the kids taken over two hours. I feel as if she is still lying to me, even though she says she is committed to our marriage, I fear that she is with htis other guy right now and I am furiously angry about that thought. I am not sure how to manage these emotions right now so that is why I am venting here. I apologize for the length of this but htere is really no short way of saying the things that needed to be said.

nucldragr

[nebraskadad]

nucl

which came first the drinking or the cheating? If you'd been unavailable because of your drinking she probably found it necessary to step out.
Drinking on the problem will only make it worse.

I used to live in Castlerock, there used to be a lot of good meetings in the area. The metro is filled with meetings, call your central office for a meeting schedule. or one of the clubhouses.

Getting sober might or might not help your situation with your spouse. But, if you have kids, being a parent means growing up a bit, Get sober for yourself and your kids will benefit, regardless of your marital status.

Been divorced and remarried to the same woman DURING my sobriety. It isn't always easy, but it is worth. She had stepped with a "woman", I was devastated. She was pretty sick at the time.

Give up on what she is thinking or doing, you have no control over it.. You came here for help, I trust you find it locally too.

find a nooner and get to it..

later
Nebraska Dad.


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[Tanis]

I hope things work out the best for you man.

[labyrinth]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHH. You relgious people just crak me up.

[labyrinth]

Nuc I hope things get better for ya..sorry that post was not for u.

regars

lab

[degadar]

Hi Nucldragr,

Been there. Looking back now I deserved what I got. I feel for you and I know it feels like the bottom has fallen out of your world at the time.

Unless you sort out your drinking, you'll not be able to think rationally, the alcohol breeds paranoia - goes around in a circle, more drink....

You are the only person who can do this Nucl. I can't blaim my wife for trying to find comfort elsewhere when I was drinking. I had a simple choice - sort myself out, or loose my family. I can't say wether you're in that situation - but you can.

It's not too late to act today, but it may be too late tomorrow.

Deg.