Of Promises & Mysteries: A Rememberance - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

02-10-2006, 06:42 AM

I was looking through some old journals last night and not looking for anything in particular...when this poem "accidentally" slipped out of a loose binder. I've noticed several other SR members going down Memory Lane here recently. How very odd, yet very timely...

Promises & Mysteries

In my left hand black
I beheld a sweet promise
a circle of fiery white gold
its diamonds flashing
with grace and finesse
a brilliance so bold

In my right hand red
I beheld a beautiful mystery
the tale of my love had
tarnished and grown cold
my memories became nothing
and more than misery
birthed from a story untold

In my heart and soul
I beheld a sweet promise
in the eyes of a godly maiden
so pure and five-fold
yet the beat of her heart
fueled the passions of old

In my youthful spirit-mind
I beheld a lovely mystery
both fantastic and surreal
hiding a past so dark and eerie
the warrior priest in me fell
even as I struggled for control.
----------------------------------

Â© Barry Leland Harper, 2006
Originally Penned on 03/31/91

In Loving Rememberance of Keraiah Berith
11/18/89 - 04/22/91

nightingale · 02-10-2006, 02:31 PM

Midas - That is a beautifully haunting or hauntingly beautiful tribute, I can't decide which. Very moving. Very powerful...

cwohio · 02-10-2006, 04:29 PM

beautiful banana man, just beautiful!

02-11-2006, 02:56 AM

Thank You. I'm not exactly sure what I'm feeling...Although, I did just realize the symbolism. If you look closely at the two bouquets, each one is comprised of 12 ivory roses.

Twelve. It's a very significant & iconographic number.

cwohio · 02-11-2006, 06:45 AM

ok barry - thank goodness for the google - had to look iconographic up! LOL still beautiful whatever the meaning.

02-11-2006, 07:54 AM

Thx. I've never been so heartbroken before & I've been thru a lot--and still going thru a lot. Recent days are taking a very heavy toll on my emotions. There are moments I feel I'm about to have a nervous breakdown, but I keep pressing onward. I keep trudging even when I don't want to.

cwohio · 02-11-2006, 10:01 AM

that's the spirit - know what you mean - want to trudge together? <a href='http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb008_ZBxdm197YYUS' target='_blank'><img src='http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_9_8.gif' alt='Walking Home Crying' border=0></a>

take care!

02-11-2006, 08:48 PM

I'll trudge with you, if you trudge with me. Deal?

The Sadie Hawkins Dance isn't for another 9 mo's tho...

cwohio · 02-11-2006, 08:51 PM

deal BBB<a href='http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb008_ZBxdm197YYUS' target='_blank'><img src='http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/15/15_10_5.gif' alt='Shaking Hands' border=0></a>

cwohio · 02-12-2006, 12:28 AM

Quote:

The Sadie Hawkins Dance isn't for another 9 mo's tho...

i'll be here! LOL

02-12-2006, 04:14 AM

Okie

Dokie, kiddo!

cwohio · 02-12-2006, 08:48 PM

i'm still here - waiting for sadie hawkins day dance! LOL<a href='http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb008_ZBxdm197YYUS' target='_blank'><img src='http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/im/w8ing.gif' alt='Waiting' border=0></a>

toforever · 03-11-2006, 04:54 AM

I love...whats gone wrong that wont escape me but I cant understand in the midst of crippling understanding? I cant and wont try to break codes or do studies and my questions are never answered although its not that they are not there. My problems are different I can see but I cant figure why. Sometimes i wish I could go away because I love you and you and you but I love me too...do you? I dont know why this happens, and I know that I cant understand what someone else is going through but I am concerned and seeing others in pain is my weekness, maybe thats the answer in aroundabout. is it true that it is thought or real that someone can understand what im going through? Strange and im like the violater because I ask but im getting so far away I fear that my zipped lips are just making things more real that are not. I have tried, and this is probably my last cry. To love so much that I cant slip away but feel its required but never instructed. I have practically crawled under the rug myself. Is this right? Ya know I have addictions just like many of you but mine are different. People here are kind or they have been but I smell the smell of contamination again. im sorry.

Bradley

02-10-2006, 06:42 AM	#1 (permalink)
Midas Guest Posts: n/a	Of Promises & Mysteries: A Rememberance I was looking through some old journals last night and not looking for anything in particular...when this poem "accidentally" slipped out of a loose binder. I've noticed several other SR members going down Memory Lane here recently. How very odd, yet very timely... Promises & Mysteries In my left hand black I beheld a sweet promise a circle of fiery white gold its diamonds flashing with grace and finesse a brilliance so bold In my right hand red I beheld a beautiful mystery the tale of my love had tarnished and grown cold my memories became nothing and more than misery birthed from a story untold In my heart and soul I beheld a sweet promise in the eyes of a godly maiden so pure and five-fold yet the beat of her heart fueled the passions of old In my youthful spirit-mind I beheld a lovely mystery both fantastic and surreal hiding a past so dark and eerie the warrior priest in me fell even as I struggled for control. ---------------------------------- Â© Barry Leland Harper, 2006 Originally Penned on 03/31/91 In Loving Rememberance of Keraiah Berith 11/18/89 - 04/22/91

02-10-2006, 04:29 PM	#3 (permalink)
cwohio Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Litterbox City Posts: 6,142	beautiful banana man, just beautiful! __________________ *Learn to write your hurts in sand. Learn to carve your blessings in stone! - Unknown*

02-11-2006, 06:45 AM	#5 (permalink)
cwohio Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Litterbox City Posts: 6,142	ok barry - thank goodness for the google - had to look iconographic up! LOL still beautiful whatever the meaning. __________________ *Learn to write your hurts in sand. Learn to carve your blessings in stone! - Unknown*

02-11-2006, 10:01 AM	#7 (permalink)
cwohio Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Litterbox City Posts: 6,142	that's the spirit - know what you mean - want to trudge together? <a href='http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb008_ZBxdm197YYUS' target='_blank'><img src='http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/4/4_9_8.gif' alt='Walking Home Crying' border=0></a> take care! __________________ *Learn to write your hurts in sand. Learn to carve your blessings in stone! - Unknown*

02-11-2006, 08:51 PM	#9 (permalink)
cwohio Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Litterbox City Posts: 6,142	deal BBB<a href='http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb008_ZBxdm197YYUS' target='_blank'><img src='http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/15/15_10_5.gif' alt='Shaking Hands' border=0></a> __________________ *Learn to write your hurts in sand. Learn to carve your blessings in stone! - Unknown*

02-10-2006, 02:31 PM	#2 (permalink)
nightingale Paused Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: In JC's arms Posts: 120	Midas - That is a beautifully haunting or hauntingly beautiful tribute, I can't decide which. Very moving. Very powerful...

02-11-2006, 02:56 AM	#4 (permalink)
Midas Guest Posts: n/a	Thank You. I'm not exactly sure what I'm feeling...Although, I did just realize the symbolism. If you look closely at the two bouquets, each one is comprised of 12 ivory roses. Twelve. It's a very significant & iconographic number.

02-11-2006, 07:54 AM	#6 (permalink)
Midas Guest Posts: n/a	Thx. I've never been so heartbroken before & I've been thru a lot--and still going thru a lot. Recent days are taking a very heavy toll on my emotions. There are moments I feel I'm about to have a nervous breakdown, but I keep pressing onward. I keep trudging even when I don't want to.

02-11-2006, 08:48 PM	#8 (permalink)
Midas Guest Posts: n/a	I'll trudge with you, if you trudge with me. Deal? The Sadie Hawkins Dance isn't for another 9 mo's tho...

02-12-2006, 04:14 AM	#11 (permalink)
Midas Guest Posts: n/a	Okie Dokie, kiddo!

02-12-2006, 08:48 PM	#12 (permalink)
cwohio Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Litterbox City Posts: 6,142	i'm still here - waiting for sadie hawkins day dance! LOL<a href='http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb008_ZBxdm197YYUS' target='_blank'><img src='http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/23/im/w8ing.gif' alt='Waiting' border=0></a> __________________ *Learn to write your hurts in sand. Learn to carve your blessings in stone! - Unknown*

03-11-2006, 04:54 AM	#13 (permalink)
toforever they took my picture Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: Maryland Posts: 122	I love...whats gone wrong that wont escape me but I cant understand in the midst of crippling understanding? I cant and wont try to break codes or do studies and my questions are never answered although its not that they are not there. My problems are different I can see but I cant figure why. Sometimes i wish I could go away because I love you and you and you but I love me too...do you? I dont know why this happens, and I know that I cant understand what someone else is going through but I am concerned and seeing others in pain is my weekness, maybe thats the answer in aroundabout. is it true that it is thought or real that someone can understand what im going through? Strange and im like the violater because I ask but im getting so far away I fear that my zipped lips are just making things more real that are not. I have tried, and this is probably my last cry. To love so much that I cant slip away but feel its required but never instructed. I have practically crawled under the rug myself. Is this right? Ya know I have addictions just like many of you but mine are different. People here are kind or they have been but I smell the smell of contamination again. im sorry. Bradley

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