emotional roller coaster

[mistee]

Emotional Roller coaster
By T B aka mistee



I have never been so aware of the pain
That I endured
Until now
One minute I was happy to see her
And with in minutes I was in a whirl of feelings
One of angry
One of sadness
One of abusive words
It is amazing to me that words can hurt so badly
Out of angry for the things that didn’t happen the way I thought they would
But is that my fault
I think not
I am not sure how long I have been these ways
One minute up with happiness and joy
One minute down with sadness and feeling buried in a hole
That I can’t get out of the depression that gets me there
No one understands that it is so awful
To be happy and then be sad in a few minutes
I would give anything to change these quick and rapid mood swings that I have
I would but I am not sure how to stop them
Or what makes them happen
All I know is that it hurts to be in so much sadness
I try to laugh but I can’t even smile
I try to cry and I laugh
I try to smile and I frown with sadness
When will I get of this roller coaster of emotions?
I want off this ride
It hurts too much
My heart bleeds for it too stop
PLEASE MAKE IT STOP
I WANT OFF THIS RIDE
AND NO
I AM NOT HAVING FUN AT ALL