" CRIES OF DESPERATION " - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

maribel · 12-06-2004, 10:07 PM

" I said a prayer as I cried to the Lord "
" I prayed for Him to help me fight this war "
" The battle of addiction and all my afflictions "
" I really felt I needed to be tought a lesson "
" Two days later, I was in court getting a conviction "
" I just had to to honest when I spoked to my Pd "
" He asked why I stop reporting to probation "
" And I admited I suffered from a bad disease "
" I told him I coul'nt function "
" That I needed some time away "
" I was sent to jail, which Is better than hell "
" Now I stand here in Gateway "
" Blessed to be clean One More Day "
I wrote this poem 3 years ago while Incarcerated. I joined gateway while in jail. When i was released i managed to stay clean almost a year, but i ended up using again. But now i am in treatment and I'm staying clean. Thanks to my higher power.
By Maribel

CAPTAINZING2000 · 12-12-2004, 03:27 PM

Maribel.

Thank You For Keeping Me Sober Today

Chris

maribel · 12-16-2004, 04:51 PM

To Chris if by any chance you happend to go back to this forum. I want to thank you for responding and say you're welcome. One day at a time thats how we need to work on our recovery. There has been so much i have been trough. Sometimes i start to think of how my life turn out and it hurts of how i change from a young lady that did'nt use anything, that went to church, that worked, was there for my kids, that did alot had had alot going. I did'nt have a professional carrer type of job. but i did work ajob that brought some money in. Anyways i started drinking liquor and that led to other things. I have suffered from depression and anxiety from a young age. I never got it treated during the begining of my using. When i would drink hard liquor it would stop the anxiety attacks and make me relax. SO i did more & more of it untill it took me to where I'm at today. during my in patient treatment i learnd that i was self medicating myself to feel better about myself. Today I'm on the right kind of medication and I'n the right treament. Chris Good Luck In Your Recovery.
ur friend, Mari

CAPTAINZING2000 · 12-17-2004, 09:46 AM

From The Boy In Ill.

Yw I've Stayed In This Program To Carry The Message To Everyone New Coming Thru The Doors. I Can Never Repay Aa. Thank God, I Took The Road I Did To Get Here. It Took Every Drink And Drug It Took For All Of Us To Try And Get Well

God Bless

12-06-2004, 10:07 PM	#1 (permalink)
maribel Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: chicago,illinois Posts: 12	" CRIES OF DESPERATION " " I said a prayer as I cried to the Lord " " I prayed for Him to help me fight this war " " The battle of addiction and all my afflictions " " I really felt I needed to be tought a lesson " " Two days later, I was in court getting a conviction " " I just had to to honest when I spoked to my Pd " " He asked why I stop reporting to probation " " And I admited I suffered from a bad disease " " I told him I coul'nt function " " That I needed some time away " " I was sent to jail, which Is better than hell " " Now I stand here in Gateway " " Blessed to be clean One More Day " I wrote this poem 3 years ago while Incarcerated. I joined gateway while in jail. When i was released i managed to stay clean almost a year, but i ended up using again. But now i am in treatment and I'm staying clean. Thanks to my higher power. By Maribel

12-17-2004, 09:46 AM	#4 (permalink)
CAPTAINZING2000 Thankful for our Veterans Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: ILLINOIS Posts: 8,161 Blog Entries: 1	From The Boy In Ill. Yw I've Stayed In This Program To Carry The Message To Everyone New Coming Thru The Doors. I Can Never Repay Aa. Thank God, I Took The Road I Did To Get Here. It Took Every Drink And Drug It Took For All Of Us To Try And Get Well God Bless __________________ LIFE IS GOD'S GIFT TO YOU WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE IS YOUR GIFT TO GOD J - Jesus first O - Others next Y - Yourself last John 14:6

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12-12-2004, 03:27 PM	#2 (permalink)
CAPTAINZING2000 Thankful for our Veterans Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: ILLINOIS Posts: 8,161 Blog Entries: 1	Maribel. Thank You For Keeping Me Sober Today Chris

12-16-2004, 04:51 PM	#3 (permalink)
maribel Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: chicago,illinois Posts: 12	To Chris if by any chance you happend to go back to this forum. I want to thank you for responding and say you're welcome. One day at a time thats how we need to work on our recovery. There has been so much i have been trough. Sometimes i start to think of how my life turn out and it hurts of how i change from a young lady that did'nt use anything, that went to church, that worked, was there for my kids, that did alot had had alot going. I did'nt have a professional carrer type of job. but i did work ajob that brought some money in. Anyways i started drinking liquor and that led to other things. I have suffered from depression and anxiety from a young age. I never got it treated during the begining of my using. When i would drink hard liquor it would stop the anxiety attacks and make me relax. SO i did more & more of it untill it took me to where I'm at today. during my in patient treatment i learnd that i was self medicating myself to feel better about myself. Today I'm on the right kind of medication and I'n the right treament. Chris Good Luck In Your Recovery. ur friend, Mari

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