To my DISEASE - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

chelseadenizen · 12-04-2004, 10:54 PM

Little wonder that you hate the things that are restoring my life back into my possession, like meetings, my Higher Power, and the fact that I have a Program. That's what you wanted most from me, isn't it…my life! Well, I've got some precious news for you, you fiend of a friend…you can't have it anymore!

How clearly I am beginning to see how cunning and scheming you are, pretending to be my friend. The so-called comfort you gave me all those years was self-serving, was it not? You could have cared less. In fact, you didn't care at all! All you did was to teach me cowardice and anesthetize me from reality, my feelings, and living because of what you wanted, and not what I needed. What a lie you had me believe when you said that life doesn't have to have any pain. You almost had me there with that one, didn't you? And you then proceeded to induce me to surrender even more of my life to you…and in exchange for what--even more pain than I had in the first place so that I would become yet even more dependent upon you and thinking that I had no other choice.

Well, guess what? (if you haven't already figured it out) Your conniving, self-serving, insidious lies masked as help, comfort, strength and friendship have been exposed and I choose to think, feel, act differently, ask for help, make genuine friends and reclaim and recover all of my life, to which I am rightly and solely entitled.

You have helped yourself to far more than you ever deserved by taking advantage of my generosity and kindness when I initially only offered you a portion of it. You and your bad manners have a lot to answer for. The next time you come knocking, I will not answer the door. You are persona non grata as of today. I am not yours any longer, you are mine!

In closing, I sing out pretty much the same lyrics that Gloria Gaynor gave us many years ago:

Go on! Walk out the door!
Don't come around now! You're not welcome anymore!
You were the one who tried to hurt me and my life…
You'd think I'd crumble…
You'd think I'd lay down and die…
OH NO NOT I!
I WILL SURVIVE!
I…WILL…SURVIVE!

NO LONGER yours truly,

Rob E.

S-ROD · 12-15-2004, 08:02 PM

Very good, Thats how we should all feel at this point, huh?

CAPTAINZING2000 · 12-22-2004, 08:00 AM

I so wish everyone kept that in mind when we're at our weakest moment.

TY for sharing

chris

dustedanddisgus · 12-27-2004, 11:25 AM

Nice ......to bad people sometimes can't be that stong...for that most things are just words. I want to know what describes true feelings. I don't think there is anything for them. Just self discipline and lots of fight. I can't pinpoint what takes the void out of the person. I know this so called disease is defintley cunning and self seeking. Never the less destroying. I love what you said. I think people just really need to know how to put it into action I believe that is the hardest part don't you?

12-04-2004, 10:54 PM	#1 (permalink)
chelseadenizen Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: New York, NY Posts: 1	To my DISEASE Little wonder that you hate the things that are restoring my life back into my possession, like meetings, my Higher Power, and the fact that I have a Program. That's what you wanted most from me, isn't it…my life! Well, I've got some precious news for you, you fiend of a friend…you can't have it anymore! How clearly I am beginning to see how cunning and scheming you are, pretending to be my friend. The so-called comfort you gave me all those years was self-serving, was it not? You could have cared less. In fact, you didn't care at all! All you did was to teach me cowardice and anesthetize me from reality, my feelings, and living because of what you wanted, and not what I needed. What a lie you had me believe when you said that life doesn't have to have any pain. You almost had me there with that one, didn't you? And you then proceeded to induce me to surrender even more of my life to you…and in exchange for what--even more pain than I had in the first place so that I would become yet even more dependent upon you and thinking that I had no other choice. Well, guess what? (if you haven't already figured it out) Your conniving, self-serving, insidious lies masked as help, comfort, strength and friendship have been exposed and I choose to think, feel, act differently, ask for help, make genuine friends and reclaim and recover all of my life, to which I am rightly and solely entitled. You have helped yourself to far more than you ever deserved by taking advantage of my generosity and kindness when I initially only offered you a portion of it. You and your bad manners have a lot to answer for. The next time you come knocking, I will not answer the door. You are persona non grata as of today. I am not yours any longer, you are mine! In closing, I sing out pretty much the same lyrics that Gloria Gaynor gave us many years ago: Go on! Walk out the door! Don't come around now! You're not welcome anymore! You were the one who tried to hurt me and my life… You'd think I'd crumble… You'd think I'd lay down and die… OH NO NOT I! I WILL SURVIVE! I…WILL…SURVIVE! NO LONGER yours truly, Rob E. Last edited by chelseadenizen; 12-04-2004 at 11:02 PM. Reason: change of the lyrics at the end

12-15-2004, 08:02 PM	#2 (permalink)
S-ROD Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Woburn, Ma Posts: 33	Very good, Thats how we should all feel at this point, huh? __________________ Take it one day at a time, see where it takes you.

12-22-2004, 08:00 AM	#3 (permalink)
CAPTAINZING2000 Thankful for our Veterans Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: ILLINOIS Posts: 8,161 Blog Entries: 1	I so wish everyone kept that in mind when we're at our weakest moment. TY for sharing chris __________________ LIFE IS GOD'S GIFT TO YOU WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE IS YOUR GIFT TO GOD J - Jesus first O - Others next Y - Yourself last John 14:6

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12-27-2004, 11:25 AM	#4 (permalink)
dustedanddisgus Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: hayward ca Posts: 2	Nice ......to bad people sometimes can't be that stong...for that most things are just words. I want to know what describes true feelings. I don't think there is anything for them. Just self discipline and lots of fight. I can't pinpoint what takes the void out of the person. I know this so called disease is defintley cunning and self seeking. Never the less destroying. I love what you said. I think people just really need to know how to put it into action I believe that is the hardest part don't you?

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