Untitled - you never know when it's your last...

[lostbutterfly]

This is not my poem, but I'm going to immortalize it here:

My life has had a lot of ups and downs
A lot of people with their frowns
Frowning at me but I cannot see it,
All the drugs I was on you would not believe it.
Necking over 20 valiums a day
I just couldn't see I was wasting my life away
Trying to get through life every day.

The only thing that was the most fear,
Was how I'm going to get my next fix every day a year
I'm now 22 years old
Heroin took my life and my soul
It was my gold the warmth that it holds

But now I'm through all that, I've got new goals
Being myself with real self-esteem
I am so f*cking glad that now I am clean
No more sh*t that I'm gunna be taking
I have been drug clean for more than a year
... well maybe I did slip up here and there

But I don't care because now I've made it there
The whole future is near I've not got much to fear
I think I will take things step by step,
God knows what will happen to me,
Marriage - who knows - I don't know about kids though.

If it is so, no more than two,
because I can just about look after
Myself let alone me and both you too.
For now I think I will just stick to my prescription,
Gradually wind down and get back to all that I am missing.

Steven Bosanquet
(Steven died from a suspected drug o/d on May 19 2008. This poem was submitted to the Big Issue UK by his mother in his memory)