The world doesn't stop for me...i get in...

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The world doesn’t stop: text from the Free Spirit works (read like you're screaming)

Don’t ask me if it hurts
Or these words wouldn’t cry
I’ve been dead all this time
And I am told, on this late night

I stayed behind
While the world moved faster
I know better now, oh God
for it's hurting like a bullet
the heart goes and looses blood
And I am here soaking

What hurts more?
the fact it’s all my fault
I ran away
couldn't stand, the constant self assault
The only one I could ever be
Was the one standing in the mirror
So I ran again till I,
I went against a wall
And in that wall
Was a man
Nothing like that boy
Who ran with fear from things
and cried and cried, oh damn why cry?
it won't solve a thing
just move on and loose the pain
what is done is burning down
but the future is right now

I woke up then a man
With all the thirst for life,
Experience the world and nature
And be free in my own mind
To recall just a kid
with no self love to make his way
But it took me just too long
Two decades of loneliness
two tens of emptiness
but in that deeper void i saw
there was still a dreaming strength
But it gets deep
And I am wise
Lord knows I still believe
He is to finish finally
what he previously started on me

Dude, I stopped living to agree
With the feeling that I did not exist
Ish, I am alive
i laugh, i can still smile
Oh shut up little voice,
You don’t boss me anymore
The voice of freedom is at my door
She’ll take over from now on

Oh how I over though my worth
How I judged and judged me with no love
I am no longer here to do so
Loose another day with you
Go voice of failure to the ground
I am renewed, i hear the sounds
The world is saying: go ahead
I am ready, I free myself…
Stop, child, Look around
While the rain dropped the water down
You stayed under the clouds
You could’ve moved, You could’ve moved
But your legs froze, You stood there
I know you love the rain
But you can’t make that your life
Free yourself while there is time
You have the shine in your own life
Stop the pain, Stop the hurt
And listen to your heart

Oh the bleeding hasn’t stopped
But it’s there for a reason
Thank you God
i see clearly
With the pain you showed me
I was dead
I watched my consecutive burring
I watched my slow succumbing
I watch my rebirth
Call it coma, if you will
What do you call it when you don’t live?
When you don’t make the difference?
Between an hour and a minute
Aaahh..i lost every day
For almost a decade
But yes I’ve learned about life
The visionary was right
She said I’d go through pain first
And then I’d be ready to live
then everybody would go through
What I had already gone trough
Never though she was right
But she was..completely right

This is the part of life
Where I realize every action
Has retro-action
I am responsible
For giving up on me
Oh tears don’t try to stop me
I know, yes, I know exactly
I might have ruined twenty years
But I have at least some more days
Do not think for a minute
The next ones will be like those
They will be the revelation
The one untold

Besides I am not ready
That I never lost
I am never going to be able
To simply, just,give up


Maybe my blessing is that I go for a future
With a lot more wisdom
Because of all the inflicted pain
Dad you were never worth the time
I did it for mom
I wanted to free her
But now I am gonna free myself first
She understands
She’s a mother, she knows the need to fly like no other...

I was dead for many years
I’m born again to a free spirit
Nobody will stop me now,from living,
Especially me
Finally exactly like God wanted me too,
a man with his reasons
free at last
and becoming all He can be
i am living today
the only regret i am not having
at last...i have arrived to my own life

NR, 24th June of 2007