A Thought For You

[Derameth]

How can I accept that which I know is wrong?
What type of person would I be?
When could I rest my eyes and know
that the shadows of a mistake will leave me in peace?

Talking to the flowers in the yard
Listen more than those that
need to hear the petaled words.
Or mayhaps the words should be shouted
not hushed and muted tones that lull one to sleep.

Destruction of the very fiber of the being
that is you comes from outside,
but

Inside the time bomb ticks

tick tick

tick

Until the resounding of that noise makes
you turn into something you tried to
run

away

from.

The running was good.

Scarey.

Exhilerating

Tenous

Life Saving.

No

Soul and self saving.

I sigh and know that I cannot
change that which has been
turned against me.

I reach for the hand I would
help, but notice it is invisibly
removed from my outstretched arm.
Can I let that happen?

Should I?

Will I?

Standing as a weary pugilist, my
stance is wobbly,
my endurance is wanning and
my gloves, though dried, my
own sad eyes are reflected
in their shine of defeat.

I am beaten.

Not broken

But bested by the best.
One who will not stop
until the victory is theirs
and the loss is

forever

mine.

[Wolfstarr]

It may be wrong only in your eyes, Derameth...
for it is not your way,

You fight, you are a warrior, you stand firm.
Others are passive, quiet, and content with
their choices...

These are things that make us all different,
unique,
special,
yet we are connected to teach one another

The fight, the struggle, the perserverance, and
the letting go for peace, comfort and
connection.

Not all of us can be the same and reach for the
same stars...
For some of us, the stars are closer to earth...

[Derameth]

Of course wrongness is but a state of
mind and an overwhelmingly subjective point of view.
That being said...
Stars are there for the taking.
Passivity can also be called
lack of initiative.
Coldness, aloof.
Submission to others or to outside influences.

Is it that of which you speak? A resignedness?
Indifference? Detachment? Heedlessness?

Oh dear Wolfstarr, can you understand
the way of your words? Chosen, unbidden, yet
still and all ones that pour forth even past
a conscious effort.

The antithesis of passivity is Passion,
enthusiasm, interest.

Yes, I am a warrior, and will not
stand to be coddled by a pretense. To submit
to the spewing of indifference and lack of passion,
committment to the self.

If you choose not to....so be it.

[Derameth]

So be it.

It is your choice and I shall abide by it.
I will support it for we are much more
than friends. Deeper and more permanent.

Forever.



~~~~Sorry about the continued but I got logged off and forgot that I wanted to finish it and went to edit it and viola.....couldn't~~~~