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Introvrtd1 · 09-16-2007, 09:36 AM

Its 1:30am on this side of the world.

Woke from a sound sleep. Just like that.

Decided to get up, read and post.

Wonder who else is up at this hour?

Moments like these, like to turn on talk radio and listen till I fall back asleep.

What a bummer. I feel like the only one in the world up this early.

Seriously,

I know im not the only one.

Anybody else out there?

Introvrtd1 · 09-16-2007, 11:42 AM

3:30am.

Roaming the house in the dark.....Family sleeping. I should be too.

Looking out the window. Dark, quiet, still.

As usual, I'll go to the office extremely early this morn. Lock the door, lights out, reading and posting until the workday begins.

Mid morning comes, i'll get really sleepy. Oh, great. Where was this at 1am this morn.

What a way to be, huh?

Viki · 09-16-2007, 11:50 AM

Hi Introvrtd1
You are living my life. I am up all hours of the night and then i have to get uo for real at 6am to go to work for 9 hours and solve other people's problems...try to anyway.3 days straight I did not close my eyes. i had to take off work. I really thought that i was on the brink of a meltdown. All of this stems from my son overdosing last May and also being addicted to benzos for a few years. I came off of the benzos and 8-10 hours of sleep to nothing. It sre has been rough. What do you attribute your insomnia to?

Introvrtd1 · 09-16-2007, 12:00 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Viki

What do you attribute your insomnia to?

.......shamefully, i had been drinking today.

Even in the midst of therapy/meetings.

......sigh......

I know. Im getting help, but its gonna take some time to change my behavior.

Im slowly learning that talking to caring people does help to a major degree.

Thanks for ur post. Very helpful.

Introvrtd1 · 09-16-2007, 12:16 PM

Well.....................................

4am. Still up. Still dark out. Reading and posting gives me a sense of purpose.

Think i'll visit the anxiety forum a while. Mine is starting to kick in.......

Introvrtd1 · 09-16-2007, 01:45 PM

Just got in....sittin here at the office.

Reading and posting.

Its very early. Nobody here yet. Still dark out.

This is crazy. Being the only one in the building this early. In the dark. At my computer.

Ha, the only good thing is when I arrived being the only car in the lot. For now. Having any spot I want is fun. Arriving when everybody else does is a drag. The fight for spots begins. Bosses dont worry about spots. Theirs are reserved near the building. For everyone else, the race is on. Parking is not all that big a deal. Its just a matter of how far u walk. The furthest spot is maybe a one minute walk.

Soon as the day begins, I'll get sleepy. Go figure, I been up since 1am.

Introvrtd1 · 09-16-2007, 03:45 PM

Spent some time on the anxiety forum.

Man, Im really having a bad time.......

bugsworth · 09-16-2007, 03:58 PM

I am so sorry you are having a tough time of it. I promise it does get better, you are doing the right thing by being here and posting your feelings!

Introvrtd1 · 09-16-2007, 07:09 PM

Whenever this happens, my panic/anxiety kicks in.

Im finally calming down.

Earlier, I couldnt sit still for five min. Now, able to read and post with focus and concentration.

Bad thing is, tonites sleep is gonna suck (i hope not anyway).

Right now, feel like I cannot stay awake.

When its time for bed though, very little will happen. Sleep may elude me.

Introvrtd1 · 09-16-2007, 07:11 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Introvrtd1

Soon as the day begins, I'll get sleepy. Go figure, I been up since 1am.

......and here we go......

Introvrtd1 · 09-17-2007, 12:33 AM

Great.

I've had meetings, site visits, lots of emailing, other busy stuff all day, while fighting to stay awake.

I finally get home, eat a little meal and plop down on the couch.

Normally I would be fast alseep. Wouldn't ya know, the sleepies were all gone. Closed my eyes, but felt just like I did at 1am this morning. NOthing.

sigh...........I hate this.

Introvrtd1 · 09-17-2007, 02:43 PM

Had a fairly decent nap when I got home from work. At first, a struggle, because I felt very tired, but wanted to sleep. Finally blacked out for about 2 hours.

Man, that really charged my battery. At what cost?

I went to bed at 11pm after reading and posting. Didnt actually fall asleep until around 1am, but slept thru the nite. Only about four hours sleep, but tonite should be better.

Viki · 09-17-2007, 03:03 PM

hey into
How goes it right now? I hope that the nap really helped. There are times when i would give almost anything for 2 straight hours of sleep. I haven't had that in so lonf. I would safely say that I haven't slept 2 straight hours in 4-5 months. i am getting about 2-3 hours of sleep at night. It comes in 10-30- minute intervals. i hate that too. I;ll doze off and have weird dream and wake up. I'll look at the clock and to will only have been like 6 minutes. It is driving me bananas. I am addicted to benzos. I slept like a baby then. Now i don't sleep very much at all. I work 8-10 hours a day and i have 3 teenage daughters. My plate isfull. I was thinking about trying to bet hypnotized to see if that helps. i am also entering the idea of meditatiom. Any views on these ideas?...............Viki

Introvrtd1 · 09-17-2007, 03:21 PM

Thanks Viki,

Since being off benzos, I think the body creates quite a tolerance/dependence. Of course ur sleeping well on benzos, coming off is the hard part.

I dont know about the hypno stuff. I was too afraid to try it. Im a control freak, and someone else in control, particularly of my mind is a scary thought.

8-10 hrs work, three daughters,......oh, the drama u must see.

The cause of my insomnia was drinking. When I stop, I sleep like a log after a few days of turbulent sleep patterns.

Exercise is tough to fit into a busy schedule, but boy does it really help. Nothing fancy, just 30min, 3X a week walking, biking, yoga, or any vigorous activity. I really believe you will detox, and start to sleep better.

Hope this is helpful.

Good luck,

Intro

Afraid2Succeed · 09-17-2007, 03:32 PM

Insomnia can be a vicious cycle, and reading the earlier posts bring me back to those days...

Some tricks that worked for me in the past...

1) Whenever I couldn't sleep, I would leave the bed. The 'bed' was only for sleep, and I didn't want to associate insomnia w/laying in bed.

2) Sticking to a sleep schedule. At first this is easier said then done, but if you can manage a period of repetition, your body will become accustomed to it.

3) Exercise. I usually wore myself out by swimming, and swimming, and swimming. Your alert mind cannot resist the body's tiredness.

4) Healthy diet. Old cliche, but you are what you eat. Certain foods will wreak havoc to your blood sugar and consequently make you tired at inopportune times. Resist the mid-day nap.

I would also try the 101 remedies out there, though none of them worked for me. Such as warm milk, hot bath, boring book (kinda worked actually), clearing mind, counting and visualizing numbers in order, etc.

Bryant Gumbel once said sleep was overrated. He routinely sleeps 4 hours a day. He is weird, in my expert opinion.

best,
Dave

Introvrtd1 · 09-17-2007, 03:51 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Afraid2Succeed

Bryant Gumbel once said sleep was overrated. He routinely sleeps 4 hours a day. He is weird, in my expert opinion.

...Heh, heh. Yeah, Brian is out there.

Introvrtd1 · 09-18-2007, 02:38 PM

Getting better......

Had two, 30 min workouts yesterday.

Bed at 10pm, took about an hour to knock out. Only woke up once (3am), quickly back to sleep.

Hit the snooze on the alarm this morn.

Woke up 45min later,

YIKES,......overslept.

............getting better......

Lets see how long it lasts.

Introvrtd1 · 09-23-2007, 04:52 PM

Well..................................

It felt really good to sleep in this weekend. I actually woke up early a few times, thinking I was gonna be late for work. To my relief, I didnt have to get up, so I slept in.

Woke up this morn early for work.

Back to the usual.

Feelin kinda groggy this morn.

Im reminded of the song by Otis Redding....."Sittin on the dock of the bay", Watchin the tiiiiiiiiiiide roll away.

http://www.otisredding.com/

Watch,

Im going to get sleepy by mid morning. I often wake up at 2/3am wide awake. Cant get to sleep until

09-16-2007, 09:36 AM	#1 (permalink)
Introvrtd1 Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Overseas Posts: 320	Up again..... Its 1:30am on this side of the world. Woke from a sound sleep. Just like that. Decided to get up, read and post. Wonder who else is up at this hour? Moments like these, like to turn on talk radio and listen till I fall back asleep. What a bummer. I feel like the only one in the world up this early. Seriously, I know im not the only one. Anybody else out there?

09-16-2007, 11:50 AM	#3 (permalink)
Viki Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Mary alice, KY Posts: 122	Hi Introvrtd1 You are living my life. I am up all hours of the night and then i have to get uo for real at 6am to go to work for 9 hours and solve other people's problems...try to anyway.3 days straight I did not close my eyes. i had to take off work. I really thought that i was on the brink of a meltdown. All of this stems from my son overdosing last May and also being addicted to benzos for a few years. I came off of the benzos and 8-10 hours of sleep to nothing. It sre has been rough. What do you attribute your insomnia to?
	__________________ We are not sure of sorrow, And joy was never sure, Today will die tomorrow, Time stops to no man's lure. - A.C. Swinburne - My son I miss you My son i love you Watch over me my son R.I.P Trey 5/15/06

09-16-2007, 03:58 PM	#8 (permalink)
bugsworth Member Join Date: Sep 2007 Posts: 1,002	I am so sorry you are having a tough time of it. I promise it does get better, you are doing the right thing by being here and posting your feelings!
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09-16-2007, 07:09 PM	#9 (permalink)
Introvrtd1 Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Overseas Posts: 320	Oh, not good Whenever this happens, my panic/anxiety kicks in. Im finally calming down. Earlier, I couldnt sit still for five min. Now, able to read and post with focus and concentration. Bad thing is, tonites sleep is gonna suck (i hope not anyway). Right now, feel like I cannot stay awake. When its time for bed though, very little will happen. Sleep may elude me.

09-17-2007, 03:03 PM	#13 (permalink)
Viki Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Mary alice, KY Posts: 122	hey into How goes it right now? I hope that the nap really helped. There are times when i would give almost anything for 2 straight hours of sleep. I haven't had that in so lonf. I would safely say that I haven't slept 2 straight hours in 4-5 months. i am getting about 2-3 hours of sleep at night. It comes in 10-30- minute intervals. i hate that too. I;ll doze off and have weird dream and wake up. I'll look at the clock and to will only have been like 6 minutes. It is driving me bananas. I am addicted to benzos. I slept like a baby then. Now i don't sleep very much at all. I work 8-10 hours a day and i have 3 teenage daughters. My plate isfull. I was thinking about trying to bet hypnotized to see if that helps. i am also entering the idea of meditatiom. Any views on these ideas?...............Viki
	__________________ We are not sure of sorrow, And joy was never sure, Today will die tomorrow, Time stops to no man's lure. - A.C. Swinburne - My son I miss you My son i love you Watch over me my son R.I.P Trey 5/15/06

09-16-2007, 11:42 AM	#2 (permalink)
Introvrtd1 Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Overseas Posts: 320	3:30am. Roaming the house in the dark.....Family sleeping. I should be too. Looking out the window. Dark, quiet, still. As usual, I'll go to the office extremely early this morn. Lock the door, lights out, reading and posting until the workday begins. Mid morning comes, i'll get really sleepy. Oh, great. Where was this at 1am this morn. What a way to be, huh?

09-16-2007, 12:16 PM	#5 (permalink)
Introvrtd1 Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Overseas Posts: 320	Well..................................... 4am. Still up. Still dark out. Reading and posting gives me a sense of purpose. Think i'll visit the anxiety forum a while. Mine is starting to kick in.......

09-16-2007, 01:45 PM	#6 (permalink)
Introvrtd1 Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Overseas Posts: 320	Just got in....sittin here at the office. Reading and posting. Its very early. Nobody here yet. Still dark out. This is crazy. Being the only one in the building this early. In the dark. At my computer. Ha, the only good thing is when I arrived being the only car in the lot. For now. Having any spot I want is fun. Arriving when everybody else does is a drag. The fight for spots begins. Bosses dont worry about spots. Theirs are reserved near the building. For everyone else, the race is on. Parking is not all that big a deal. Its just a matter of how far u walk. The furthest spot is maybe a one minute walk. Soon as the day begins, I'll get sleepy. Go figure, I been up since 1am.

09-16-2007, 03:45 PM	#7 (permalink)
Introvrtd1 Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Overseas Posts: 320	Spent some time on the anxiety forum. Man, Im really having a bad time.......

09-17-2007, 12:33 AM	#11 (permalink)
Introvrtd1 Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Overseas Posts: 320	Great. I've had meetings, site visits, lots of emailing, other busy stuff all day, while fighting to stay awake. I finally get home, eat a little meal and plop down on the couch. Normally I would be fast alseep. Wouldn't ya know, the sleepies were all gone. Closed my eyes, but felt just like I did at 1am this morning. NOthing. sigh...........I hate this.

09-17-2007, 02:43 PM	#12 (permalink)
Introvrtd1 Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Overseas Posts: 320	Had a fairly decent nap when I got home from work. At first, a struggle, because I felt very tired, but wanted to sleep. Finally blacked out for about 2 hours. Man, that really charged my battery. At what cost? I went to bed at 11pm after reading and posting. Didnt actually fall asleep until around 1am, but slept thru the nite. Only about four hours sleep, but tonite should be better.

09-17-2007, 03:21 PM	#14 (permalink)
Introvrtd1 Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Overseas Posts: 320	Thanks Viki, Since being off benzos, I think the body creates quite a tolerance/dependence. Of course ur sleeping well on benzos, coming off is the hard part. I dont know about the hypno stuff. I was too afraid to try it. Im a control freak, and someone else in control, particularly of my mind is a scary thought. 8-10 hrs work, three daughters,......oh, the drama u must see. The cause of my insomnia was drinking. When I stop, I sleep like a log after a few days of turbulent sleep patterns. Exercise is tough to fit into a busy schedule, but boy does it really help. Nothing fancy, just 30min, 3X a week walking, biking, yoga, or any vigorous activity. I really believe you will detox, and start to sleep better. Hope this is helpful. Good luck, Intro

09-17-2007, 03:32 PM	#15 (permalink)
Afraid2Succeed Member Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: media, pa Posts: 243	Insomnia can be a vicious cycle, and reading the earlier posts bring me back to those days... Some tricks that worked for me in the past... 1) Whenever I couldn't sleep, I would leave the bed. The 'bed' was only for sleep, and I didn't want to associate insomnia w/laying in bed. 2) Sticking to a sleep schedule. At first this is easier said then done, but if you can manage a period of repetition, your body will become accustomed to it. 3) Exercise. I usually wore myself out by swimming, and swimming, and swimming. Your alert mind cannot resist the body's tiredness. 4) Healthy diet. Old cliche, but you are what you eat. Certain foods will wreak havoc to your blood sugar and consequently make you tired at inopportune times. Resist the mid-day nap. I would also try the 101 remedies out there, though none of them worked for me. Such as warm milk, hot bath, boring book (kinda worked actually), clearing mind, counting and visualizing numbers in order, etc. Bryant Gumbel once said sleep was overrated. He routinely sleeps 4 hours a day. He is weird, in my expert opinion. best, Dave

09-18-2007, 02:38 PM	#17 (permalink)
Introvrtd1 Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Overseas Posts: 320	Getting better...... Had two, 30 min workouts yesterday. Bed at 10pm, took about an hour to knock out. Only woke up once (3am), quickly back to sleep. Hit the snooze on the alarm this morn. Woke up 45min later, YIKES,......overslept. ............getting better...... Lets see how long it lasts.