What else & why?

[lovetoall]

It will be two months before a year of my mother's passing and I'm not handling it very well. I just can't believe an entire year has almost passed and I'm amazed at what I've been through. I look back and it's all been a blur and unbelievable pain. I'm proud of me for doing my best but also can still remember the old me that I had to leave behind. I miss my life from last October.
My fiancée just called and his PARKED car was just hit at work in the parking lot. The police are on there way. It was a garbage truck that hit the car. The kid driving was going too fast and hydro-planed into his new SUV. I just don't know anymore. Life just happens but we've been through so much pain - Why Lord more?
All is hectic with school starting up again, wedding plans that are stressful, mom's house, GREIF, and now this ... life just happens but right now it's too overwhelming to cope.
I miss my mom- I miss my life.
Will anything good ever happen again?
I don't want to grow into something negative, something bitter....
that's not me
yet. miss you mom- need you to make it all better.

[In memory of miracle]

I so know what you mean...good thing's will happen again.

[Wolfstarr]

Me too, sometimes it just gets too much, but it will get better, I promise, I promise.

Keep talking and getting it out...don't let how you feel settle down to the bottom of your soul...talk and write and express...we are here.

Hugs and prayers
Wolfstarr

[deedee]

(((Angela)))

I'm sorry you're hurting so and can relate to everything you said. I had a meltdown at the six-month anniversary of my son's passing ... half a year without him, the rest of my life without him. I wished desperately to go back to before IT happened, to have my old life back.

Life keeps happening, some days are better than others, but the pain and sadness are never too far away. I think this is what is meant by walking through it, or some days dragging ourselves through it.

Your mother's with you always ... just think of her light and her love shining down on you. And know that others care deeply and are walking with you.

hugs,

deedee

[lovetoall]

((((Dee Dee, Wolf & Miraclen))))
Thank ya'll so much! Rob got home a little while ago and I made him dinner.
The car was hit pretty bad and his pride was/is hurt with it being a new. The whole back end will have to be replaced- 2 to 3,000 I'd say. The kid that hit his PARKED car was taken in and tested for drugs. I guess it's part of the garbage co's policy? Anyway.... it will all work out - just a pain especailly when the car was parked and Rob wasn't even driving... CRAZY

Dee Dee, I'm with you and thanks for your understanding words. The six month period "they" (whoever they are) say is one the hardest periods. The shock around then begins to wear off and acceptance is something your mind can not yet take. It's a transitional period of change that your mind and body can't handle. I had to go to the doctor then because my body was physically showing signs of grief. I'm better now but not 100%. I've had some pretty hard spells but like you said ....
you just have to keep walking through it.

Thanks again
Angela