Going Alone

[lovetoall]

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Have been away. It feels good to get back & check in with you all. I'm leaving again but this time alone to my mother's house. It's a three. five hour drive haven't driven that far alone since last September. I'm trying to get her lawn up to par -so I'm having an irrigation system installed. She passed away in the home so it will be tough to be there and sleep alone. When we go - it usually takes me a few days to adjust and then when we're about to leave, I don't want to go. I experience this a lot with trips of any kind... but doing it by myself will be hard. My father hasn't been any help which hurts beyond words. Went to the doctor today... I'm doing better emotionally. How much more can I take?
I'm strong but need prayers.... one step at a time, right?

Ang

[Wolfstarr]

(((lovetoall))))

Hello Ang, been thinking of you.
Yes, one step, one inch, one millimeter at a time...whatever it takes dear heart.
You sound well, and strong--yes.
You most definitely have prayers from this person...a candle will be lit for you tonight.

Peace Ang, and prayers
Wolf

[deedee]

Hi Angie -

I was just thinking of you the other day. I'm sure going to your mom's will bring up a lot of emotion, so be gentle with yourself. Do you have friends there that can spend time with you? I think sometimes it helps to be around others who care, and there are other times I just want to be alone with my thoughts.

I've thought recently of driving past my son's old house ... I heard someone new is living there ... but so far, I can't bring myself to do it. Some days putting one foot in front of the other is the best we can do.

Have a safe trip Angie and take good care.

hugs,

deedee

[lovetoall]

Thanks wolf and dee dee- getting ready to leave .... I think it will be good to go alone - I'll be out of my comfort zone and I need to come to terms with acceptance. My fiancé has been my strength so now I need to step up to the plate....I guess? Ouch, this is going to hurt- I know.<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /><o:p></o:p>
My mom lived at the beach so the good thing is -if I need to get away -I'll just go for a long walk. Coming back Friday - to have one last free weekend before teaching starts up again. Can't believe it's August -my mind is still waiting for halloween 04'. What happened.....

It's just so unreal that she's not here- so unfair. It's hard to say well... at least she's not in pain and accept it - but I have to, I have no other choice.<o:p></o:p>

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I'm still in shock - and it's been nine months- but I'm walking on facing the pain. It's all I can do; there is no other alternative unfortunately. Thanks for the prayers and for thinking of me. God Bless you all,

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