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renee18 · 04-22-2005, 03:27 PM

My grandpa passed away Nov. 6, 2001 and this year I am graduating from high school. Right now I do not want to graduate. The most important person in my life can not be there to watch me graduate on May 27, 2005. My grandpa support me so much and he loved me unconditional unlikie my parents he was there for me when my parents weren't he always said go for your dreams and goals I am but he can't be here to see what I have done. I am angry because God took him away from me and that he got to see my brother graduate but he wont see me graduate. I am so sad on the inside and I depressed. I am just trying to get by. My heart is in so much pain.I hope I can be hsappy when I graduate but right now I do not want to graduate because I want to be able to hug my grandpa and to hear from him that he is proud of me I know it will not happen but that is what is in my heart.
Love,
Shana

Mandybabes · 04-22-2005, 04:01 PM

Shana, your Grandpa will be there hugging you, just close your eyes and you will feel it. The best thing you can do to celebrate his life if to be happy and go forward. He will be so proud of you.

Love, Marilyn

oncewaslost · 04-22-2005, 04:30 PM

i know how u r feeling...and im sorry...i lost my grandpa in sept. 2001...i was closer to him than i ever was with anyone else...my world fell apart when i lost him...more drinking/drugs etc...and i finally learned that no matter how miserable i was nothing could bring him back...we cant stop living our lives...just because we lose someone we love...with time it will get better...i know it will...people lose loved ones everyday...we just have to keep living our lives...try to be as happy as we can...im sure your grandpa will be looking down on you and smiling....proud....i know in my heart that mine still does...

renee18 · 04-22-2005, 08:28 PM

Thanks guys. I know my grandpa is watching overm me and that he will be with me on graduation just not in the form I want it. It is hard When that person was your whole life almost 4 years later I am still in a lot of pain Thanks for writing.
Love,
Shana

04-22-2005, 03:27 PM	#1 (permalink)
renee18 Awaiting Email Confirmation Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Massillon, Ohio Posts: 387	Angry and Sad My grandpa passed away Nov. 6, 2001 and this year I am graduating from high school. Right now I do not want to graduate. The most important person in my life can not be there to watch me graduate on May 27, 2005. My grandpa support me so much and he loved me unconditional unlikie my parents he was there for me when my parents weren't he always said go for your dreams and goals I am but he can't be here to see what I have done. I am angry because God took him away from me and that he got to see my brother graduate but he wont see me graduate. I am so sad on the inside and I depressed. I am just trying to get by. My heart is in so much pain.I hope I can be hsappy when I graduate but right now I do not want to graduate because I want to be able to hug my grandpa and to hear from him that he is proud of me I know it will not happen but that is what is in my heart. Love, Shana __________________ Count the night by stars, not shadows. Count your life by smiles, not tears.-unknown- I will not fear what the future may held or be held captive to my past

04-22-2005, 04:30 PM	#3 (permalink)
oncewaslost Member Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Clarksville, Ar. Posts: 23 Blog Entries: 2	i know how u r feeling...and im sorry...i lost my grandpa in sept. 2001...i was closer to him than i ever was with anyone else...my world fell apart when i lost him...more drinking/drugs etc...and i finally learned that no matter how miserable i was nothing could bring him back...we cant stop living our lives...just because we lose someone we love...with time it will get better...i know it will...people lose loved ones everyday...we just have to keep living our lives...try to be as happy as we can...im sure your grandpa will be looking down on you and smiling....proud....i know in my heart that mine still does... __________________ "Peace is not the absence of conflict but the ability to cope with it"

04-22-2005, 08:28 PM	#4 (permalink)
renee18 Awaiting Email Confirmation Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Massillon, Ohio Posts: 387	Thanks guys. I know my grandpa is watching overm me and that he will be with me on graduation just not in the form I want it. It is hard When that person was your whole life almost 4 years later I am still in a lot of pain Thanks for writing. Love, Shana __________________ Count the night by stars, not shadows. Count your life by smiles, not tears.-unknown- I will not fear what the future may held or be held captive to my past

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04-22-2005, 04:01 PM	#2 (permalink)
Mandybabes Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: midwest Posts: 148	Shana, your Grandpa will be there hugging you, just close your eyes and you will feel it. The best thing you can do to celebrate his life if to be happy and go forward. He will be so proud of you. Love, Marilyn

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