my dad's voice . . .

[MsPINKAcres]

As most of you know - my dad passed away Sept 11, 2011 - I am doing fairly well I think, going thru the healing process - with working full time, raising our 7 yr old granddaughter and everything else that life holds - I truly don't have a lot of time to deal with the grief.

Kaileigh is on the upside of her grief from losing her mom 2 1/2 yrs ago and seeing me cry brings up those old feelings for her again ~ so I try to avoid her seeing me a lot. Not always tho, I do share with her that sometimes ReeRee just has to cry because I'm sad - it's just part of losing someone you love. And I ask her to hold my hand just like I held hers when she cried - I think it might be helping her to know she can't fix it but she can lend support - (I'm so trying to help her with those Codie tendencies I see peeking out!!)

But anyway, why I started this thread - Today my mom had to disconnect my Dad's cell phone - his plan was near the end of the month and it was time ~ so I called it one last time - just to hear his voice, even if it was just him saying "Jesse"
I wish so badly I had saved one of his voice messages on my phone ~ one of those Thursday messages that said " It's Thursday and I'm suppose to talk to my daughter. . . call me back if you get a time sweetheart, so long"

Today I feel like saving every voice mail i get - because you just never know . . .

I'm just lonesome for him ~ more than I ever thought I could be ~

I know with time the pain will ease -

But somedays I would like to crawl in bed and just weep for hours. . .

today nor tomorrow will be that day . . .

so I just take a few mins - post a few words here - shed a few tears - then fix my face, remember that voice and back to the things I need to do -

I pray each of you grieving the loss of your precious loved one - peace, comfort, love and joyful memories -

PINK HUGS,
Rita

[Impurrfect]

(((Rita))) - I understand. Every now and then I'll hear someone say "good morning sunshine" and though I often growled at mom when I wasn't READY to wake up, we would laugh because SHE wasn't a morning person, either.

Though you may not have a message saved, I promise...our memories are precious and 20 years later, I can still hear mom.

Love, hugs, and prayers,

Amy

[hopeful0323]

For months after my dad passed, I had an old VM from him on my phone. I listened to it everyday for about 6 months, hearing his voice gave me so much comfort. You and your family are in my prayers.

[BrianUtley]

It sounds you are doing well. Everyone goes through the grieving process at different rates and there is no right or wrong answer for how long it should take.
9 years later I still yearn to talk to my father. It does get easier though. I learned during the first few years after my father passed that I shouldn't be to hard on myself and shouldn't set expectations on where i thought i should be in the grieving process.

[2stop]

((((Warmest hugs for you))))). I know it hurts beyond what any words can describe. Like you I could kick myself for not saving a message from my dad too.....I would love to hear his voice again.hang in there.

[chicory]

(((Hugs)))

How wonderful that you had such a good dad. It must hurt more to lose such a good father, but think of all the wonderful memories you have.

you are being such a good ReeRee to your little girl.

hugs
chicory

[FoundmySelf]

I am sorry for your pain Rita (((hug)))

I lost my Dad 7 years ago on September 13th.. and every now and then I will put my wedding video in and watch that Father/Daughter dance and just cry. I remember the words he was saying to me as we danced together.. His sweet and musical Italian accent.. If you close your eyes and listen.. you will never forget.. It is not the same, but you will never forget

I also think that you are doing an amazing job of teaching Kaileigh.. this is hard for us as Adults to understand let alone innocent children.

Your in my prayers
Mish

[MsPINKAcres]

Originally Posted by Impurrfect

(((Rita))) - I understand. Every now and then I'll hear someone say "good morning sunshine" and though I often growled at mom when I wasn't READY to wake up, we would laugh because SHE wasn't a morning person, either.

Though you may not have a message saved, I promise...our memories are precious and 20 years later, I can still hear mom.

Love, hugs, and prayers,

Amy

aww - Amy did you know that is what a call Kaileigh - "sunshine" - because she has beautiful blonde hair - big blue eyes and she lights up our world when she walks in the room!

So I call her Sunshine!

Thanks everyone for the love and support!

PINK HUGS,
Rita