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Maggiemac · 11-17-2009, 06:15 PM

In a few days my boy will be dead 1 year. I heart feels like it was yesterday. I have learned you don't die from grief because I am still living. I think of all the good times together but with the holidays coming again all the tears will come more than last month. I don't think I will ever stop crying. I pray to God he will ease the grief and it has at times but others times it feels like a new wound. That hurt that you can't explain you just feel. The empty space that can't be filled I can't put it into words. But it is their always.
Thanks for reading this.
Your friend

Maggiemac
Jason's mum
11-19-08 overdose

Live · 11-17-2009, 08:40 PM

Maggie,

I am so sorry.
I made some changes in my holiday celebrations to make them less painful for me.
I hope you will be ever so gentle with yourself and take your needs into consideration at every turn.

This is year 10 for me and this year I am in a rage about it. But I have been remembering and dreaming alot of happy stuff, more than ever before.

((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))

dslalonde · 11-18-2009, 10:15 AM

My thoughts and prayers are with you maggie,
Especially tomorrow.
:praying

**Astro** · 11-18-2009, 10:33 AM

Maggie, I pray for you and I know you hurt, I wish I could take all that pain away and leave only the happy memories. And I hope that someday God brings you to a place of peace and comfort, no mother deserves to be unrestful. Sending you hugs.

Scott

redemptionnow · 11-18-2009, 06:03 PM

Maggie,

The empty space you speak of I know well. My wife died one year ago October (undiagnosed heart condition and alcoholism). Two weeks ago was our wedding anniversary and next week her 53rd birthday. We were together 30 years and had grown so very close her last year. We became soul mates through the adversities and wonderful times we shared. I just started dating out of a strong desire for companionship, but there is hole in my heart that feels as though it can never be filled again.

We had no children. I know your pain of losing a child through her mother. Alcoholism took her husband at 32, leaving her with 6 young ones to raise on her own. Now she has lost the daughter who was most like her husband in spirit.

Maybe this was their only way out of their pain. I believe those we have lost want us to live full and joyous lives, often easier said then done. Don't give up.

Jon

I grieve for you
You leave me
'so hard to move on
Still loving what's gone
They say life carries on
Carries on and on and on and on -Peter Gabriel

Katyrose · 11-19-2009, 07:18 PM

Maggie, I am thinking of you today and praying for you. It's the hardest day to get through. I hope you are okay, my friend.

Love,
Katy

11-17-2009, 06:15 PM	#1 (permalink)
Maggiemac Member Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: Westland, Pennsylvania Posts: 241	Nov 19 1 year. In a few days my boy will be dead 1 year. I heart feels like it was yesterday. I have learned you don't die from grief because I am still living. I think of all the good times together but with the holidays coming again all the tears will come more than last month. I don't think I will ever stop crying. I pray to God he will ease the grief and it has at times but others times it feels like a new wound. That hurt that you can't explain you just feel. The empty space that can't be filled I can't put it into words. But it is their always. Thanks for reading this. Your friend Maggiemac Jason's mum 11-19-08 overdose

11-17-2009, 08:40 PM	#2 (permalink)
Live Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: Bristol TN/VA Posts: 11,306 Blog Entries: 5	Maggie, I am so sorry. I made some changes in my holiday celebrations to make them less painful for me. I hope you will be ever so gentle with yourself and take your needs into consideration at every turn. This is year 10 for me and this year I am in a rage about it. But I have been remembering and dreaming alot of happy stuff, more than ever before. ((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))) __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

11-18-2009, 10:33 AM	#4 (permalink)
Astro Forum Leader Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Scottsdale, AZ, one big happy dysfunctional family! Posts: 11,839	Maggie, I pray for you and I know you hurt, I wish I could take all that pain away and leave only the happy memories. And I hope that someday God brings you to a place of peace and comfort, no mother deserves to be unrestful. Sending you hugs. Scott __________________ "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty, and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming---WOW-What a ride!"

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11-18-2009, 10:15 AM	#3 (permalink)
dslalonde Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Location: Antioch, Ca. Posts: 159 Blog Entries: 1	My thoughts and prayers are with you maggie, Especially tomorrow. :praying

11-18-2009, 06:03 PM	#5 (permalink)
redemptionnow Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: Minneapolis MN Posts: 10	Maggie, The empty space you speak of I know well. My wife died one year ago October (undiagnosed heart condition and alcoholism). Two weeks ago was our wedding anniversary and next week her 53rd birthday. We were together 30 years and had grown so very close her last year. We became soul mates through the adversities and wonderful times we shared. I just started dating out of a strong desire for companionship, but there is hole in my heart that feels as though it can never be filled again. We had no children. I know your pain of losing a child through her mother. Alcoholism took her husband at 32, leaving her with 6 young ones to raise on her own. Now she has lost the daughter who was most like her husband in spirit. Maybe this was their only way out of their pain. I believe those we have lost want us to live full and joyous lives, often easier said then done. Don't give up. Jon I grieve for you You leave me 'so hard to move on Still loving what's gone They say life carries on Carries on and on and on and on -Peter Gabriel

11-19-2009, 07:18 PM	#6 (permalink)
Katyrose Member Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: MA Posts: 111	Maggie, I am thinking of you today and praying for you. It's the hardest day to get through. I hope you are okay, my friend. Love, Katy

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