1 year anniversary

[bobafett]

This weekend my beloved younger sister should have been celebrating her birthday. Instead next week will mark the 1st anniversary of her death.

I sit here and weep for the sister I loved so much.

I weep because the drugs she thought were her only salvation hurt her so much and cost her dearly.

I weep for the beautiful vivacious gentle girl she was and how life wore her out.

I weep at the tragedy of her lonely death.

I weep for how callous and indifferent the medical field was to her when she was sick and when she asked for help.

I weep for all the fighting and bad moments that happened during her life.

I weep that she couldn't find happiness and peace except through drugs.

I weep that she thought we'd all be better off without her when all there is now is anguish and emptiness.

I weep that I couldn't save her despite years of trying.

I weep that I never told her we all fought so hard only because we loved her so much.

I weep I wasn't kinder - more sympathetic - more compassionate when it was obvious she was miserable.

Most of all I weep because I miss her -every day.



Rest in peace til we meet again, Sis.

[nickishine]

For coming here and sharing! Oh how I feel your pain. YOU are NOT alone! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx!!!!!

[redemptionnow]

Thank You for sharing that with us. There are so many things you weep for that I weep for too. My wife died one year ago on the 11th. Her heart gave out before she found sobriety. You touched all the pain I am feeling right now.

I believe the loved ones we lose want us to move forward and still live happy fulfilling lives. As far as saving them I believe we did the best we could, and they did the best they could.

Today we weep, but someday the sun will shine again.

JP