 OH--What To Do?
I'm not new to recovery but new to this wonderful site. Glad I found you all. I've been struggling with the oerwhelming need/urge to drink this last week; my beautiful MOM died last Sat. and ....I haven't touched alcohol since June 1. Not only have I had a 40+ yr battle with binge drinking I also have schizoaffective bipolar disorder AND Borderline Pers. disorder. I do take meds which help of course but not nearly enough now. The shock the deep pain is too much. I'm t rying to give myself reasons why I SHOULD drink, but I know from the past it would delve me into a downward spiral and I could wind up in the hospital yet again!! Don't want that. No one this close to me has died before. I went looking for a support place to help me cope. We're all in some sort of an inner battle...oh....God give us strength Blessings to all
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10-09-2009, 08:22 AM
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