| Found some photos I had never seen
I lost my exboyfriend 9/11/2008. Tonight I don't know what got into me, but I googled his name. And I found these pictures he had posted, that I never saw before. And I just feel so sad suddenly. I just miss him so much. I feel so guilty lately, I put distance between myself and him because the addiction he had was destroying my life, but now, sometimes I just wish I hadn't done that. Sometimes I wish I had just stepped past the fear and seen him once more. I feel like I was really unkind. It's strange, in ways I was very kind, but not ever seeing him again -- I just wish I hadn't chosen that route.
__________________ In memory of Mike, brilliant artist, loyal friend, beloved soul who passed away on September 11, 2008 from the disease of addiction.If you are lost please take this chance to go to a meeting today or ask someone for help. |