Its been a year

[mellowchick]

I lost my fianceé a year ago today. He was my best friend, my everything and I miss him so much. His Dad and I found him. He hanged himself. He beat cancer, twice. He fought so hard to beat it. He fought hard trying to beat addiction and each time this disease pulled him deeper. My heart hurts so much. I'm sad. I miss him. I still cry on a daily basis. There are things that I want to forget (the scene of finding him, things of that nature) and there are things that I pray that I never forget. (his smile, his touch, the way he held me, the way he loved me and so on) I don't know if this ever gets easier. Even in loss of a loved one I find myself taking it one day at a time. I'm just so sad today.

[deedee]

(((mellowchick)))

I am so so sorry for your loss. I also lost my son to suicide and it has been a very difficult journey to survive the pain and grief. The only way I survived it was by taking it one day at a time. It will soon be 4 years and I can tell you that time does soften the pain.

Your fiance sounds like a wonderful and loving man, and I believe he's at peace now and suffers no more. Please know that loving prayers are with you :hug