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debmar · 11-23-2006, 05:01 AM

I must say yes, I have pondered over this holiday and it's meaning, how can I be Thankful for not having my husband the second Thanksgiving this year.
I still can't believe he's not here, although knowing the spiritual connection I have with him, reassures me I'm not alone!

I asked myself how would my husband want me to view this day and my feelings, and I came to the conclusion I MUST be Thankful to be alive if even pyscially alone, because My Husband did NOT want to die from this disease.

My Marty LOVED life and struggled with his pain inside himself, and still had the strength, zest, and love for life.......to always have a smile on his face.

Bad day, he smiled, went blind, he smiled, was in psycial pain, he smiled, came down off of drugs, there was that smile again.

The only time he did'nt smile was when he was using to kill the pain inside.

So just for my Baby today, I will be Thankful.......
that I had my soulmate
that I had his smile
that I have a lifetime 25yrs of memories to cherish of him forever
tons of pictures of his smile!!!!!
that his spirit is present in my life and that he has'nt left my side....not for a minute
that I was able to support him always and take care of him and love a wonderful...husband, man, human being, with a humongous heart and soul.

So my Thanksgiving Blessing, goes out to all of you, our special family here that we suffered such a huge loss of life.....and yet we must look at the glass half full and Thank God and count our blessings to have had this special person in our life........because my life would not have been the same without him.....no purpose.....no meaning.....no beautiful smile......

So I'm gonna act crazy today and be happy and not cry, well I lied I'm sure I will cry, and stuff myself with turkey and give a Huge Smile to my family today in rememberance of MARTY........

THANK YOU ANGEL, GOD BLESS YOU WITH ME ALWAYS:Wgla

Wolfstarr · 11-23-2006, 10:06 AM

((((Debmar))))

Love you kiddo...Many Blessings to you, too on this Thanksgiving Day.
Thank You..

renee18 · 11-23-2006, 12:26 PM

Happy Thanksgiving to you. Remember the good memories. That is what I am doing today this is my 6th thanksgiving without my grandpa and it is still hard. Thanksgiving was the first holiday I had without him so i understand. I is okay to cry. Keep your head up

Shana

***greeteachday*** · 11-23-2006, 09:05 PM

((((((Debmar)))))))
I hope you had a day filled with laughter, wonderful memories and loved ones. Holidays are hard, but your strength and love for Marty shines through.

pmaslan · 11-24-2006, 08:57 AM

Hey Deb, I hope you had a nice Thanksgiving.
I have been thinking about you a lot lately.
Give me a call sometime soon maybe we can do
something fun and crazy......lol

BigSis · 11-24-2006, 09:25 AM

(((DebMar))) It sounds like your Marty was also very fortunate to have you in his life. I hope your day was good.

deedee · 11-24-2006, 10:05 PM

(((Debbie)))

Your love for Marty just shines sweetie. This was our second year also without my son and I feel much the same as you ... the sadness lifts a bit and I'm left with gratitude for the time we had. There will always be that empty seat, and a voice no longer heard, but the memories live always in our hearts.

much love and blessings to you ~

deedee

cwohio · 11-27-2006, 01:11 PM

((debbie)) thank you always for expressing so many of the feelings i can't seem to put into words. love ya girl!!!

debmar · 11-29-2006, 04:46 AM

To My Best Friends on this page, your kind heartfelt words to me, touch my heart and soul. When I read the responses you give me....it utterly brings me to tears and then......such a self assuring feeling comes over me from all of you.....and those are the very words that help me keep going strong everyday, when most times I feel so weak. And to my Christy it's so funny when you tell me how I express what you cannot, and honestly I feel so silly when I post my feelings here, for fear of looking stupid, lol. And then you come along and reaffirm to me we feel the same. I love all of you, God Bless You for the season we're about to endure.

cwohio · 11-29-2006, 12:40 PM

((debbie)) - you put down in your posts what is part of you - i have such a hard time with verbalizing/writing. i hope you will not feel silly when you post - you bring so much to this forum!!!

11-23-2006, 05:01 AM	#1 (permalink)
debmar debbleslosthermarbles Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: ChicagoBurbs Posts: 75	Happy?Thanksgiving? I must say yes, I have pondered over this holiday and it's meaning, how can I be Thankful for not having my husband the second Thanksgiving this year. I still can't believe he's not here, although knowing the spiritual connection I have with him, reassures me I'm not alone! I asked myself how would my husband want me to view this day and my feelings, and I came to the conclusion I MUST be Thankful to be alive if even pyscially alone, because My Husband did NOT want to die from this disease. My Marty LOVED life and struggled with his pain inside himself, and still had the strength, zest, and love for life.......to always have a smile on his face. Bad day, he smiled, went blind, he smiled, was in psycial pain, he smiled, came down off of drugs, there was that smile again. The only time he did'nt smile was when he was using to kill the pain inside. So just for my Baby today, I will be Thankful....... that I had my soulmate that I had his smile that I have a lifetime 25yrs of memories to cherish of him forever tons of pictures of his smile!!!!! that his spirit is present in my life and that he has'nt left my side....not for a minute that I was able to support him always and take care of him and love a wonderful...husband, man, human being, with a humongous heart and soul. So my Thanksgiving Blessing, goes out to all of you, our special family here that we suffered such a huge loss of life.....and yet we must look at the glass half full and Thank God and count our blessings to have had this special person in our life........because my life would not have been the same without him.....no purpose.....no meaning.....no beautiful smile...... So I'm gonna act crazy today and be happy and not cry, well I lied I'm sure I will cry, and stuff myself with turkey and give a Huge Smile to my family today in rememberance of MARTY........ THANK YOU ANGEL, GOD BLESS YOU WITH ME ALWAYS:Wgla __________________ DO WHAT YOU CAN AND THEN PRAY THAT GOD WILL GIVE YOU THE POWER TO DO WHAT YOU CANNOT *St. Augustine* SOY, PALOMA BLANCA DEBBBIE

11-23-2006, 12:26 PM	#3 (permalink)
renee18 Awaiting Email Confirmation Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Massillon, Ohio Posts: 387	Happy Thanksgiving to you. Remember the good memories. That is what I am doing today this is my 6th thanksgiving without my grandpa and it is still hard. Thanksgiving was the first holiday I had without him so i understand. I is okay to cry. Keep your head up Shana __________________ Count the night by stars, not shadows. Count your life by smiles, not tears.-unknown- I will not fear what the future may held or be held captive to my past

11-23-2006, 09:05 PM	#4 (permalink)
*greeteachday* Just Me Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: a better place Posts: 3,852	((((((Debmar))))))) I hope you had a day filled with laughter, wonderful memories and loved ones. Holidays are hard, but your strength and love for Marty shines through. __________________ Sometimes your only available transportation is a leap of faith - Margaret Shepherd

11-24-2006, 08:57 AM	#5 (permalink)
pmaslan Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: Chicago, IL Posts: 2,333	Hey Deb, I hope you had a nice Thanksgiving. I have been thinking about you a lot lately. Give me a call sometime soon maybe we can do something fun and crazy......lol __________________ Patty you either make dust...or eat dust. H. Jackson Brown Jr.

11-24-2006, 09:25 AM	#6 (permalink)
BigSis On a tear Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Volcano Country! Posts: 3,240	(((DebMar))) It sounds like your Marty was also very fortunate to have you in his life. I hope your day was good. __________________ No matter how spoiled the past may be, our future is spotless.... BigSis

11-23-2006, 10:06 AM	#2 (permalink)
Wolfstarr Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Deeeep South Posts: 767	((((Debmar)))) Love you kiddo...Many Blessings to you, too on this Thanksgiving Day. Thank You..

11-24-2006, 10:05 PM	#7 (permalink)
deedee Member Join Date: Aug 2001 Location: Faith~Hope~Love Posts: 933	(((Debbie))) Your love for Marty just shines sweetie. This was our second year also without my son and I feel much the same as you ... the sadness lifts a bit and I'm left with gratitude for the time we had. There will always be that empty seat, and a voice no longer heard, but the memories live always in our hearts. much love and blessings to you ~ deedee __________________ ~ While the light lasts I shall remember and in the darkness I shall not forget ~

11-27-2006, 01:11 PM	#8 (permalink)
cwohio Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Litterbox City Posts: 6,142	((debbie)) thank you always for expressing so many of the feelings i can't seem to put into words. love ya girl!!! __________________ *Learn to write your hurts in sand. Learn to carve your blessings in stone! - Unknown*

11-29-2006, 04:46 AM	#9 (permalink)
debmar debbleslosthermarbles Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: ChicagoBurbs Posts: 75	To My Best Friends on this page, your kind heartfelt words to me, touch my heart and soul. When I read the responses you give me....it utterly brings me to tears and then......such a self assuring feeling comes over me from all of you.....and those are the very words that help me keep going strong everyday, when most times I feel so weak. And to my Christy it's so funny when you tell me how I express what you cannot, and honestly I feel so silly when I post my feelings here, for fear of looking stupid, lol. And then you come along and reaffirm to me we feel the same. I love all of you, God Bless You for the season we're about to endure. __________________ DO WHAT YOU CAN AND THEN PRAY THAT GOD WILL GIVE YOU THE POWER TO DO WHAT YOU CANNOT *St. Augustine* SOY, PALOMA BLANCA DEBBBIE

11-29-2006, 12:40 PM	#10 (permalink)
cwohio Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Litterbox City Posts: 6,142	((debbie)) - you put down in your posts what is part of you - i have such a hard time with verbalizing/writing. i hope you will not feel silly when you post - you bring so much to this forum!!! __________________ *Learn to write your hurts in sand. Learn to carve your blessings in stone! - Unknown*

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