And Now I Lay Thee Down To Rest

This year has been and continues to be very challenging for me. I honestly don't know how I'm managing to pull through. I'm sure my Higher Power, Gawd, and SR all play a vital role in it somehow.

On the verge of tears, I sit and ponder all that has transpired...A lot has happened in the past year. One moment I'm beyond words--then next moment I'm overwhelmed with memories and speechless.

The single-most important thing that has me so emotional, is a direct result of trying to make amends with an old flame last year. That flame has died, and cannot be rekindled. Surely I mourned then, and I feel almost obligated to relive it.

I layed to rest a relationship that died 15 years ago. With her help, we finally made the reparations that were long overdue. In years past, November 15th always held such a dark cloud over my head. Today, I thought of it only for a passing moment. That, in and of itself is a small miracle!

I would be lying if I said I didn't love her still. Maybe not as much. Maybe more. It's hard to say. Today is different. It's not any easier, but it is better. I thank Saint Augustine for his inspiration.

And so now I lay thee down to rest...


Holding Onto Letting Go


When you came into my life,
I had little to hold on to.
My days were filled with strife,
And my nights were lonely too.

Letting you go is harder than holding on.

You gave me a new hope,
But I had little to let go of,
Aside from the end of my rope.
In despair, I closed my eyes and looked above.

I'm holding on to the idea of letting you go.



Copyright ©2006 Midas / Barry L Harper


One lonely tear falls as I sit here holding on to the idea of letting you go.

[Phinneas]

I know that pain, too, Midas. Time eases the pain. But, of course, time takes time. Hang in there. You're doing the right things to take care of yourself.

[deedee]

(((Midas)))

What a poignant post I'm sorry you're hurting, it is very hard to let go. Wishing you peace, comfort, and hope as you carry on.

[cwohio]

(((bb)))

[Cynay]

The sad part too is another door can not open for you till you walk through this pain and close that door.

Wishing nothing but peace and happiness for you.

It's a dull, persistent pain, very much like a tension headache. It'll pass.

[ayla zaire]

you are in my thoughts and prayers...i hope tomorrow is a better day...the pain will ease with time....

hugs
ayla

[greeteachday]

I admire your strength, your self knowledge and your courage as you keep moving forward. I pray that you may find the happiness you so deserve and joy and peace always.