Hope!

[Tom M]

I have a job that I started 2 days ago driving a cab.
This truly is a job I can't stand, but, I am also grateful to have this job.
I will work as much as I can and as often until I get my bills paid.
I will probably work right thru the holidays, which is a good thing.
The way that I will deal with my crisis(no family or girlfriend and no contact with my 16 year old daughter), is to work and keep myself busy and away from my friends.
Steps 2,3 and 11 apply to me right now. Throw in the serenity prayer as well.
Hopefully along the way I will find myself working back in the computer field.
Not too long ago, I was on the top of my field working as a computer consultant on the Director's level in M.I.S.( Management Information Systems). What happened? Well, I forced closure on my contract back in September of 2001, just before the WTC disaster. Who new that tragedy would happen shortly thereafter?
I have had no luck getting a job in my field since then.
I'm not going to lie, some of my computer skills could probably be updated, as things are constantly changing and a lot of what I have in my background is becoming obsolete. Also I was convicted of a D.U.I. in Florida over 8 years ago and it still seems to be biting me in the ass!
Well, now that I have over 1 year of sobriety, my outlook is starting to change for the better.
I not only don't have the desire to drink again, but, I now have the desire to live again.
I have a new found courage and attitude that enables me to get up in the morning and try the best I can to restore my life back.
It may take a little time, but, I'm willing to go to any lengths to get it.
I thank my higher power(GOD!), for giving me another chance in life and helping guide me thru my crisis.
I know things are going to work themselves out in time.
The main thing is that I don't pick up and drink and stay connected with my fellow AA members.
There is hope in my future and I owe it all of my fellow AA members.
Tom M