what do you do when you told someone you weren't looking for a relationship because you just got out of one, and they get feelings for you and you have to repeatedly tell them you just want friendship and can't promise more. .
but then you start to get feelings for someone else and that someone else gets feelings for you,
and you tell everyone you just want to be friends and person 1 gets mad at you for possibly having feelings for person 2 and you tell them you don't have feelings for anyone because you don't want to. . .
but you do and you start pursuing those feelings in a slow way with person 2 and then person 1 is around, wanting to be "friends" again. . . and you get scared that they're going to be an ******* to you again when they find out you're seeing person 2, possibly spreading bad things about you.
don't expect it to make sense, it's drama. sorry. i'm new to this and i feel like it's really unhealthy and i'm feeling a lot of shame and i don't think i'm handling it well.