He's gone ......
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each person here suffers in their own way and yet continues to heal thru sharing and helping others. that is truly the beauty of life. I am grateful for each post and prayer.
I have learned what I already knew. I trusted God in all of this. No matter what common sense told me or advice from friends and family ... I stayed with him. It was so awful and painful much of the time but something drove me to never give up.
He had a broken part of him and this drug helped him cope. He was tired of making me cry. Tired of the daily need for help from me. He could feel that I was pulling away.
The last night I saw him, he wanted to take me to dinner. He asked if we could just have one nice night. No fighting, no tears. He was oddly different. Peaceful, kind, loving, gentle and resigned. I didn't realize what he was trying to tell me. Maybe I didn't want to know.
He said that he was so grateful to have met me . That he fell in love with me the first time he saw my face. He thanked me for loving him as much as I did because he truly never felt it in his life. He was happy that he got to feel what it was to have this. He asked me if I knew that he loved me. If I felt it. I could only say yes, I think so. He told me that I would know how much he loved me very soon. That he had to find a way to remove me from his life so that he didn't hurt me ever again. He said that he could not go on without me in his life.
I am so broken.
I could not hear what he was saying. I could not accept the thought perhaps.
and now he's gone.
each story is different. trust in your decisions and know that God brought you to it, he will bring you thru it.
thank you everyone. I will be here when I can but for now, I must grieve for the love of my life and waiting for one more text, one call. that will never come.
I have learned what I already knew. I trusted God in all of this. No matter what common sense told me or advice from friends and family ... I stayed with him. It was so awful and painful much of the time but something drove me to never give up.
He had a broken part of him and this drug helped him cope. He was tired of making me cry. Tired of the daily need for help from me. He could feel that I was pulling away.
The last night I saw him, he wanted to take me to dinner. He asked if we could just have one nice night. No fighting, no tears. He was oddly different. Peaceful, kind, loving, gentle and resigned. I didn't realize what he was trying to tell me. Maybe I didn't want to know.
He said that he was so grateful to have met me . That he fell in love with me the first time he saw my face. He thanked me for loving him as much as I did because he truly never felt it in his life. He was happy that he got to feel what it was to have this. He asked me if I knew that he loved me. If I felt it. I could only say yes, I think so. He told me that I would know how much he loved me very soon. That he had to find a way to remove me from his life so that he didn't hurt me ever again. He said that he could not go on without me in his life.
I am so broken.
I could not hear what he was saying. I could not accept the thought perhaps.
and now he's gone.
each story is different. trust in your decisions and know that God brought you to it, he will bring you thru it.
thank you everyone. I will be here when I can but for now, I must grieve for the love of my life and waiting for one more text, one call. that will never come.
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