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Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: WI
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Dear SR and of course Dear "Uncle" Vale and "Aunt" Ann!
Ok, ok, ok already! I've tried a few times to post and even attend the Tuesday night SR meeting, however, some sweet precious baby Jack is calling...
Everything is going well, sleepless nights and all! We are still in MN, gonna attempt to make the 5 hour turned 9 hour trip to WI and their new home.
Stories, first the CPS fears...they're true, they drug urine and stool test the baby as soon as he is delivered. He passed with flying colors! I knew he would but the nagging "what iffing" I always seem to do, lingers on...
He has a full head of Jet black hair! So lucky! He has a traumatic birth...both shoulders, a head and one arm all popped out and and had to be delivered all at once, which caused a lot of bruising, but no shoulder fracture. The OB/GYN said it's not uncommon, but it sure scared me. The Dr was wonderful she didn't panick, just pulled and tugged, hard, and he was delivered. I'm sure you ladies reading this, remember and might be thinking "ouch"!!! Yep a BIG ouch!
He has grey eyes. He's so long! He is very "spry" I call it, lifting his head up and looking around. He learned as with my daughter, how to nurse and is doing that pretty good.
ABSOLUTELY NOT ONE SINGLE SIGN OF WITHDRAWALS!!!! I wanted to shout that out to any expectant RAs who sit and worry and fear like my daughter did. What will be will be. If God feels the need to have the baby withdraw from Subutex than it will be. This little Jack is calm and sweet and not showing any signs, yet. They monitored him constantly. He cried when he's hungry or when it's Vales turn to change a poopy diaper. But no screaming uncontrollably or unusual startle movements or abnormal symptoms.
But, my face hurts from this constant proud smile it has on it! It's been so long since I have smiled...or been feeling normal.
See SR friends and parents...we can show addiction the door-out!!
Other than not much sleep, my daughter is getting frustrated with "baby comes first needs" which I expected, all is well and hopeful in Grandma Twofishs world
My story, SR, used to be so sad, doom and gloom and infected with the Codie virus, and I let it happen...then, with alot help of a few hundred SR members patiently supporting me, my meetings and taking care of me, I let all that go...I learned how to fix myself. It can happen, hope is alive. God has mercy. Please, all you mommas, and Vale and all who take the time to read this, stop now, let it go, if only for a second and breathe, if only for a second, smile for little Jack and all the newborn babies born to mommas who fell to their knees to that dreadful disease of addiction. There is hope...there is always hope.
Respectfully and fondly missing you,
TF
Ok, ok, ok already! I've tried a few times to post and even attend the Tuesday night SR meeting, however, some sweet precious baby Jack is calling...
Everything is going well, sleepless nights and all! We are still in MN, gonna attempt to make the 5 hour turned 9 hour trip to WI and their new home.
Stories, first the CPS fears...they're true, they drug urine and stool test the baby as soon as he is delivered. He passed with flying colors! I knew he would but the nagging "what iffing" I always seem to do, lingers on...
He has a full head of Jet black hair! So lucky! He has a traumatic birth...both shoulders, a head and one arm all popped out and and had to be delivered all at once, which caused a lot of bruising, but no shoulder fracture. The OB/GYN said it's not uncommon, but it sure scared me. The Dr was wonderful she didn't panick, just pulled and tugged, hard, and he was delivered. I'm sure you ladies reading this, remember and might be thinking "ouch"!!! Yep a BIG ouch!
He has grey eyes. He's so long! He is very "spry" I call it, lifting his head up and looking around. He learned as with my daughter, how to nurse and is doing that pretty good.
ABSOLUTELY NOT ONE SINGLE SIGN OF WITHDRAWALS!!!! I wanted to shout that out to any expectant RAs who sit and worry and fear like my daughter did. What will be will be. If God feels the need to have the baby withdraw from Subutex than it will be. This little Jack is calm and sweet and not showing any signs, yet. They monitored him constantly. He cried when he's hungry or when it's Vales turn to change a poopy diaper. But no screaming uncontrollably or unusual startle movements or abnormal symptoms.
But, my face hurts from this constant proud smile it has on it! It's been so long since I have smiled...or been feeling normal.
See SR friends and parents...we can show addiction the door-out!!
Other than not much sleep, my daughter is getting frustrated with "baby comes first needs" which I expected, all is well and hopeful in Grandma Twofishs world
My story, SR, used to be so sad, doom and gloom and infected with the Codie virus, and I let it happen...then, with alot help of a few hundred SR members patiently supporting me, my meetings and taking care of me, I let all that go...I learned how to fix myself. It can happen, hope is alive. God has mercy. Please, all you mommas, and Vale and all who take the time to read this, stop now, let it go, if only for a second and breathe, if only for a second, smile for little Jack and all the newborn babies born to mommas who fell to their knees to that dreadful disease of addiction. There is hope...there is always hope.
Respectfully and fondly missing you,
TF
So happy to hear all is going well with your daughter and precious grandson. I love that your face hurts from smiling so much. There really is nothing like that special love for a grandchild. I am so thrilled to hear there are no signs of withdrawal. God is good TF!
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Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: WI
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Dear SR,
I've been away helping with my RADs baby.
Addiction, no matter what to, takes and takes and takes
away everything it possibly can. I've noticed that her
confidence is gone.
It could be the postpartum hormones, but she feels like
a slave to the Subutex...she longs for the days before she
found herself an addict. Such an unforgiving disease that
she has to manage and work on her recovery every day
and some days every hour. She has to remind herself to
never give up or worse to give in.
Her seeing the therapist weekly (yep, 5 days after having
A baby and moving to a new apartment) and her Sub Dr
plus her on line meetings has a lot to do with finding that
key to unlock the door to this misery. She has a plan,
tools, hope and she is in recovery. She's doing all this the
hard way, she wants to be sober, 5 words, plus the work
will bring her to the freedom, the "normalcy" that sobriety
offers. A lifetime of work, but oh so worth it!!
BTW, the baby, a blessing, has shown NO signs at all of any
withdrawals from the Subutex she took while pregnant. All
that worry and what "iffing" wasted so much time and energy.
What will be will be.
I hope this gives others some courage to
look at addiction, tell that AV, that you and you alone can do
this! Get ahead and be prepared, addiction will not give up on
YOU but YOU can stay one step ahead of its path. You have to
want this and have to want and work on recovery forever!! It
can be done! Never give up your hope! I not only speak to the
Addict but to the parents and loved ones who are affected by
this disease. And I DO speak from experience.
Respectfully and thank you SR for all the hope, encouragement,
love and prayers you have shown this momma. Your
support got me thru a frightening time!
TF
I've been away helping with my RADs baby.
Addiction, no matter what to, takes and takes and takes
away everything it possibly can. I've noticed that her
confidence is gone.
It could be the postpartum hormones, but she feels like
a slave to the Subutex...she longs for the days before she
found herself an addict. Such an unforgiving disease that
she has to manage and work on her recovery every day
and some days every hour. She has to remind herself to
never give up or worse to give in.
Her seeing the therapist weekly (yep, 5 days after having
A baby and moving to a new apartment) and her Sub Dr
plus her on line meetings has a lot to do with finding that
key to unlock the door to this misery. She has a plan,
tools, hope and she is in recovery. She's doing all this the
hard way, she wants to be sober, 5 words, plus the work
will bring her to the freedom, the "normalcy" that sobriety
offers. A lifetime of work, but oh so worth it!!
BTW, the baby, a blessing, has shown NO signs at all of any
withdrawals from the Subutex she took while pregnant. All
that worry and what "iffing" wasted so much time and energy.
What will be will be.
I hope this gives others some courage to
look at addiction, tell that AV, that you and you alone can do
this! Get ahead and be prepared, addiction will not give up on
YOU but YOU can stay one step ahead of its path. You have to
want this and have to want and work on recovery forever!! It
can be done! Never give up your hope! I not only speak to the
Addict but to the parents and loved ones who are affected by
this disease. And I DO speak from experience.
Respectfully and thank you SR for all the hope, encouragement,
love and prayers you have shown this momma. Your
support got me thru a frightening time!
TF
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