FaithNhope12

Looking back at what I wrote. Can't believe how almost a year ago I didn't care if I lived or died. I'm not a writer but putting things on paper when there was no one around helped me. My situation hasn't changed but my attitude is. My
Thinking has changed. Negatives to positives, fear to faith. This is why I needed and found this site as well as Nar-anon. I am as sick as my addict. But SR naranon the 12 steps have given me hope faith and opportunity to change without anyone judging and people who have felt the same pain and sadness

If I die before the sun rises
Would anyone wonder why
My heart would be
all bruised and scarred
A painful history

Would anyone use my eyes
And see all I have seen
The pain and the anguish
Laughter and the joy

Would anyone use my brain
See how scrambled it became
Thoughts of suicide and shame
Controlled by anger and fear

Would anyone understand
Just why I even died

Cause of death
A broken heart

The other woman
Drugs

thequest

Change IS the key. Some must decide on their own to change. No matter how much they are taught, pushed, coached or nudged to change, they must decide to change on their own. Change must be accepted as well. Hopefully change means personal and addict progress.