Loved Ones In Prison - Part 2

[sadness123]

Ray we could do that but the only problem is when he gets out I will be in school amd my grandma isnt letting me miss two days of school so I can all the was to Missouri to meet him. My dad is a really good cook though. I know prison isnt suppose to be a nice like a house but they could at least give them real meat. He gets out September 11, 2008. Thats about two months. By the time he gets out he would have been in jail one year, nine months, if that isnt exact then it is close. And by the time he gets out I will have gone one year, nine months, and eight days with out seeing him. Sad, but i have gone over four years with out seeing or talking to him, so it isnt as bad as it seems. Well I am going to bed it is two in the morning. Good night/ good morning.

[rayofsunshine]

Japic, Thanks for sharing the positive about your daughter. We need to hear the hope of recovery. I have a few favorite recovering posters on this forum with many years clean... I look for their posts when I have the extra time.

Lifechange, good to hear from you, and that you are doing well. We appreciate your sharing with us, as like Japics story, we all need to hear the hope of recovery. And as you know, sharing your story, a way of giving back, will make you stronger also. May God continue to bless you! Keep us updated from time to time!

Sadness, I'm sorry, I forgot your dad doesn't live near you. Sending prayers that things work out for you to see your dad at some point. It may not be when he gets out, but hopefully soon after. Hope you're having a good summer!


Babs, Dakota, Hello-Kitty, CMC, dogged, hope you all are doing ok! Anyone want to check in with an update or anyone new want to share your story?

[rayofsunshine]

Well, the hope of recovery for my AH seems to be going by the wayside. He just got off the intensive 6-month probation (condition of early parole) the 1st wk of July. Things have steadily gotten worse since then. Nothing changes if nothing changes. Same story almost as before he went to prison, each week it gets worse. I hate this life we're leading. I feel like a real idiot for having hope and letting him come back here after prison. I bought all the lines... not easily, but I still fell for them... I believed the promises. Now, I just have to start making plans... I am going to start saving a little $, start checking ads for places to live, etc... It may take a little while to end this, but I'm gonna do it this time. Please pray for me that I'll have the strength to carry this through.

[hello-kitty]

Hi Ray.

Keep moving forward. One day at a time. When I am faced with what seems like an insurmountable problem, I find it helpful to focus on one task at a time and follow it through to completion. You know the old saying, the easiest way to move a mountain is one shovel at a time. You'll make it. Just keep moving.

I haven't heard from my son's father in a couple months. He kept calling me and sending letters asking for money and for me to bring our son for a visit. Finally I sent him a note saying no that I wasn't comfortable doing that and I wasn't going to (I drew a tough boundary - yay me.) I told him that I didn't want my son going to prison to see someone who may not be around when he gets out. I told him that he was a bad example for Andrew, and I didn't want Andrew growing up and following in his footsteps. I told him that he could see his son when he got out - if he stayed clean long enough. I don't know if you remember, but the last time he got out he went straight to the dope dealer, and we didn't hear from him for two weeks. It was a lot of drama.

Anyway, I haven't heard from him since I sent the letter. I feel a little bad, but I'm pretty confident I did the right thing. It feels uncomfortable - so it must be right.

Hang in there. Sorry about your husband. I know you had big hopes & dreams for him. Time to focus on your own life now. Just because he is choosing to flush his life down the toilet doesn't mean that you and your children have to jump in with him and go down the drain. :-)

[Ladybugg]

Hey Ray, I have no words that I can think of at the moment. I know you've been through it so many times and so have I. I just wanted to pop in and send you some good thoughts and prayers. I know your recovery is strong....but it still hurts like hell. I'm sorry. Hugs, Michelle

[Babs]

Me too, Ray. I just want to send you positive energy and prayers for strength.
Perhaps the worse he gets, the easier it will be to make positive decisions for yourself and the children. The more active my XAH was, the angrier I became, and anger always seemed to give me momentum.

Speaking of my XAH, he has just been released from 22 months of jail/rehab. He moved back and got an apartment nearby. He seems to be doing okay for the time being. I truly wish him well. It is easier to find compassion for him now that I am not bound to him legally or financially.

The old rocking chair is still rocking, Girlfriend, climb on up and get some hugs and comfort.
Babs

[Babs]

Originally Posted by rayofsunshine

Please pray for me that I'll have the strength to carry this through.

Strangely enough, that is exactly what I add to my Serenity Prayers.....

"...and the strength to carry it through....."

It makes a very nice ending.

Big Hugs,
Babs

[Japic05]

((ray))

that's some big ole Mom hugs coming from me!!

prayers and good thoughts going out for you - that you and your HP will find your inner strength and courage that has always been a part of you - that you will stand tall and proud even tho your face may show pain and tears -

You are worth so much more in this wonderful beauty life

You deserve to have a life that is Happy, Joyous and Free

As you take each tiny step toward your path to that world for you - please know that we are there with you - with our e, s, & h and most importantly with our love, acceptance and support.

One Battle at a Time - Fight the Battle for YOU, for your Serenity and Happy Place

HUGS (Hope, Unity, Gratitude and Serenity)
Rita