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caileesnana · 01-08-2008, 07:30 AM

I thought it was a sticky. Anyone have it? I think passion wrote it.
I only had one copy and gave it away at meeting last night.
thanks to anyone who has a copy~!
susan

**BigSis** · 01-08-2008, 08:20 AM

Let me fall
Let me climb
There’s a moment when fear
And dreams must collide

Someone I am
Is waiting for courage
The one I want
The one I will become
Will catch me

So let me fall
If I must fall
I won’t heed your warnings
I won’t hear them

Let me fall
If I fall
Though the phoenix may
Or may not rise

I will dance so freely
Holding on to no one
You can hold me only
If you too will fall
Away from all these
Useless fears and chains

Someone I am
Is waiting for my courage
The one I want
The one I will become
Will catch me

So let me fall
If I must fall
I won’t heed your warnings
I won’t hear

Let me fall
If I fall
There’s no reason
To miss this one chance
This perfect moment
Just let me fall

Josh Groban

caileesnana · 01-08-2008, 08:40 AM

Thanks, that is beautiful. The one I'm looking for was posted on this site, and talks about letting the addict fall as far down as needed, not giving them a soft spot to land, etc. I will keep looking, if anyone knows what I'm talking about, help!!
susan

Impurrfect · 01-08-2008, 08:52 AM

Susan....is this it?

I am an addict

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

You can't make me clean, though I know it is what you want for me to be. But until I want it. I won't be. You can't love me clean, because until I learn to love myself. I won't be. I know you must wonder how can I learn to love myself when I am caught up in a life style of self-hatred and self destruction. I can learn from my own experiences. I can learn from the things that happen to me along the path of my own mistakes. I can learn by being allowed to suffer the consequences of my choices. Life has a funny way of teaching us the lessons we need learn.

I know it devastates you to watch me hurting myself. I know you want to jump in and save me. This helps ease your pain, but I don't think you understand just how damaging it is to me.

You see, although I look and sound like your loved one. I am not. That person is in a self imposed prison way deep down inside of my being and what you see before you is an addict ruled and reigned by my addiction. I am a addict and my main focus is to feed the addiction. Every effort you put forth in the name of "helping me" falls prey to my addiction giving it more power to shackle me down a little more each time.

I feed my addiction enough. So please don't help me.

The only way for the real me to get free is to be free. FREE to fall as far down as I need to go in order to find the strength to fight and find my way back. To break free.

How can or will I ever be able to get clean you wonder ...

The same way I gave myself over to my addiction is the same way I can give myself over to my recovery. BY MYSELF

By not enabling me you will be allowing me to reach "rock bottom". By trusting the process you move over and allow me to find the my own way back. You see, it is in the fight to get free that I will find myself. It is in the fight that I will learn to love myself and the more I love myself ... the more I will start to do to better myself, but I myself, must do this.

I am aware that when I use I am playing Russian roulette with my life. I know this, but that is a chance I take when I use. The addict in me is willing to take that chance in the name of getting high.

Rock bottom is but a circumstance away. I can't reach it you are blocking the entrance.

I know you love me and you only want whats best for me ... but that very love keeps you blind sighted to just what truly is best for me and causes you to act from/out of fear and emotions.

Please for my sake don't try to stop me... just let me go ... move out of the way and let me fall as far down as my addiction is going to take me ... as far down as I have to to reach rock bottom. Don't try to cushion the fall. Just believe in me and trust the process. Pray for me that when I do hit ... it is not with the impact that leaves me for dead (I know that is your greatest fear), but if it comes to that, be sure to tell my story so that others might learn from my mistakes and live.

Passion
Recovering addict

lostparent · 01-08-2008, 08:52 AM

Let Me Fall All By Myself

If you love me let me fall all by myself. Don't try to spread a net out to catch me. Don't throw a pillow under my ass to cushion the pain so I don't have to feel it. Don’t stand in the place I am going to land so that you can break the fall (allowing yourself to get hurt instead of me) ... Let me fall as far down as my addiction is going to take me, let me walk the valley alone all by myself, let me reach the bottom of the pit ... trust that there is a bottom there somewhere even if you can't see it. The sooner you stop saving me from myself, stop rescuing me, trying to fix my broken-ness, trying to understand me to a fault, enabling me ... The sooner you allow me to feel the loss and consequences, the burden of my addiction on my shoulders and not yours ... the sooner I will arrive ... and on time ... just right where I need to be ... me, alone, all by myself in the rubble of the lifestyle I lead ... resist the urge to pull me out because that will only put me back at square one ... If I am allowed to stay at the bottom and live there for awhile ... I am free to get sick of it on my own, free to begin to want out, free to look for a way out, and free to plan how I will climb back up to the top. In the beginning as I start to climb out .. I just might slide back down, but don't worry I might have to hit bottom a couple more times before I make it out safe and sound ... Don't you see ?? Don't you know ?? You can't do this for me ... I have to do it for myself, but if you are always breaking the fall how am I ever suppose to feel the pain that is part of the driving force to want to get well. It is my burden to carry, not yours ... I know you love me and that you mean well and a lot of what you do is because you don't know what to do and you act from your heart not from knowledge of what is best for me ... but if you truly love me let me go my own way, make my own choices be they bad or good ... don't clip my wings before I can learn to fly ... Nudge me out of your safety net ... trust the process and pray for me ... that one day I will not only fly, but maybe even soar. ---Passion

Lobo · 01-08-2008, 09:16 AM

IF YOU LOVE ME, LET ME FALL

IF you love me let me fall all by myself. Don't try to spread a net out to catch me, don't throw a pillow under my ass to cushion the pain so I don't have to feel it, don't stand in the place I am going to land so that you can break the fall, (allowing yourself to get hurt instead of me)

Let me fall as far down as my addiction is going to take me, let me walk the valley alone all by myself, let me reach the bottom of the pit....trust that there is a bottom there somewhere even if you can't see it. The sooner you stop saving me from myself, stop rescuing me, trying to fix my broken-ness, trying to understand me to a fault, enabling me.....The sooner you allow me to feel the loss and consequences, the burden of my addiction on my shoulders and not yours....the sooner I will arrive....and on time....just right where I need to be...me, alone all by myself in the rubble of the lifestyle I lead...resist the urge to pull me out because that will only put me back at square one.

It I am allowed to stay at the bottom and live there for awhile, I am free to get sick of it on my own, free to begin to want out, free to look for a way out, and free to plan how I will climb back up to the top. In the beginning as I start to climb out....I just might slide back down, but don't worry I might have to hit bottom a couple more times before I make it out safe and sound.

Don't you see?? Don't you know?? You can't do this for me...I have to do it for myself, but if you are always breaking the fall how am I ever supposed to feel the pain that is part of the driving force to want to get well. It is my burden to carry, not yours.

I know you love me and that you mean well and a lot of what you do is because you don't know what to do and you act from your heart and from knowledge of what is best for me....but if you truly love me, let me go my own way, make my own choices be they bad or good.

Don't clip my wings before I can learn to fly....nudge me out of your safety net....trust the process and pray for me.....that one day I will not only fly, but maybe even soar.

Susan, I think this is the one you are talking about. The author on this one is "Ivey".
I got it at a meeting a couple of years ago.
I liked it and saved it.

Hugs...............Lo

Lobo · 01-08-2008, 09:19 AM

This used to be a sticky but when we crashed it was lost. Maybe it can be made a sticky again.

caileesnana · 01-08-2008, 09:40 AM

Thank you all!!! I know I got it off the forum! Yes, I think it should be a stickey. I read it at my group last night and one of the parents asked for it. I didn't make a copy, thought I'd zoom in and print some more!!! The moderator and others said it "was powerful". It helped me, and I like to pass the help along.

thanks again,
love to all
susan

bluebelle · 01-08-2008, 11:40 AM

I would love to see this as a sticky again. I've been looking for it! I'm glad it was re-requested.

Spiritual Seeker · 01-08-2008, 11:44 AM

So glad to read these today. Thanks to everyone.

**Ann** · 01-08-2008, 05:42 PM

I agree and will make it a sticky now.

beverden2 · 04-08-2008, 12:57 PM

I wished i could just let my son hit rock bottom. But the fear i live with is that rock bottom will end in tragady.

Danishthorn · 04-15-2008, 02:54 PM

Wow. Those are wonderful! Thank you!

beegee · 06-11-2008, 08:54 AM

I wish I had found these three years ago. I am not sure if I would have hurt enough to be hard and walk away but I think I would have tried a lot harder to realize my protection and love was hurting more then helping. Now I hurt but I have stood my ground. Thank you

gorman · 06-19-2008, 01:34 PM

this was an awakening. I am the one trying to change the addict and its not working. What if one never hits bottom? How do I know when I need to leave the situation?

maggie6 · 07-15-2008, 08:21 AM

I would like to that everyone for the poems that I just read. Being a mom of a heroin addict I find it so comforting knowing that I am doing the right thing. It is so painfull being so helpless but I know from all the reading I do and the advice I get that he has to fall and pick himself back up. Its just so hard not being able to fix it or know where he is. Is he suffering? Is he alone? Is he dead? When will this ever end? How far down is his bottom. I wish I knew.
I get my greatest strenghs from listening to former addicts. I feel they have the most to offer because they have been there.

01-08-2008, 07:30 AM	#1 (permalink)
caileesnana Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: dallas texas Posts: 1,471	Looking for "LET ME FALL" I thought it was a sticky. Anyone have it? I think passion wrote it. I only had one copy and gave it away at meeting last night. thanks to anyone who has a copy~! susan

01-08-2008, 08:20 AM	#2 (permalink)
BigSis On a tear Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Volcano Country! Posts: 3,152	Let me fall Let me climb There’s a moment when fear And dreams must collide Someone I am Is waiting for courage The one I want The one I will become Will catch me So let me fall If I must fall I won’t heed your warnings I won’t hear them Let me fall If I fall Though the phoenix may Or may not rise I will dance so freely Holding on to no one You can hold me only If you too will fall Away from all these Useless fears and chains Someone I am Is waiting for my courage The one I want The one I will become Will catch me So let me fall If I must fall I won’t heed your warnings I won’t hear Let me fall If I fall There’s no reason To miss this one chance This perfect moment Just let me fall Josh Groban
	__________________ No matter how spoiled the past may be, our future is spotless.... BigSis

01-08-2008, 08:52 AM	#4 (permalink)
Impurrfect Member Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Atlanta Posts: 4,036	Susan....is this it? I am an addict -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You can't make me clean, though I know it is what you want for me to be. But until I want it. I won't be. You can't love me clean, because until I learn to love myself. I won't be. I know you must wonder how can I learn to love myself when I am caught up in a life style of self-hatred and self destruction. I can learn from my own experiences. I can learn from the things that happen to me along the path of my own mistakes. I can learn by being allowed to suffer the consequences of my choices. Life has a funny way of teaching us the lessons we need learn. I know it devastates you to watch me hurting myself. I know you want to jump in and save me. This helps ease your pain, but I don't think you understand just how damaging it is to me. You see, although I look and sound like your loved one. I am not. That person is in a self imposed prison way deep down inside of my being and what you see before you is an addict ruled and reigned by my addiction. I am a addict and my main focus is to feed the addiction. Every effort you put forth in the name of "helping me" falls prey to my addiction giving it more power to shackle me down a little more each time. I feed my addiction enough. So please don't help me. The only way for the real me to get free is to be free. FREE to fall as far down as I need to go in order to find the strength to fight and find my way back. To break free. How can or will I ever be able to get clean you wonder ... The same way I gave myself over to my addiction is the same way I can give myself over to my recovery. BY MYSELF By not enabling me you will be allowing me to reach "rock bottom". By trusting the process you move over and allow me to find the my own way back. You see, it is in the fight to get free that I will find myself. It is in the fight that I will learn to love myself and the more I love myself ... the more I will start to do to better myself, but I myself, must do this. I am aware that when I use I am playing Russian roulette with my life. I know this, but that is a chance I take when I use. The addict in me is willing to take that chance in the name of getting high. Rock bottom is but a circumstance away. I can't reach it you are blocking the entrance. I know you love me and you only want whats best for me ... but that very love keeps you blind sighted to just what truly is best for me and causes you to act from/out of fear and emotions. Please for my sake don't try to stop me... just let me go ... move out of the way and let me fall as far down as my addiction is going to take me ... as far down as I have to to reach rock bottom. Don't try to cushion the fall. Just believe in me and trust the process. Pray for me that when I do hit ... it is not with the impact that leaves me for dead (I know that is your greatest fear), but if it comes to that, be sure to tell my story so that others might learn from my mistakes and live. Passion Recovering addict
	__________________ "I'm not where I want to be, but thank God I'm not where I used to be" - Joyce Meyer

01-08-2008, 08:52 AM	#5 (permalink)
lostparent Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Posts: 426	Let Me Fall All By Myself If you love me let me fall all by myself. Don't try to spread a net out to catch me. Don't throw a pillow under my ass to cushion the pain so I don't have to feel it. Don’t stand in the place I am going to land so that you can break the fall (allowing yourself to get hurt instead of me) ... Let me fall as far down as my addiction is going to take me, let me walk the valley alone all by myself, let me reach the bottom of the pit ... trust that there is a bottom there somewhere even if you can't see it. The sooner you stop saving me from myself, stop rescuing me, trying to fix my broken-ness, trying to understand me to a fault, enabling me ... The sooner you allow me to feel the loss and consequences, the burden of my addiction on my shoulders and not yours ... the sooner I will arrive ... and on time ... just right where I need to be ... me, alone, all by myself in the rubble of the lifestyle I lead ... resist the urge to pull me out because that will only put me back at square one ... If I am allowed to stay at the bottom and live there for awhile ... I am free to get sick of it on my own, free to begin to want out, free to look for a way out, and free to plan how I will climb back up to the top. In the beginning as I start to climb out .. I just might slide back down, but don't worry I might have to hit bottom a couple more times before I make it out safe and sound ... Don't you see ?? Don't you know ?? You can't do this for me ... I have to do it for myself, but if you are always breaking the fall how am I ever suppose to feel the pain that is part of the driving force to want to get well. It is my burden to carry, not yours ... I know you love me and that you mean well and a lot of what you do is because you don't know what to do and you act from your heart not from knowledge of what is best for me ... but if you truly love me let me go my own way, make my own choices be they bad or good ... don't clip my wings before I can learn to fly ... Nudge me out of your safety net ... trust the process and pray for me ... that one day I will not only fly, but maybe even soar. ---Passion
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01-08-2008, 11:40 AM	#9 (permalink)
bluebelle Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 88	I would love to see this as a sticky again. I've been looking for it! I'm glad it was re-requested.
bluebelle Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 88

01-08-2008, 08:40 AM	#3 (permalink)
caileesnana Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: dallas texas Posts: 1,471	Thanks, that is beautiful. The one I'm looking for was posted on this site, and talks about letting the addict fall as far down as needed, not giving them a soft spot to land, etc. I will keep looking, if anyone knows what I'm talking about, help!! susan

01-08-2008, 09:16 AM	#6 (permalink)
Lobo Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: GO PENS Posts: 1,132	IF YOU LOVE ME, LET ME FALL IF you love me let me fall all by myself. Don't try to spread a net out to catch me, don't throw a pillow under my ass to cushion the pain so I don't have to feel it, don't stand in the place I am going to land so that you can break the fall, (allowing yourself to get hurt instead of me) Let me fall as far down as my addiction is going to take me, let me walk the valley alone all by myself, let me reach the bottom of the pit....trust that there is a bottom there somewhere even if you can't see it. The sooner you stop saving me from myself, stop rescuing me, trying to fix my broken-ness, trying to understand me to a fault, enabling me.....The sooner you allow me to feel the loss and consequences, the burden of my addiction on my shoulders and not yours....the sooner I will arrive....and on time....just right where I need to be...me, alone all by myself in the rubble of the lifestyle I lead...resist the urge to pull me out because that will only put me back at square one. It I am allowed to stay at the bottom and live there for awhile, I am free to get sick of it on my own, free to begin to want out, free to look for a way out, and free to plan how I will climb back up to the top. In the beginning as I start to climb out....I just might slide back down, but don't worry I might have to hit bottom a couple more times before I make it out safe and sound. Don't you see?? Don't you know?? You can't do this for me...I have to do it for myself, but if you are always breaking the fall how am I ever supposed to feel the pain that is part of the driving force to want to get well. It is my burden to carry, not yours. I know you love me and that you mean well and a lot of what you do is because you don't know what to do and you act from your heart and from knowledge of what is best for me....but if you truly love me, let me go my own way, make my own choices be they bad or good. Don't clip my wings before I can learn to fly....nudge me out of your safety net....trust the process and pray for me.....that one day I will not only fly, but maybe even soar. Susan, I think this is the one you are talking about. The author on this one is "Ivey". I got it at a meeting a couple of years ago. I liked it and saved it. Hugs...............Lo

01-08-2008, 09:19 AM	#7 (permalink)
Lobo Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: GO PENS Posts: 1,132	This used to be a sticky but when we crashed it was lost. Maybe it can be made a sticky again.

01-08-2008, 09:40 AM	#8 (permalink)
caileesnana Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: dallas texas Posts: 1,471	Thank you all!!! I know I got it off the forum! Yes, I think it should be a stickey. I read it at my group last night and one of the parents asked for it. I didn't make a copy, thought I'd zoom in and print some more!!! The moderator and others said it "was powerful". It helped me, and I like to pass the help along. thanks again, love to all susan

01-08-2008, 11:44 AM	#10 (permalink)
Spiritual Seeker get it, give it, grow in it Join Date: May 2007 Location: Calif coast Posts: 2,004	So glad to read these today. Thanks to everyone.

01-08-2008, 05:42 PM	#11 (permalink)
Ann Sharing Our Light... Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: By The Lake Posts: 14,292	I agree and will make it a sticky now.
	__________________ I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars.~Og Mandino

04-08-2008, 12:57 PM	#12 (permalink)
beverden2 Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Posts: 3	I wished i could just let my son hit rock bottom. But the fear i live with is that rock bottom will end in tragady.
beverden2 Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Posts: 3

04-15-2008, 02:54 PM	#13 (permalink)
Danishthorn Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Tampa, FL Posts: 36	Wow. Those are wonderful! Thank you!

06-11-2008, 08:54 AM	#14 (permalink)
beegee Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: USA Posts: 239	I wish I had found these three years ago. I am not sure if I would have hurt enough to be hard and walk away but I think I would have tried a lot harder to realize my protection and love was hurting more then helping. Now I hurt but I have stood my ground. Thank you

06-19-2008, 01:34 PM	#15 (permalink)
gorman Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: alpharetta ga Posts: 2	this was an awakening. I am the one trying to change the addict and its not working. What if one never hits bottom? How do I know when I need to leave the situation?

07-15-2008, 08:21 AM	#16 (permalink)
maggie6 Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: New York Posts: 12	Loving mom I would like to that everyone for the poems that I just read. Being a mom of a heroin addict I find it so comforting knowing that I am doing the right thing. It is so painfull being so helpless but I know from all the reading I do and the advice I get that he has to fall and pick himself back up. Its just so hard not being able to fix it or know where he is. Is he suffering? Is he alone? Is he dead? When will this ever end? How far down is his bottom. I wish I knew. I get my greatest strenghs from listening to former addicts. I feel they have the most to offer because they have been there.