New Year with new goals of objectivity

[cece]

Hi everyone,
Thank you for all your posts for the New Year!
I know I haven't been around for a bit. I have checked in a few times, no excuse just probably hiding, but I've recently had a big "Light Bulb" go on in my head and I had to share.
Although my husband and I have been separated for almost 10 months we have still been connected. I have struggled with letting go physically as well as mentally.
During this time, when we are together, sometimes it looks positive for the relationship and sometimes not.
Well he said something regarding our relationship that I finally heard correctly. sure I often heard him say it but I chose to interpret it in a way that made me happy.
He Said, " Sometimes there are times he's afraid to do or say something that he might want to, because he's afraid it will give me false hope. Often times when I heard him say this, I would try to understand the struggle. But this time when I heard it, I heard what he was REALLY saying even if he's not conscious of it. If he was afraid to give me " False Hope" then the Hope is False and not there. The hope isn't real. Wow.
So now I know I am seeing and hearing for the first time what my Higher Power has probably been trying to nudge me to see and hear.
Every year instead of a resolution I have tried to look back on my year and decide how I feel about the year and how do I want the next year to look like?
Well this year I have decide that I want to listen and look more objectively at my life and stop avoiding what I don't want to hear.
One of my sisters reminded me what a crappy year it has been for me, both my son and my husband going sideways on me. But I told her that never has there been a year where I have grown so much and look forward to the person I am becoming ( not there yet!) so its been a blessing as well as a trial.
Here's to 2008!
Cathy

[Spiritual Seeker]

A lot of "letting go" Cathy.
Sounds like you're ready with a clean slate for 2008 with no baggage from 2007.
Lots of possibilities...

[Impurrfect]

(((cece)))

I think 2008 is going to be a great year for you!

I posted on another thread, once, how I had read something by a man who said that in looking back over his life, he had the most growth as a person during the times he had the most pain. I believe we have lessons to learn, and if we don't "get" them at first, we keep going through the same thing until the light bulb goes off.

I think you have made tremendous progress in the time I've been on SR, and you will continue to do so. Here's to YOU!!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

[marteen]

Sounds like you have come a long way - keep moving forward!
Hope 2008 brings you wonderful things.

Hugs,
Marteen

[mooselips]

(((Cece)))

When I worked, I had a big sign I made above my desk, it said

"Talk Less, Listen More"

I STILL have problems with that one!

You're going to have a wonderful year, I can just feel it!

[greeteachday]

Cathy...Isn't it something how such pain can also bring such excitement about our personal growth? If I keep focusing on that...the journey itself, I can't help but find the positive.

Pretty big lightbulb moment...I'm sorry things aren't as you hoped, but I know you are moving towards what is best for you. Hugs

[cece]

Thank you always friends for your support.
As I read all the posts this past few days I see the topic of "Letting Go" is on many peoples NEW YEAR Lists to do.
Cathy

[Spiritual Seeker]

I have come to believe Letting Go isn't about them at all; it is Entirely about me letting go:
Of expectations, of my own character defects that can no longer be ignored, of control, of talking or thinking too much, of resentments, of relationships that are no longer right, destructructive habits, etc. etc.
It is like cleaning out a closet. Now there will be room for something new.