This isn't easy...but who said life is easy?

[lexusgirl]

Ahhhhhh!! I gave into the insanity tonight. I think he baited me so he could find a reason to go out and drink. I have totally detached from him in every way ie-intimacy, we don't talk, do things together, nothing, nada. We both just exist in this house as two seperate strangers and its not easy.

He kept asking me "do you want to watch this movie?" a movie he rented over a week ago--"I said No, why do you keep asking me that?" He said "fine then I'm leaving" and I said you are free to do whatever you want to do. Thats when I felt like this is bullsh*t!! Thinking what does me not wanting to watch a movie (or for that fact do anything with him) have to do with suddenly leaving? So he calls his A Dad up and I guess he went over there.

I told him what a waste, and he said "no you're the waste." That hurts...he just doesn't get it and I guess it doesn't matter anyway. Trying to find a place isn't as easy as I had expected..I can't live here too much longer.

Thanks for letting me vent..

[Spiritual Seeker]

Can you rent a room in someone's house as an interim way to get out ?

[lexusgirl]

I have looked into that but they don't allow pets.

Something else happened last night after he got home. I guess I should chalk it up to immaturity, insecurtiy, and his drinking.

He went through the trash last night... I went to get something to eat after he had left and the girl screwed up on the order and gave me a reciept for two orders, anyway she just made a mistake. So he finds this reciept and procedes to ask me WOW I must have been really hungry, who else did I have with me?

OMG how odd! And thats all he said to me last night.