Not Well.

[Nina Kay]

I am just not doing well at all. I am starting to get real depressed. I wish that it weren't dark, I feel that I need to be outside in the air right now. It's pouring rain and we're having thunderstorms or I'd go out anyway. I really 'pigged out' at suppertime tonight. I don't know why I did it. I think that it's because I feel so rotten today. I did nothing productive today and I feel very upset with myself. I've been isolating again and not getting my work or my schooling done. I'm gong to have to make a plan to get myself out of this. I need to go to God with this specifically. That's what I need to do. I guess I just needed to get this out here, so that I don't feel all alone with it. I just don't really know what's the matter with me lately.

[pedagogue]

Maybe you can make an outline of your plan here. It might help others along with yourself.

-p

[In memory of miracle]

(((( Nina ))))

So sorry you are not feeling well. Today is a new day for us, yes?
Prayers of comfort to you.
Bless, Trish

[law47]

Nina, hang in there! This too shall pass. I just got over those days off feeling like a dark cloud over my head. I think we are always going to have those days, but the more balanced we are physically,emotionally and spiritually the less we will have them. Its a process.
I recently experience the same thing with my feelings and I gave into them by sedating myself with food. I realized it must be true what that book says about the receptors wanting to be fed more sugar and we have to fight that by eating the balance of protein and carbs. I didn't realize that the process takes a while. I felt so good after 45 days of no sugar, I think I thought I was cured from the cravings. But thats where I forget about my balance in other areas of my life. I have to pray to God every morning to have this obsession lifted. I so easily forget.
ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Love ya!
Lori

[Pony]

Hey there Nina, sounds a little like me. I was given some good advice. First be kind to yourself. Next make a list of the things you want or need to accomplish and just pick one thing, or maybe two if you can, and do that and then scratch it off your list. As it gets down the line you will feel that you have done something.

Also, sometimes we just need to get rejuvinated (sp?) from inside as well as our outside. For me it usually is something with in nature, like you were saying getting outside for a walk. I know it's hard when it is raining, but maybe there is something that can do it for you. Sometimes it's a movie about a special story that seems to do the trick. OH and yeah, I do music also. I know this might sound crazy, but this is what I have done: for in the house, I go into my room, put on nature sounds with music mixed in, then put a fan on low speed somewhere in the room where it will gently blow across me, then I sit in my chair or lay on my bed....close my eyes and just listen, breathing in and out slowly. Now sometimes it puts me to sleep as well, but other times it just gives me peace and also time to think clearly about what I want or need to do and how to possibly go about it.

I hope some of this helps.....I am here for you. Please know that. I am doing much better right now.

[law47]

Originally Posted by Pony

Also, sometimes we just need to get rejuvinated (sp?) from inside as well as our outside. For me it usually is something with in nature, like you were saying getting outside for a walk. I know it's hard when it is raining, but maybe there is something that can do it for you. Sometimes it's a movie about a special story that seems to do the trick. OH and yeah, I do music also. I know this might sound crazy, but this is what I have done: for in the house, I go into my room, put on nature sounds with music mixed in, then put a fan on low speed somewhere in the room where it will gently blow across me, then I sit in my chair or lay on my bed....close my eyes and just listen, breathing in and out slowly. Now sometimes it puts me to sleep as well, but other times it just gives me peace and also time to think clearly about what I want or need to do and how to possibly go about it..

That sounds like good advice to me too Pony. I struggle with being couped up in the house. I want to eat all day.

[frizzumb]

(((((((((((NINA KAY)))))))))))))

so many bigs hugs your way my love. i have no real advice for you except hang in there. you've always been so good offering love and support for the rest of us ( definetely me) and now you need it. the storms outside and those in your mind will not last forever. you know where to find me if you need to talk. as for all the things you need to do, they'll get done. give yourself a break. it's a rough enough world without adding ED into it. (((( hugs like something fierce)))))

-- frizzumb

[pmaslan]

Hi Nina....I've been thinking about you
Hope you are feeling better today.....

[lilpony]

Nina......I hope your blaaaa mood gets better. Please don't beat yourself up too bad...
((((((((((HUGS))))))))))

[emily33]

Hey Nina, I hope that you are feeling better

[Nina Kay]

I'm sorry that I haven't got back to everyone before now. I thank you all so much for your responses and your loving support. I'm doing a little better, but I can't honestly say alot. I think that what is causing me the most trouble is the fact that I got my sleeping patterns out of whack and I can't get it straight. I've gradually gotten to where I'm staying up as late as 4:30 in the morning and I sleep until nearly lunch everyday. It's affecting me in every way. I know what I need to do but I don't seem to have enough self-control to do what I know I need to do.
This is what I'm trying to get back to:
Go to bed as close to 10:00 p.m. as possible and get up at 7:00 a.m. every morning.
I can't go to sleep, but reading makes me sleepy. So I got a couple of books from my daughter that she says are really good. I'm gonna try this and see if it will work.

[Pony]

{{{Nina}}} Sending the sand man your way

[Nina Kay]

Thanks so much Pony. I really hope that he hurries..........lol

[pedagogue]

Establishing a sleep schedule / sleep routine will help regulate your sleep. Your body will take awhile to adjust, but it does get better. Google "Sleep Routine" and similar phrases to get ideas from other people. I've written a few posts on the subject here, so you can probably search SR.

Sometimes using something like lunesta for a short time can be helpfu to kick-start your change, but that is up to you and your doc.

-p

[Nina Kay]

I'm doing a little better, I guess, but I still feel horrible. I went to bed earlier last night, but couldn't wake up earlier this morning. I ate right this morning and for lunch and a banana for snack. Fruit juice and water to drink. Took my vits and calcium. I only walked 20 min. today, but one hour yesterday and the day before. Still ate no obvious sweets. Things are bound to get better for me soon or I'll have to give in and go to the Dr. Thanks everyone for caring.

[Pony]

Keep at it Nina, it takes our bodies a while to adjust to new habits and patterns in our life. Don't give up.....but yes, if it doesn't improve...I would go see the Dr.

Of course we care......we love ya !!

[Nina Kay]

I love all of you, too. Thank you for being so encouraging and supportive. I went to bed at about 1:30 last night and got up at 7:30 this morning. So that's some better on both ends, but not quite enough hours for me, as I require, at least, 7 hrs. sleep a night.

I overate today. I didn't binge, I just overate during my meals, which is not good at all. I still haven't had any obvious sweets, though. I didn't get any exercise today. So all in all, not avery beneficially, healthy day.

Last night, I went to my first OA Meeting in several months, actually almost a year. Right after that, I went to a Meeting called The Serenity Wellness Group. It is new in my city. I went because I felt that it would be something that would help me to build upon my OA experience. It is going to be good, I think. In this meeting we are taught about and discuss methods to attain over-all wellness, not just pertaining to eating disorders. I'll try to share some of the information I get, with you all, here.

[law47]

Hi Nina, its good to know your feeling better and reaching out for help. As OA puts it, welcome home. Does your serenity wellness program involve life coaching? The reason why I ask is that we have a women come in our gym and she holds weekly meetings on wellness and support, she is also a lifecoach or wellness coach. I just wondered too because I started seeing a life coach to find some balance in my life. I feel really hopeful about it. I wish you well with your meetings. I think we are so blessed to have the support out there we need. I love this SR group, sharing our experience,strenth and hope in recovery. You are all so wonderful.
Nina, I love ya too, hang in there.
Lori