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[Pony]

Hil all, yes, I am still around. I know that it may seem like I haven't been around much, but I have been here mostly reading posts. You all seem like you are doing good. Me, well, my habits have been very erratic lately. no real schedule for eating, and a little out of control on the snacking. Some really bad choices also.

I haven't been back to the gym as of yet, and that has got me upset at myself. I hate when I get out of routine, it really messes me up. Now the time slot that I used to fill with my workout seems to be filled with other "junk". Not only do I have to get myself back on the routine, but get others in my life used to me having that time for me again. What three weeks can do to a person's routine!

Anyway, I haven't really been posting and I am sorry....again....I guess I haven't really been able to find the words to put down. I have had lots on my mind.....cluttering it, and still trying to put things into perspective and organize my time, with having to help my mom out more now. It is so easy for me to drift off the wrong direction.

Anyway, please know that I am here every day and reading and trying to keep up with everyone. I love the way you all are supporting each other and really doing good.

Hugs to all

[Pony]

{{{{{{Ms. B}}}}}}

Yes, it would be greast if we were all close by and we could have own exercise group!!

Thanks Ms. B for the support and for listening

[Nina Kay]

Hi Pony,
I'm back, sort of. I got back Monday night and then found out that my little grand-daughter had problems, so we spent Tuesday going for tests and results. Today, I didn't wake up until late. I slept 12 and 1/2 hours, imagine that. I am still feeling very ill, I guess from the stress and the trip. I had lots of fun though, so I'm sure glad I went and then stayed an extra day.

I was very glad to read your post. I'm sorry that you're having such a difficult time getting settled with your new responsibilites, but I think that happens to everyone who has extra things piled on them suddenly. Give yourself the time you need and please be understanding and patient with yourself. I know that I'm always too hard on myself, too. What I've found through these times, is that it's like those little finger toys that we used to get at the carnivals that you stick your pointer fingers of each hand in each end of the colored tube and the harder you pull your fingers to try to get them out the tighter it got, but if you relaxed, you could just remove your fingers. See what I mean. Relax and make a plan that is feasible, to gradually work back in your health routine to the now schedule. I think this step by step will get you back to it with less frustration. And, very importantly, don't do like I did and try to be so independent that I didn't let myself ask others for the help that I needed and they shouldv'e provided anyway and wouldv'e if I'd have asked them to do it in the first place. Ask for the help you need, right when you need it. They may gripe or try to make an excuse, but they'll do it if you insist and then it's done without you carrying the load all alone. You'll be happier and alot less resentful in the end. Take care of yourself. People run over us because they know they can. They won't if we don't allow it. All of this is just my opinion so please take it only if you can use it and otherwise with a grain of salt, so to speak.
You are important to me. (((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))))))

[Pony]

Originally Posted by Nina Kay

Hi Pony,
You are important to me. (((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))))))

Thank you.....not too many people say that to me.


Thanks Nina for the support. I know you are right, I need to relax and take it one step at a time and plan things out. I was just thinking of things today and was feeling so very overwhelmed that it felt crushing.....figuratively speaking. I started getting that feeling of wanting to escape it all. That is a red flag for me. Tomorrow I will be on a field trip where I will have a time to myself. It will be good time to take a notebook and do some thinking and writing on a plan for budgeting in these things. I also need to being a calendar to write down all my mom's appt. and makes some calls to set some long needed Dr. and eye appt.s for my daughter and me. It times for our check ups. I have been avoiding these things.

I have been getting along fine with my mom through all this ... so far. But her needs are high and I feel so ill-equipped to deal with them. I have no patience for the intrusion into my life....my time (what little time I get to myself). I do feel guilty about this because afterall she is my mother and is getting older and has many medical problems and I am an only child...she needs my help. I am not an organized person by nature, so bidgeting time is very hard for me. Things come up and I like being able to say...Yes, lets go.

I am just venting here, it will work it's-self out somehow.


I am very glad you are back Nina, and happy that you had a fun time. I am sorry about you little g-daughter though, I hope things will come out alright. I will be saying prayers for your little angel.


Hey, my friend, take care of you too........You are important, as well.....to me......and to alot of people ....... HUGS

[Nina Kay]

I am very glad you are back Nina, and happy that you had a fun time. I am sorry about you little g-daughter though, I hope things will come out alright. I will be saying prayers for your little angel.


Hey, my friend, take care of you too........You are important, as well.....to me......and to alot of people ....... HUGS

Thank you with love, my friend Pony. You brought tears to my eyes.

[Ann]

(((Pony))) Don't forget that we are here to support you too, and we care. When our lives are a little off balance, so can our eating habits be, I know that happens to me a lot. I envy those who can't eat when live gets chaotic, LOL.

So, no beating yourself up, unless of course that is your exercise for the day (sometimes exercise for me feels like I'm punishing my body )

We're here and we care.

Hugs and Love,

[Pony]

[law47]

Pony, I'm here for you too. I totally understand the set backs. I struggle with that alot lately. I want to blame it on the weather. Like Ms B said I wish we all lived close to each other so we could go for walks and talk to each other. My butt feels like its getting bigger sitting here at the computer. lol
I seem to go to the extreme with things. I'm either so busy doing this and that I forget myself, or I don't have enough to do and I'm feeling sorry for myself. I can't find that balance.
I can relate to the exercising, it seems that when I just blow off one day it turns to two then a week, and then I have a hard time getting back into it. Im struggling with that now. I have a little cold and I have no energy to exercise, so I feel kind of guilty because I know how I can get very complacent with that.
I have been stressing over my mom and letting that really get to me too, so I really need to get out and get the support I need from others. I tend to isolate when I feel down and that just makes me feel worse. Sometimes I feel like its just too much work to do the right thing. I just want what I want. I feel like a little child wanting their own way sometimes.
I guess you can say I'm in a slump too. But this too shall pass!!!
Take care all of you.
Love,Lori

[Pony]

Originally Posted by law47

Pony, I'm here for you too. I totally understand the set backs. I struggle with that alot lately. I want to blame it on the weather. Like Ms B said I wish we all lived close to each other so we could go for walks and talk to each other. My butt feels like its getting bigger sitting here at the computer. lol
I seem to go to the extreme with things. I'm either so busy doing this and that I forget myself, or I don't have enough to do and I'm feeling sorry for myself. I can't find that balance.
I can relate to the exercising, it seems that when I just blow off one day it turns to two then a week, and then I have a hard time getting back into it. Im struggling with that now. I have a little cold and I have no energy to exercise, so I feel kind of guilty because I know how I can get very complacent with that.
I have been stressing over my mom and letting that really get to me too, so I really need to get out and get the support I need from others. I tend to isolate when I feel down and that just makes me feel worse. Sometimes I feel like its just too much work to do the right thing. I just want what I want. I feel like a little child wanting their own way sometimes.
I guess you can say I'm in a slump too. But this too shall pass!!!
Take care all of you.
Love,Lori

As I was reading this I kept saying to myself, yep....yep....got to set that one is quotes...I relate to this....well, by the time I finished reading it....I thought....did I write this...lol

Wow, we share alot of the same feelings right now, thanks for totally relating !

[law47]

Pony, Its nice to know I'm not alone. I feel that way sometimes. Thank you for being there.
Lori