One Day At A Time

[Brave Heart]

One day at a time.. be patient with yourself.. dont be cruel and unforgiving with your self.. treat yourself with understanding.. you are up against a serious desease and crafty apponent...

If you mess up "and you will " dont take it lightly ... but dont take it too hard or else you wont win... the road to success is full of failures...

I will not hate myself.. I will not look in the mirror and compare myself to the me of many years ago. I wont be that cruel with myself not that harsh towards me... I am sick.. I am trying to treat myself and I am doing well... I am thinking I am fighting and when needed I am surrendering

step 1. Realise that my life have become unmanagible and that I am powerless over food.

why ? Because food is my escape.. I am fighting that.. trying to understand myself my desease my weaknesses my strong points..

but in the end I do have a system... it is called the 12 steps...

İts cured millions of people from many different addictions..
It cured my father from Alcohol and took me to Alanon where I saw that I too was an alcoholic... and I am sober now 20 years...

But food... oh what a hard apponent you are.... my hobby is cooking... the food takes away my stress and worries... and then the desease adds to them...

Talking and sharing is lovely... but I want to echo these words..to all of you

"Work The System.. it works if you work it"....

Just writing and sharing and griping and crying and ranting (may make us feel better and not lonely) but we would make more progress concentrating on "working the steps".... cause as you get better with the steps you heal quicker... think clearer... mess up less.. and need to BS less...

Today I send a hug to all my fellow brothers and sisters that are battling this humiliating desease that takes lovely deep sensitive sexy people and disfigures them and embarasses them....

I have not been well lately... but that too is part of Gods plan for me... all of this will make me stronger and wiser and in the end when I beat this this disgusting desease and I will cherrish my health that much more...

But I just want to tell (share with) all my fellow battling souls out there... "work the steps"... its works if we work it...

Now I go out into to world to battle for my honor and an honest living... my desease does not fight me fair... its sneaks up on me... and trips me as I try to move forward.... its is sinester... and evil...

My answer is the love and proven recovery of the millions who have followed the steps... Im gonna beat this thing... Im gonna be healthy again.. foxy again .. a handsome man again.... I will model again... God wont let down... I will be kind to myself and let myself find my way.. I will not critisize every mistake I make... I will be honest and diciplined with myself and "just do the best I can" and in doing so I wont blind myself to beauty of this day just infacuated with my dreams of tomorrow. Every day is a blessing that I have learned to treasure... even the pain and hardships are a blessing that sharpen us like a stone sharpens a knife....

I have not been well lately but thats gonna change right now.. cause instead of just recycling emotions and hurts in my mind with testimonials I will bypass that waste of precious energy and instead use that power to fuel my progress in "USİNG THE STEPS"

One Day at a time ladies and gentlemen....

Today is my day one as far as I am concerned... I once again start over.. but but not foolishly from the begining... hey no ones perfect I will probably mess up again .... I dont want to be perfect I dont strive for that.. I just want to "DO THE BEST I CAN" one step at a time..

Im gonna beat this thing.. now it got me mad.. Im fighting back!

[indigo]

Good for you one day at a time, fight back.

[law47]

WOW! Braveheart, your name suits you well. Your message is very powerful and says alot. Its so true how we have to apply the 12 steps in our lifes on a daily basis. I didn't understand the steps when I first got sober, I just wanted to do them all and get them done so I would be cured.
I now work them to the best of my ability. I fall short in a days time, but with my HP by my side I have the strenth I need to get back up. That is a gift we recieve when we are willing to surrender to this disease. Your right, we have to do the next right thing in a days time. Gods will. We take the action and he gives the blessing.
I love how you said today is day one. We all have one day at a time, thats a gift, (the present). I wish you all the strenth you need to recover from your illness. I will pray for you braveheart that you get well soon.
I looked inward there was honesty. I looked outward there was hope. I looked up there was Faith.
God Bless You.
Lori

[Brave Heart]

God bless you too Lori ...
I will pray for you too dear friend...
It makes a world of difference.....
It a rough road....
But we can do it..

[Nina Kay]

Hi Braveheart,
Long time no see. I'm glad to see you here again. I'm sorry to hear that you haven't been well. I really hope that it's not serious. You've made some really good points in your post and I know that you're right about working the steps. Keep coming back.